Tsk, my mood is still a little unstable, and I ran here with nowhere to speak...... Anyway, there are few people who read the text

Well, that's probably called ...... Break up? Well, it shouldn't count. Pen × fun × Pavilion www. ｂｉｑｕｇｅ。 infoAfter all, it's also my fault, I thought that after the exam, I would slowly invest time and mood...... You might even like it. If you weren't prepared, you shouldn't have agreed? Or that you shouldn't have lost hope in the first place.

I do feel like I don't like each other, I just care and care, and I often avoid them unconsciously. This kind of care, or grinding for three or four years to make sure that the other party really cares about me and will not hurt me...... I let myself have some.

In the past few years, it has become more and more difficult to make friends, let alone objects. In my bones, I have made friends and hearts since I was a child, and I have repeatedly abused others and myself, and I was completely hurt to the point that I couldn't hurt anymore before I let go of my outermost thorn.

Haha, and then a close friend and two girlfriends, one of whom has been friends for fifteen years, called me to break up, and I didn't feel it at all, but I was stunned and found that I really didn't feel it at all. I turned around and went to talk to another girlfriend. Oh, although in the end, she was separated by more than half a year, and finally scolded me for being wolf-hearted and dog-lunged, and was too lazy to be angry with me.

Dead friends, dead friends who sleep in a bed and don't talk about anything, both of them are fragile, but the truth has only been driven crazy a few times in the past ten years. Don't believe in friendship, don't believe him, think he's just amusing suspicion, break off friendship. Every time you can make the guy in the game life the same crazy.,Tsk once saw him cry for the first time.,The last time he said he wanted to kill me.,Okay, it's true...... Scared because he really did it. Then after calming down, the sworn friend said cruelly that it would be better to spend money to torture me to death for the rest of my life...... I still believe it. Although I don't know if I will continue to die, it's only been half a year anyway, so I don't want to.

The rest of my friends and friends are ignored, and in my eyes they should all be passers-by, and maybe there are a few who can have fun a little, because there are still a few who met in my worst state and were killed by me.

So. I always felt, more and more obviously, that I was probably really cold. Except for my parents, I didn't feel any of them leaving me, including my three best friends.

Actually, the other party said that I was too tired to wait for me because I didn't care and cared? To be honest, I do care about people, and I remember that I should have cared about him a long time ago. It's the kind of normal and frequent communication, however, if you really start to let go a little bit, it will become like this, and it still doesn't work.

Normally or daily, I am a positive and sunny girl who is said to be cute. But is that me?

There are always some people who think I'm cute and kind and socialize, and then, there is no then. There will be no development in the mind.

Indeed, I like to be coquettish and cute, because it will make many people easily get closer to me and help me deal with a lot of things; kind, gentle and caring for people?Well, the things and people that happen in front of me, even if someone has nothing to avoid, I will still care, because normal girls who are not annoying should be like that......

I'm really not what you imagine and see. When I was in college, I once couldn't help but come out of the tray and write a journal in the space, which probably means that I am green tea. It's a habit to be coquettish and cute.,It's a habit to be cared for.,But I won't like anyone.。 Although none of the boys believed it, the dead friends said that I was provoking the boys' desire to conquer, hehe to die.

Won't like it. In addition to that normal orientation, since my first love in junior high school, I have been near and far away in the face of all the boys who are interested in my heart. Persecution and restraint stay away from closure until it is as calm as water, and then it is really calm as water all the time, and there is not a single ripple.

Speaking of which, for the breakup partner, this time, I'm really serious. When you fall in love, do you need to ask so much, pay so much, ask so much? I really plan to talk about getting married for a year or two, after all, I've been grinding people for four years, and I thought it was ...... OK.

Disappear or something, well, a group of friends and girlfriends, all shouting, worried, angry, annoyed...... over, and finally calmly ignored it.

Since the collapse of the character in my freshman year, I've been like this.,The sun succeeds.,Greedily want to become a popular vitality girl.。 Then, most of the department 'knows' the taste is actually not so good, and there are people on the road who keep saying hello one by one. When my friend asked, I couldn't remember the name at all......

Since then, disappeared or something, just because. The real me, in fact, is still just the inferiority, autism, isolation, dead house, sensitive, and suspicious ...... in elementary school The girl is just that. I don't have to say a word at home, I don't have to say a word, I don't communicate with the outside world, and the feeling of being alone is actually really good, and I like it very much.

So I disappear from time to time, and I don't want to quit at all.

It doesn't matter if it's divided, or if it's broken.

I always feel that over the years, when I am angry, when I joke, etc., I have also reminded the other party many times, of course, but I just feel it.

Lest you really drag it out and get married in the end, after all, I thought so, but it was estimated that it would be worse (??;)

After all, I am a person who was damaged by my best friend, and the collective curse ended up being only three years, and I will be divorced.

There is a feeling of being lonely for the rest of your life. I also thought about liquidating with the other party, which can be regarded as an explanation of the entanglement in the past few years. Since yesterday, I've been trying to reply to the other party's last text message, but I still don't dare, and I don't know how to organize the language.

Forgive me for being cowardly, I really covet the care of others, and I doubt and am afraid.

Well. People like me.

Love is really a bit whimsical.,This time it completely makes me feel unrealistic.,Blind date or something is even more nonsense.。 After all, find one that is enough (for a few years) to like yourself, and then repeatedly (abuse) to verify that it will not hurt, and then slowly try to like it, and finally it is possible to like it...... Well, maybe the love process I thought was hellish in the first place.

Forget it, in order to avoid being lonely and living on the streets, I went to be a pedestrian shield for my dead friends, but in the end, no one married, so let him marry.

I went, nagging so much. Mainly because I've been wanting to say something since yesterday, but it's really ...... I don't want to talk to anyone.

Tsk, the exam is about to end, but there are no people, and the time to prepare for love is still before graduation. Find your best friends and go on a trip.

I always feel that after filling in the two articles I am writing now, I can probably dig a new hole in my own affairs, huh...... However, it is estimated that it will be five years later, and the filling is too slow.