When I was young, my parents always said that if you want to go to school well, don't study badly, study seriously, concentrate in class, and do what the teacher tells you to do, okay...... I'll admit that I grew up hunched to pay attention to their nagging.

It was only when I stepped into society that I found out...... I've always loved her dearly.

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The autumn wind always blows people's hearts, and they can't get hot when they want to, but it's very cold, and I met her in the year when her parents divorced.

Is it true that if you lose something, you will always get some new compensation...... Perhaps!

My family's surname is Liu, the word Ruoyu, and there are always people who like to call me stupid, or even call me stupid...... Well, none of this matters, the important thing is that the girl I know, her name is Yang Fan.

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I still remember that year, it was the fifth grade of primary school, I forgot how many times I saw her, and I really realized that the day she saved zài was the time when my parents divorced, to be honest, I was very puzzled about my parents' divorce, what is divorce?

When I was 12 years old, on the last day of the final exam, my dad came to pick me up, at that time, my impression was that my dad was a man who liked to laugh and was very honest, I still remember that afternoon, I left the classroom with a book in my hand and an excited face, because after the last exam, it was going to be summer vacation.

At that time, my father was riding a motorcycle, leaning on the top of the car, holding a cigarette in his right hand, and seemed to be smoking in silence.

He just quietly told me, "Child, will we stay in our hometown for a week?" seemed to be a word of consent, but there was obvious unquestioning in the tone, although it seemed so strong.

I just asked, "What about Mom?"

"She's not going back. Dad replied succinctly.

I just nodded ignorantly, followed my dad back to the house on a motorcycle, took some change of clothes, and left the house, even if I planned to say goodbye to my mom, my dad didn't give me a chance.

And just like that, I set out on my way back to my hometown.

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The sea breeze on the road was very cold, well, it was cold, it was cold in my heart.

When I went back to my hometown, I thought that it was only the only important thing besides studying, because my grandmother, aunt and second uncle were all in the old family, and they were very good to me, maybe because I was the eldest grandson in the family, right? Maybe it was just simple, I was their junior, and they should love and care for me.

The days when I returned to my hometown, almost like three meals a day, nothing changed, but halfway through my aunt and grandmother often asked me, child, your parents are going to divorce, who are you going to go with in the future?

At that time, it seemed to me that such a question was obviously not something that should be considered at my age, and I should not focus on studying? Yes, learning is very important!

I almost forgot how I answered such a question at the beginning, maybe in my cognition, even if I am divorced, my father is still my father, my mother is still my mother, how can it be like Zhao Benshan said: Your uncle will always be your uncle, and your aunt may not be your aunt!

A week passed quickly, I went back to town, but I didn't live at home, but lived in the third uncle's factory, and my dad disappeared for a few days.

The third uncle was a relatively wealthy person in the family at that time, a little fat, the same is true of the third aunt, and the same is true of my younger brother, Liu Ruojie, he likes to eat chicken and duck legs since he was a child, and he can't be born with more fat.

When I was a child, I was three years older than him, and I always bullied him, and he always cried, and the third uncle and third aunt did not beat me and scolded me, but persuaded my younger brother: My brother is not sensible, don't worry about me.

All right...... I admit that I was really muddy at that time, and even when I was young, I thought in my heart that I could only bully you, and if others dared to bully you, I would beat him.

How young and ignorant!!

If it's meant that you're destined to lose something, then okay...... I lost the life of my family of three sitting together to eat and watch TV at noon and evening every day, and my life changed since my father returned to the third uncle's factory.

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The track of life will never be a little covered up because of your situation, and we will always do the most ignorant things at the most ignorant age.

Just like that, my parents divorced...... At that time, I had no opinion or understanding of this matter at all, and even my mind only came up with the scene of a person eating, and I didn't even search the Internet for what a divorce was, which was really a wry laugh.

My parents' divorce seems to have had very little impact on me, perhaps invisibly making me, who was in a rebellious period, a little eager for freedom and a wild life.

The playfulness is getting heavier and heavier, and it is only when she appears in front of me that I will choose to be quiet.

And she is such a girl, quiet, pretty, thin. I've watched almost every move she makes, and every bit of her without touching the law...... I don't think it's a perversion, but an appreciation, a morbid concern for me, who has a crush on her. Her fingers are clean, white and red, and her little hands are delicate and white.

Her laughter is as melodious as a silver bell, especially the laughter that always comes out, which always makes me feel as soft and refreshing as a spring breeze.

Her mother and my third aunt are sisters, and when she was young, she basically never left her mother's side, and the younger brother with a very big mouth.

I almost got through the hardest years next to her.

Her name is Yang Fan, she is really ordinary, but she always makes me feel bright...... That's what I always say to myself.

At that time, I didn't know why I was in love, why I liked it, but every time I felt that I was with her, I was very excited and happy all day long, and this was the original thought.

What I remember the most is that she has an irregular red birthmark on her right arm, I always say to myself that it's okay, it's not on the face, and I will have a disgusted heart for ugliness, it's incredible, is it true that everyone is born with beauty?

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Almost in the sixth grade, I really liked her sensually and emotionally, and it wasn't until I almost lost her that I woke up, and it turned out that I had never liked anyone else, even when I was in a relationship with another girl.

I don't know when it started, my heart would always beat because of her appearance, and the burning heart always caught me off guard, as if once I woke up with a high fever, and at that time, I almost dreamed that she woke up next to me.

But the result was very unsatisfactory, I asked my mother to accompany me to the nearby Gillian clinic, at that time, my mother obviously had some distressed feelings in her eyes, I obviously remember the red in her eyes, now think about her at that time, I should not want to shed tears in front of my son, right?

Not long after she stayed with me, my mother left like this, and I didn't know how to tell her, "Mom, I want to go home with you." ”

At that time, after the injection, I went back to the third uncle's house and fell asleep, and I was alone in the third uncle's house at that time, and the whole family went out.

As she wished, she still came.

I think it's probably true that you gain what you lose something.

Xiaofan, this is her close people will call her nickname, these two people almost always occupy my mind, once I thought I couldn't forget, but I didn't expect to lose my mind and go crazy for a while, and I really 'forgot'!

If I see her laughing, I will laugh too, then I think it's just liking, but if I see her crying, I don't do it...... Perhaps, this is love.

Because I was distressed, I was indifferent, and because I loved her, I was left with only comfort.

In my memory, she never cried in front of my eyes, always a smiling expression, the silver bell-like voice, always in my ears, it was a voice that went deep into the bone marrow, even if I closed my eyes, even if she was not by my side, but it always haunted my ears and touched my heart.