Chapter 22 I don't hate him, but I can't forgive

When Lin Shu returned to the dormitory, Gu Xi had already returned. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info When she saw Lin Shu, she hurriedly walked over with a worried face.

"Shu'er, are you okay?"

Lin Shu shook her head and walked to the chair and sat down. I felt that it was rare to be quiet in the bedroom today, only to find that Lan Xiqian and Li Xiang were not there. Normally, she should sit at the table and play games.

"What about Sissi and Li Xiang?"

"I said that the school network was too stuck, and there was no way to upgrade or anything, so I went to the Internet café. ”

Gu Xi sat down next to Lin Shu.

"Senior Xinrui told me everything about you and your brother, and there are other things that my brother said goodbye. ”

Gu Xi obviously felt Lin Shu's body tremble slightly.

"You mean, Xinrui told you?"

Gu Xi nodded.

"Even if I haven't seen him for three years, I still can't hide anything from him. ”

"Shu'er, are you still blaming your brother?"

"Xiaoxi, no matter how you think about it, I have no right to blame your brother. It's just that I can't face him without saying goodbye. ”

"Even if my brother has a last resort, can't he face it?"

"If he understands me, he should know that I don't like to be deceived. Even if it's hard, tell me sincerely and say goodbye to me. Instead of walking away like that, it made me feel that in his heart, our friendship was so small. ”

Gu Xi didn't know how to comfort Lin Shu, after all, no one knew the reason for his brother's departure, except for his brother himself.

"I left my brother when I was eight years old and followed my father to England. When I was 16 years old, my mother agreed to stay with me in England for a year because of my brother's insistence. At that time, when my brother was fine, he would always look at a painting in a daze. In that painting, there is a girl lying on a cherry blossom tree in the rain, and on the balcony nearby, there are two teenagers, one of them sitting quietly listening to the rain, with a smile on the corner of their mouth. One was holding a drawing board next to him, and his expression was very casual and indifferent. It was the most beautiful painting I had ever seen, and I seemed to feel that it was about three middle school students, a very beautiful period of flowers. The elder brother said that the girl in the tree was a very important person to him. However, for some reason, he failed to keep their agreement. ”

Lin Shu listened to Gu Xi's words, and her body stiffened a little. Before Gu Chen left, she also felt that that painting, that period of time, was the most beautiful existence in her life. But now, she just wants to forget. She knew that Gu Xi wanted to comfort herself, but many things were not easy to let go.

"Xiaoxi, Gu Chen's world is too big, I can't understand it. But my world is small, and I can only remember his goodbye without saying goodbye. When he chose not to say goodbye for his family, the intersection of our lives was missed. ”

"But if you miss it, won't you really regret it?"

"When I went through the three years of high school alone, I understood that no one is inseparable from anyone, and no one can accompany anyone for a lifetime. Without Gu Chen, I still walked very well. Even though I was lonely, even if it was a little painful, I came through. In my world, his existence is dispensable. ”

"In those three years, Shu'er must have walked very hard. ”

"Isn't it the same with Xiaoxi, without my brother, the ten years I spent alone in England were more lonely than me, right?"

Gu Xi turned his head sideways and looked at the corner of the blue sky outside the balcony

"Perhaps, otherwise how could I be so empathetic.

"Does Brook know the story of the Broken Winged Angel?"

"God made the city of angels, inhabited by angels with broken wings, and paladins who guarded them. With the Paladin's protection, the fate of the angels will not be too sad. ”

"Yes, no matter how painful it is, it's your own, even if you have a paladin, what can you do?"

Gu Xi lowered his head, "No, the paladin can protect the Broken Winged Angels and keep them away from grief." ”

"Does Creek think so?"

Gu Xi raised his head with a firm expression, "Yes, I have always believed it." ”

Lin Shu walked to the balcony and looked at the sky. Maybe she is still different from Gu Xi, even if they both have the loneliness of a person, but their state of mind is sad. And Gu Xi's heart is full of beauty, and he also yearns for beauty. It's just that an eight-year-old girl left her mother and her favorite brother to go to a strange country, looking at the cloudy and uncertain skies of England. That loneliness is far better than yourself.

Gu Xi took out his violin and walked to the balcony.

"Shu'er, shall I play a tune for you? This is my favorite tune. ”

"Hmm. ”

Gu Xila's song is called "Forbiddenact", which Lin Shu heard when she was in high school. At that time, there were many times when she sat under the vines in the yard and listened to this tune.

Gu Xi's songs are full of loneliness and coldness, as well as indescribable longing. Lin Shu seems to be able to imagine a little girl in the flowering season, playing the violin alone in front of the foreign sky. She integrates herself and the people she misses into the song, constituting her own world, refusing to be invaded by anyone.

Lin Shu listened to Gu Xi's violin sound and took her thoughts far away. But at this moment, the violin suddenly changed its tone, and it became a very cheerful piece.

Lin Shu looked up, and Gu Xi's face was full of joy that she had never felt before.

"It's called 'The Joy of Love', and it's something I really like. Occasionally, when I'm very unhappy, I will play this song for myself, and I will be in a good mood.

Gu Xi played the tune, and the air was full of joy. Lin Shu also slowly relaxed, and all the unhappiness seemed to disappear out of thin air. With the sound of Gu Xi's violin, Lin Shu's face was also a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time.

At the end of the song, Gu Xi saluted elegantly. Lin Shu also stood up and returned the salute elegantly. The two got up and looked at each other and smiled.

Gu Xi took Lin Shu's hand and suddenly became serious.

"How can you let Shu'er be immersed in the sadness of "Forbiddenact" like me, Senior Xinrui said that Shu'er is a very strong girl. So, I believe in Shu'er. You can face anything bravely, just don't force yourself too much. ”

"Creek can be so brave to face it, then so can I. Life is not a tragic drama, no matter how much sadness you have, you must remember to move forward. ”

"Hmm. ”

Lin Shu and Gu Xi sat back to back on the balcony, like when they first met. For them, they may have been sad in the past, but that doesn't stop them from continuing to live happily. Because from then on, they had each other's company.