Although, not everyone can get up in the morning, not everyone trains so hard, after all, not everyone wants to go to the competition, but it must be admitted that they performed well.

The mornings and training on the track and field exposed me to another world at school, and it seemed that I also joined this group of energetic people who get up early every day to exercise.

Every morning when we see the tough athletes from other academies, we always can't help but feel inferior, and I have some inferiority complex in my heart anyway, they are much, much better than me.

I don't know what the athletes think, but I saw that some people had the idea of abandoning the game, and I felt completely hopeless, especially when the seniors said that the school games were so cruel and fierce competition every year, which deepened the idea of many people. Of course, there are also people who train harder, unwilling to be left behind, and want to fight their own world on the field.

Different people have made different choices, some people have not come to train again for various reasons, and have given up participating in the competition, and some people have still been unswervingly persevering, regardless of the result, just hard work.

I record the changes of the personnel every day, look at the joys and sorrows of each of them, positive or negative attitudes, I can't change anything, I can't evaluate anything, everyone has their own ideas, they have their own things, they have all kinds of considerations, I am not a party, I don't know what is right and wrong, I just look at the problem from my point of view, from the point of view of the sports department.

Senior Zhang Ziqiang didn't train with us, not because he was lazy, but because he had his own arrangements. Long-distance running is all about endurance and speed, which he learned a lot in the army, and the intensity of his training when he was in the army was much higher than ours, and I think in his opinion, we ran those laps every morning to play a few laps. Maybe it's disdainful, or maybe he thinks we get up too late every morning, and he goes to the small playground on time at 6 a.m. every morning to run. When it's over, I work on my chest muscles and arm strength on the single parallel bars.

Seniors like them, who came back from the army, get up early every morning, and their lives are very regular, even if they return to school, they insist on exercising every day, which is different from us. Of course, they are also the new force of the school's annual school sports meeting, long-distance running and other competitions, and have an advantage over most people.

After waking up from a class, I began to blame myself and reflect as usual. When I think about it, I think about why I can't get up every morning, I always feel tired and reluctant, but I can always find time to play a game every day and get my first win. Is it because playing games makes me more relaxed and happy? Many times this is not the case, but exercise always makes me feel happy, relaxed, and happy, even if I am so tired at the time, why do I always choose not to exercise and find all kinds of reasons to escape? Maybe it is because of the lack of running!

Since it only took a few months, I was able to develop the habit of playing games every day to win the first victory, but why can't I develop the habit of exercising every day and taking the initiative to take some time to study, I have been doing these things every day for so many years, but I can't form a habit.

Even if I like Luo Dayou's singing voice so much, but I am woken up by it every morning, as people say, even if you like a song again, if you set it as a ringtone for getting up in the morning, it won't be long before you will be disgusted.

It's a passive wake-up. But if I had woken up on my own initiative, maybe it would have been different. I was thinking about why I should take the initiative to get up and go for a run, which is good, but not attractive enough, plus some, such as going to see the beautiful and sunny senior sister and running with me, it is much more interesting!

This Ah Cai goes to study every day in order to chase girls, create opportunities to meet, and find a topic for chatting should also be a reason. It's not all bad to let ** secrete hormones to control the brain, and now what I want to do seems to be just to guide it in the right direction, no wonder some people say that sex is the source of men's most primitive motivation and progress!

I started trying, every night before going to bed, I was constantly hypnotizing myself, tomorrow morning I have to get up early to see my senior sister to see beautiful women, go for a run to exercise, and I can't have a beautiful encounter or something. Even so, this kind of thinking often makes some strange things happen in my dreams. But if I hear the bell in the morning and immediately mention this thought, I will no longer be as tired as before, and I won't want to get up, which will make me feel a lot more sober!

This kind of day lasted for a while, and this motivation slowly weakened and dissipated, probably because I was used to seeing so many sunny girls every morning, but I didn't have too many ideas for them, so I gradually lost interest.

I don't know how long I can continue to be able to get up every morning? Is it that once the sports meeting is over, I can't get up again? Sometimes I even think about whether I should go to find a goal, find a motivation to let him push me and restrain me every day.

Just like Wang Shiqi and the current Ah Cai, I have had this idea for a long time, but I have been suppressing it and not taking practical action, there are many things that I still can't let go of and can't forget.

Do I still love love? I am sure: love, and love. She was with me all the time, but as time passed, the past passed. We seemed to drift apart, and many times I would forget about her, and I couldn't see her.

Because I always have similar dreams, and often talk in my dreams, I don't sleep much at night, Senior Li Wenjun seems to know a lot, once when there were only two of us in the dormitory, we talked about it, and he told me about his past, that about his childhood girlfriend, and why did it become like this?

He regretted it very much, he felt that everything he did today was caused by him, and he also hated his decadence and looked down on his current self. He said that he didn't want me to be like him in the future, to follow the same path as him, and he thought that I should be a sunny and cheerful boy.

I used to be angry, thinking that he couldn't see it, but everyone is not stupid, maybe he has already understood, but he doesn't want to face it yet, just like I am now, I take advantage of the situation to escape, anyway, I have to get by every day.

I also told him about my own business, he said that all this is nothing, I have done nothing wrong, no one is wrong, just life, just that cruel and realistic life, after all, life is unsatisfactory nine times out of ten. But if I keep dwelling on this, then I guess the whole life will not be easy, in this world, I should not live for others, live in other people's world, live for myself.

I don't want to be the kind of half-hearted person in the eyes of others, he said that I think too much, I really should never forget Lan, forget those who once loved, but I can't blindly reject the people who love me, and those who I actually really like, I'm just running away now, escaping from feelings, which I'm not much better than him.

I talked to him a lot that day, and said a lot of questions that I wouldn't normally talk about, and I don't think he could have said this to Senior Dali, and the reason why he told me was probably because I was just a junior and didn't want me to follow his path again. And we're about to graduate, and we'll be on our own side in the future, and there won't be embarrassment or anything else. So he was able to open up to me, and I said a lot of things that I wouldn't normally say.

Regarding this matter, if Senior Li or Brother Long wanted to talk to me, I might be dismissive, but Senior Li Wenjun is different, and I can't tell why I can't say why. I'm always confused, and I just need something or something that makes me make up my mind, or decide how to do it.

Maybe I'm just moaning innocently, maybe I'm complicating things, or maybe I should go with the flow. There are so many maybes, and I don't know what I should do, but life goes on every day, doesn't it?