It's a long story, and it has to be said, Nanfeng raised his hand at the old monk, "But it doesn't hurt to say it." ”

The old monk wanted to speak and stopped, hesitated for a long time, shook his head and said, "Don't say it." ”

Nanfeng raised his eyebrows and glanced at the old monk, but did not answer.

Silence, silence, silence, silence all the time.

In the end, it was the old monk who spoke first, "Although the old man is a member of Buddhism, he is not tolerated by his peers, and his Zen principles are not liked by believers. ”

Nanfeng nodded.

It could be seen that the old monk didn't want to talk in detail, but he couldn't bear the silence of the south wind and asked questions, so he had no choice but to speak again, "In the eyes of the world, the old monk is a deviant demon monk. ”

"Why do they look at you like that, what have you done?" asked Nanfeng.

The old monk shook his head with a wry smile when he heard this, "There are many evil deeds, and it is difficult to write about them." ”

Nanfeng also laughed, it is naturally not a good word to have evil deeds, and it is difficult to write with a derogatory meaning, which must be the word used by those who slandered this old monk back then.

Seeing that the old monk hesitated again, Yuan Anning said beside him, "Master, we are not difficult for strong people, peeping into people's privacy, but we don't know the past, so we don't know the cause and effect of the fate." ”

"That's what the donor said. The old monk nodded, "It's just that there are many ups and downs, and I don't know where to start for a while." ”

"Let's talk about my life first, and then I will talk about my evil deeds. Nanfeng reminded with a smile.

Nanfeng reminded that the old monk had the general direction of the speech, and after singing the Buddha, he began to recall the speech.

The old monk name Baozheng, the common family name Liu, was originally a Jiangbei clan, in the early years, the Xiongnu, Xianbei, Qiang, Di five ethnic groups invaded the north, wanton killing, the Han people faced the catastrophe, Baozheng family fled from the north to the south.

Fleeing is not a travel, starvation is a common thing, seeing that he can't support Baozheng, Baozheng's parents sent him to a temple in the south,

Bao Zheng was only eight years old when he was shaved, smart, hard-working, not lazy, and literate.

Putting down the butcher's knife and becoming a Buddha is a phrase that monks often hang on their lips, but this sentence is only what they say to outsiders, in fact, most of them think that monks who are halfway monks cannot become Buddhas.

This is like wearing clothes and marrying a wife, no one likes old goods, many people who are monks are halfway monks, and most of them are frustrated in love and see through the red dust, this kind of people are generally older, and they have experienced more, and their hearts are mixed, and it is difficult to calm down and cultivate Buddhism and enlightenment.

A simple and intelligent child like Baozheng is rare in the temple, and as soon as he enters the temple, he is favored by the host, shaved for him, and accepted as a disciple.

The old host is very good to Baozheng, regards him as his own, and teaches and cultivates wholeheartedly.

Although the master and apprentice are not blood relatives, they have the inheritance of mantle and skills, and the old host regards Baozheng as a descendant, and Baozheng also regards the old host as a relative.

Baozheng's talent is good, his understanding is high, he learns everything quickly, and seeing that there are successors, the old host is very relieved, and he was promoted to the supervisor of the temple when Baozheng was sixteen years old, and he taught more and more dedicatedly, and secretly was ready to pass on the throne to him.

The accident happened when Baozheng was seventeen years old, and it was said that men should marry women when they were married, even if they taught their hearts on weekdays, and the rules were clear, Baozheng was still sensible, and began to like women, all said that food and sex, sex also, it is the nature of men to like women, and they can't be suppressed, and soon Baozheng got together with a female pilgrim.

The female pilgrim is not an unmarried girl, but a concubine of a rich family, who came to the temple to burn incense and ask for a child, and will not come after a while.

After learning that he was being used, Bao Zheng was very sad, nine out of ten young people were hypocritical, and Bao Zheng was no exception.

Bao Zheng didn't say in detail how he gave up on himself, it is estimated that he has done a lot of bad things, the old host loves his disciples, tries his best to persuade him, helps him cover up, and tries to persuade him to turn back, but Bao Zheng made up his mind not to go to the right path, no matter how the master persuades, he just didn't listen, and he also broke the eight precepts of Buddhism in a masochistic way.

Being a good person is like climbing a mountain, which is very tiring. But being a bad guy to evil is like jumping into a pit, and it's very easy. Seeing that his beloved disciple was killing himself, the old host was very sad, and he was old, and finally died of anger after Baozheng was drunk again and was carried back.

The death of the old host hit Bao Zheng very hard, and since then he has changed his mind, self-discipline, and self-cultivation, and wants to be a prodigal son who does not change money.

But soon he found that it was easy to go from good to evil, and it was difficult to turn from evil to good, and after experiencing some dirty things, his heart had begun to be mixed, and he could no longer find his original pure heart.

It was only at this moment that he understood why the old host was so strict with him at the beginning, and the more experiences the better, in his words, some experiences are like toilet urinals, it is best never to be contaminated, and the best realm is always white and flawless, spotless.

Suffering is not an excuse for depravity, and while regretting the beginning, Baozheng did not give up on himself again because he could not reach the superior realm, but meditated on it, devoted himself to studying Buddhism, and deeply reflected on his own mistakes.

There are similarities between cultivation and Buddhism, but there are also great differences, the biggest difference is that cultivation is a gradual process, and Buddhism is not, Buddha cultivation pays attention to epiphany, often ten years of penance is not as good as an epiphany, in the end, he was inadvertently inspired by the lotus, found another way to the superior realm, the lotus out of the mud and not stained, everyone will make mistakes, but as long as the mind is strong, one heart is good, even if it has made mistakes, deep in the heart can also bloom pure white lotus.

With the improvement of cultivation, he was pleasantly surprised to find that spotless is not the highest state of life, the highest state of life is to walk into the darkness and successfully come out of the darkness, because only those who have experienced the darkness know what light is.

Just saw the light, things came again, the old rich man died, and the concubine who had an affair with him was kicked out by the master mother, and at that time he had taken over the presiding, and the orphans and widows had nothing to rely on, and came to him for help.

Baozheng did not refuse to recognize their mother and son because the concubine deceived him back then, but recognized them very frankly, passed the position of host to others, and took the mother and son away from home.

Although he left the monastery, Baozheng did not return to the world, and after settling the mother and son, he did not live with them, but lived elsewhere, trying to find money to help them live.

Wearing the hat of a monk, Bao Zheng has suffered from the eyes of the world, but he has never abandoned the two of them, there is only one reason, to bear the consequences for the mistakes of the year, it is not terrible to do the wrong thing, what is terrible is to do the wrong thing and avoid the consequences, a person who dares to admit his past mistakes and is willing to bear the consequences for it, is a brave person, and it is also worthy of respect.

Because of the need to seek money, Baozheng could not always stay next to the mother and son, and when he returned from a long trip, he found that the mother and son were killed by wicked people, and the scene was miserable and he couldn't bear to look at it directly.

Bao Zheng had already glimpsed the Great Dao at that time, and he was not too sad, but buried the two of them peacefully, just like a monk should behave.

But Bao Zheng then behaved like a monk, he tried his best to track down the murderers, and after finding those murderers, he did not forgive them, but slapped them one by one, killing them all.

Baozheng's reputation is not good, so he has been slandered and slandered even more, saying that he is narrow-minded, cruel and easy to kill, and a scum of Buddhism.

Hearing this, Nanfeng interrupted Baozheng's words, "Master, why don't you forgive them?"

Bao Zheng thought for a moment and said, "Why should I forgive them?"

"Master, you don't look like a Buddhist. Nanfeng shook his head and said, at this moment, he had vaguely understood why the Shangqing Patriarch admired Baozheng.

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