"Countless silent nights, I looked up at the stars and imagined that it was your deep eyes, and I always knew that my love was just unrequited love. Of course, it's good to look at your smile. ”

took out his mobile phone and sent a message, and continued to look up at the starry sky.

After the evening self-study, I didn't rush back to the dormitory to play games, and my current rank is already golden, and I don't have the motivation and urgency to rush up the rank before.

I don't know how long it has been since I have calmed down and seriously appreciated this beautiful wild scenery and deep starry sky.

I don't know what I've been busy doing all day, I haven't done anything, but I can't seem to squeeze out a little time, but of course I have enough time to think and fantasize during class.

I don't know what I've been busy doing all day, I haven't done anything, but I can't seem to squeeze in a little time, and of course I have enough time to think and fantasize during class.

I'm not the kind of person in the circle of friends or space who posts moments and talks about it at every turn, as if I don't post a few messages a day for fear that others won't know him (her), which makes people upset to watch too much. Luckily, I have very few friends.

I'm also afraid that if I stay silent for too long, other people will forget about me, so I occasionally post some words, after all, sometimes I'm also a hypocritical person, and it's enough to be hypocritical once or twice a month.

The circle of friends does not dare to post things indiscriminately, after all, relatives and friends are in it, and there are only some classmates and netizens on QQ. My mother told me that hypocrisy is also a part, and the sentimental words say that the classmates will scold them for being brain-dead or strange, but if they let their family or parents know, they will definitely ask and ask that, and make things bigger like the sky is falling, even if they know their kindness, they will still be very impatient.

Looking at the bright moon and the sparkling lake, I couldn't see the stars clearly, I don't know if it was because of myopia or the bright lights in the city that covered it.

The night in the northwest is so bright, even if I read too many novels like this, my eyes are a little astigmatism, I can clearly see the road under my feet, the hazy but incomparably majestic Helan Mountain in the distance, the mountains are spiraling, blocking the desert that is constantly encroaching in the north, and together with the mother river, it gives birth to the south of the river and these interesting people.

But I've always had a question, how long will she be able to protect us? Look at the grass on the Gobi stalls in the suburbs that have withered and turned yellow because of lack of water.

The sky is very empty, there is not a single cloud, whether it is black or white, night and day, the rain of the previous two days has caused the dust and willow catkins in the air to settle, I can finally look at the night view and breathe the fresh air freely and indulgently on this quiet island in the middle of the lake.

The park is quiet after 10 o'clock, save for the occasional shrill laughter of the few couples on the lakeshore and the occasional clatter of a few stiff carp coming out of the water.

It's not as lively as the night in the south, and I remember vividly the singing of frogs in the fields

A symphony composed of countless insects with their own unique tunes. Even if the night of the hometown is not visible, it is full of life in the dark, not as empty and bright as here, but it is more lifeless.

I don't know if it's because there are too many pesticides on the lawn of the school, or if people come and go to keep everything away, in short, there is not even a grasshopper on the lawn that is so vigorous, and where do the birds and frogs come from. It's enough to have a loud reading voice at school, isn't it?

There are bursts of vibration on the phone from time to time, and there should be a lot of people like it, after all, it hasn't bubbled up for almost a month, and the first comment is the cousin who I've been busy but always seems to be able to get back to me in seconds.

"What's going on again? Who do you have a crush on? Tell me, I'll give you an analysis. I deserve to have no girlfriend all day long. ”

Reply immediately,

"You don't understand, I don't even know what I'm doing, I just suddenly want to wind up and talk, who doesn't order literature and art. ”

It couldn't be so simple to end the matter, she didn't comment again, but sent me a message, asked this and that, knew my learning attitude, and didn't ask too many questions about learning. Just ask some about life here, because she heard that there are sandstorms in the northwest in the spring. She also asked me if I had any girls I liked, how I got along with others at school, and in her eyes I was a younger brother who would never grow up, who was used to being withdrawn, didn't like to talk, wasn't mature enough, and loved to be cranky.

I always cope with the answer to the past, forget it, I'm fine, I'm really good, thank you for the concern, that's all. I don't know if she's in love, a girl like her seems to have been chased, but she's always been single, she told me before, remember that falling in love when she was a student was a waste of time, after all, she wants to go to graduate school, and she works as a tutor and a part-time job in her spare time, and she is a very independent woman.

To be honest, she and my mother have always influenced the opinion of the opposite sex and I am generally only interested in girls like them, and I have a good impression, just like Senior Sister and Luo Yixuan, not to mention Lan. I think if I really have a girlfriend in the future, then she must be a sunny and cheerful girl, she must be very strong, I am used to being controlled by others, even if there is a tiger in my heart, I have been suppressed into a cat, maybe I am still waiting for someone, something to release it.

Some people said that I was sick and had been sick for a long time, and she said that she could not cure me. All I can do is hope that I will get better soon, and let me see more people passing by. Slowly melt that cold heart.

I don't know if I'm really sick, and if she can't do anything, who else can save me? I'm sure she won't lie to me, even if the whole world lied to me, I'm sure she wouldn't.

"It's past ten o'clock, you go to bed early, don't work too hard, it's not good for your skin for girls to stay up late. ”

It's like ending the conversation with my cousin quickly, it's so tiring, of course it feels good that someone cares, at least no one will die anywhere.

Senior Dali also commented,

"I haven't slept yet, I'm starting to dream, hurry back to the dormitory, I see that you don't wear much when you go out in the afternoon, it's cold at night here, be careful not to catch a cold." ”

This is a rough appearance, the heart is extremely delicate Northeast fat man, our dormitory is usually just the two of us chatting, the others are either not in the dormitory or quiet do not speak. It's a pity that a good person doesn't have a girlfriend, and he knows how to watch anime every day.

"Brother Xia is here again, who do you have a crush on, tell me, I promise not to talk nonsense everywhere, this is a heart disease, I should understand. ”

This is riding the wind, you know that you are blindly making fun, you want to know everything, everything is like going to a kick, just like when we go to an Internet café on the field, we also shout to go together, of course, it is just shouting.

Usually I always have to show a big grin, without a little reserve as a girl, how good it is to be a quiet girl like Luo Yixuan, I want to be a girl, but I know that she is not, at least I can see the weakness in her heart, even if I try my best to hide it. People like to hide themselves, for all sorts of reasons, in all sorts of ways, and that's one of the reasons why I don't like to deal with people.

Looking at Helan Mountain behind the school, I thought that in a few days I must go to the mountain to watch the sunrise and see the starry sky, I haven't been to the wild for a long time. Although I rode a bicycle to climb the bell mouth of Helan Mountain, I saw the desolation of the wilderness, the vastness of the world, and the majesty of the mountain.

I'm almost ready, I have a bicycle, I've bought a tent on Taobao, I have a travel bag, and I've already planned the route. After a while, the temperature in the wild here will no longer be so low at night, and you can go into the mountains. I went alone as usual, but I knew I would never be "alone" and always have company.