115. Be brave
This question came too suddenly, and An Ning didn't understand it all of a sudden, "Qing Zhe?"
Qing Zhe's eyes sank slightly, and the hand holding the reins slowly tightened, "In the past, many people admired you, and even did not hesitate to spread ten miles of red makeup and spend a lot of money to marry you, but you have always refused, and so did the people of the Five Kingdoms." Even if they are noble and powerful, you have not wavered. Why? Why did you suddenly decide to be with King Feng this time?"
It's just a matter of chatting for a while, does she identify Feng Lingxiao?
An Ning closed her eyes and took a deep breath, then slowly exhaled: "I feel that I need to be brave." ”
Actually, she should have liked Ling Xiao for a long time, right? The time can probably be traced back to when the two first met. Otherwise, how could she be helpless against him alone? Even if it was the most gentle imperial court, the most indifferent and resolute Ling Moxing, she could resist with confidence, but if it was Ling Xiao...... Even if it was just to meet his eyes, the momentum would automatically weaken.
If she didn't like him, how could she have told him about her childhood? It was the darkest time of her life, and from time to time she would dream back in her dreams at midnight, destroying her body and mind, torturing her nerves, and over time turning into nightmares. Once it appears, even the slightest breath is painful.
So, if she could, she would rather have amnesia and no recollection, and if she could, she would rather never be in this world.
At first, she rejected the hearts of those people because of flawlessness and heartlessness. The death of her mother and brother made her almost collapse, if it were not for the last remaining obsession, there would be no emperor in this world, and later, the imperial country was stable, they had a resting place, she became the most noble woman in his mouth step by step, and she still rejected the love of others...... She admits that she was scared, that she had a lot of concerns, even though she seemed indestructible.
However, without those gorgeous names, she was just a person no different from an ordinary woman.
She will also be afraid, she will want to escape, and she will also want to rely on someone, at least when she wakes up in the middle of the night, she can get a warm embrace. But she didn't dare to try, she would be tired, disappointed, and hurt, and if she was like this, she would rather live alone.
She had been holding on to such thoughts, so she almost forgot one truth: there is never an absolute thing in this world.
Ling Xiao broke the barrier, and although she didn't know how he did it, she had an idea for the first time. If, if that person was him, the resistance in her heart was not so strong. Maybe she should let go of the deep fears in her heart, make good friends, and try to go on with him.
Eight years is not too long but not too short, enough to warm up an uneasy and stubborn person.
Qing Zhe understood what she meant, the light in his eyes dimmed inch by inch, his trembling hand pressed against his heart, and his always stable heart was twitching at the moment, so strong that he couldn't breathe. He subconsciously clenched the reins in his hand, and the back of his hand was jumping with terrible green tendons due to excessive exertion, as if he wanted to insert the rope into the palm of his hand.
Seeing this, Dark Seven on the side hurriedly grabbed the reins and stopped the carriage, and pressed his twitching shoulder with one hand, "Hey, are you okay?"
Qing Zhi didn't answer, gritting his teeth to calm the sharp throbbing pain in his heart, but no matter how hard he tried, the pain in his heart did not weaken in the slightest, but became more and more ferocious as if it was about to swallow him.
The door curtain was lifted, and Lan Hui came out but was startled by Qing Zhe's miserable face, and hurriedly asked, "What's the matter?! Qing Zhe are you okay?!"
Qing Zhen clutched the clothes in his heart, the green tendons on his forehead burst out, and he couldn't say a word, just shook his head.
Lan Hui was anxious and was about to call her own young lady to take a look, but when she turned around, she found that she had already come over, "Miss, you see Qing folded him......"
An Ning pulled one of his hands to check the pulse, but the next second he was clasped by his backhand, and his brows were furrowed, "Qingzhi?"
He hung his head, his whole face hidden in the shadows, and it was impossible to see his expression. "I'm fine......"
"It's okay, Qingzhi, you didn't see how terrible your own face was, did you?" Lan Hui shook his head in disagreement.
"I'm fine. He repeated it again, in a very stubborn tone.
An Ning narrowed her eyes slightly, and withdrew her hand to look at Dark Seven, "Dark Seven, it's up to you to drive next." ”
"Good. ”
"Qing Zhe, you come in. With that, An Ning turned around and went back to the carriage. Qing Zhe, whose pain had eased a lot, hesitated, gritted her teeth and followed, before she could speak, she pointed to the position next to her, and her voice was very calm, "You should be very tired these days, let's have a good rest first." ”
Qing Zhi was stunned for a moment, and muttered: "I'm fine......" only said three words and met her clear eyes, so bright, as if all his thoughts were spread out in the sun, and she saw through it at a glance, and it was so firm, so firm that no one could refuse. He awkwardly avoided her gaze, "I just... It's just that I didn't sleep well last night. ”
An Ning smiled slightly: "So I'll let you rest first, we are already in the imperial kingdom now, you don't have to defend anything, rest assured." ”
"Okay, Miss has let you rest, so you can sleep well!" Lan Hui quickly packed up the quilt with his hands and feet, and seeing that he was unmoved, his eyes turned to his heart. She leaned closer to him and said to him in a low voice, "Qing Zhe, if you don't raise your spirits, how can you protect Miss? Maybe you will be transferred back to Ning Shiqi, you shouldn't want this, right?"
Qing Zhe's expression froze, raised his eyes and quickly swept over the woman who was looking at him, bit his lip and crooked his body to rest on the quilt. An Ning looked at this scene in amazement, she was still clear about Qingzhi's temper, what he didn't want to do, it was useless for others to say anything, how could he be so obedient today?
Lan Hui didn't know what her young lady was thinking, but just threw an inviting look at her. An Ning smiled and motioned to her, and Lan Hui immediately understood and covered Qing Zhen with a blanket in her sleep.
By the time An Ning and his party were still two kilometers away from the imperial city, the people with intentions in the six countries basically knew that the county lord of Qingning was about to return to the dynasty, and Nan Jiuxi was naturally one of them. When he got the news, he was in the Shangshu Mansion of the Ministry of War, and he was sitting in the courtyard with Zhuang Qian drinking and talking.
Zhuang Qian looked at the man who listened carefully to every word, and shook his head helplessly, feeling that this friend was really crazy...... Raising his glass and finding that the wine was gone, he got up to get the wine, and when he came back, the man in black who was in charge of reporting had already left, and Nan Jiuxi still maintained his previous posture, supporting his head with one hand and rubbing the edge of the wine glass with the other, his lips spreading...... Uh, something like a silly smile.
"Bang" Zhuang Qian put the wine jar in front of him, "General Nanda, take away your smile, like a fool." ”