I don't remember exactly what happened after that Christmas party. I vaguely remember that under the snow she reappeared after disappearing for a while, handing out cakes to everyone with the members of the student council, although some sensitive people noticed that there were some tears on her face, and the other was that Isshiki and her former subordinates appeared in front of us after the aftermath was completed, as if there was some kind of second meeting.

Of course, I turned down the party, but everyone, including under the snow, agreed to attend the party.

So, I left slowly and alone, under the streetlights that were not bright at night.

Since the day of the collapse, one of my greatest wishes seems to have come to an end - about the change of Yukino under the snow, but I don't have any joy of success at all, I just feel that I have finally let go of a burden, and I finally don't have to bear the burden of that sense of responsibility on me, and finally I don't have to worry about speculating about the psychology under the snow.

Actually, I should have been sure that if that betrayal didn't cause complete death and heartbreak, the relationship would only be revived, so I carefully avoided any substantive discussion with the snow, but there was no escaping it. The sentence "I won't change to keep you for this event" contains such complex emotions that I can't fully understand.

It's just that I still feel a little ridiculous, and the reinvigoration and hard work after my collapse is such a goal that I want to achieve in the end?

I realized that I was actually a very bad plan executor, and when I realized my plan, I often regarded the completion of the plan itself as everything, and finally forgot the original purpose of the plan, I set a virtual timeline for myself, and then immersed myself in it, without thinking about the final result.

Actually, I can handle it better under the snow, right?

Looking up at the end of the road, a woman named Yono Yukishita was standing there, and then again, maybe the problem wouldn't have become so complicated without her fanning the flames.

Of course, I don't know if she and I happened to meet here or if she was waiting for someone here, but when we do, we always have to talk.

"Did you tell you, kid?" asked Yono under the snow, straight to the point.

"Hmm. ”

If it were someone else, I might have to argue a little more about her words, but if the other party was Yono under the snow, it would be completely unnecessary.

"Why do you feel more frustrated, I regret that I rejected Xiao Xuenai, that sister encourages you to chase her back, but this probably takes a little thought, after all, it is difficult for people to accept a person who has rejected him!"

- I know that Yono under the snow must be talking about his sister, but this description easily reminds me of another person.

Xue Xia said, I'm sorry to keep me, so what if, she didn't appear behind me at that time, didn't leave me behind?

"It seems that Brother Kazuya still won't do this!" "Yukishita Yono stared at me for a while, shook his head, and said helplessly.

"Sister Yangnai isn't here waiting for me to talk to me about witticisms, right?"

"Of course not, I stayed here to comfort my dear sister, but I didn't expect to see a certain dejected little brother first. ”

It was then that I realized that Yono under the snow seemed to know about her sister's actions tonight.

"Actually, it's easy to guess, if you know my dear sister like I do, you can basically judge that she is going to make a move tonight, after working hard for so long, after proudly making her own proof, of course she has to take advantage of this momentum to say her thoughts, otherwise with that child's character, I'm afraid it will be boring for a long time, although if it were me, I think it would be better to be bored for a long time. ”

I opened my mouth and looked at Yang Nai under the snow and said all this as a matter of course, this person is really still very powerful.

"Senior sister really understands her sister!"

"That's a matter of course, isn't it?

I nodded, actually, I know a lot of people who have the status of older sisters, and they all seem to know a lot about the character of their brother or sister.

"It's just a pity that I couldn't fulfill her wish for her. ”

"Her wish?"

"Didn't you just trick Brother Kazuya? Isn't this a failure in the end? It's a shame that I have been trying to make the two of you closer from the beginning, and she has been telling that child not to take a detour, but the child doesn't take a detour, but in the end he wants to take a shortcut, or too anxious!"

"Uh-"

Although it is good to say it bluntly, it always feels a little complicated to say these words in front of the parties in such a grand manner.

However, Yono under the snow doesn't seem to care about this.

"However, although I thought of such a result, but Brother Kazuya, did you really refuse so decisively? Although my Xiaoxue Nai's personality is still so regretful, you have also seen her, but she has changed a lot for you!"

"Please don't say it so ambiguously, as if everything under the snow is for me to change. ”

"That's okay to say that, isn't it?" said Yono under the snow, raising an eyebrow.

To some extent, it can be said. I looked at her a little unconvinced, but finally bowed my head and admitted this fact.

Whatever the reason, the snow under the snow is going in the direction I want it to be, and of course it's for the sake of what I ask of her, and it's changing.

"So, for such a good child, I originally thought that you should at least have some affection for her, and my Xiaoxue is actually a big beauty!"

It is true that although looking back from now on, the rejection itself is understandable and natural, but at that time, I reacted a little too quickly. After all, it is undeniable that as a boy, I also had a moment of excitement under the snow.

"So, why would you so decisively reject her?

"Wouldn't it look bad if you think about it a little more and then refuse?"

"That's not a good excuse!"

Yes, not a suitable excuse, but if you have to say it, it is because there is no reason for refusal.

"I just felt that I shouldn't agree, so I refused, and I never thought about the possibility of agreeing from beginning to end, that's all. In the end, the answer is this – and it's a true reflection of my heart.

"Why haven't you thought about it?"

"So, not thinking about it is not thinking about it—"

"—or, still, didn't give up on that goal?"

Of course I knew what that goal was, the goal that I had missed countless times, that I thought was irretrievable.

"Impossible, I've given up, I've wasted the opportunities I've been given, and now I'm no longer qualified to pursue it. I shook my head.

"Yes, but, in my opinion, Kazuya, your thoughts are still very strong!"

"Why do you say that?"

"So, go back and think about the reason why you rejected Xiao Xue Nai so decisively - is it true, my Xiao Xue Nai, is it not worth your consideration, or is it that your mind is full of another person, so you can't think about her?"

Mutual rejection, mutual misses, mutual misunderstandings, and scenes that have been repeated countless times flashed in my mind one by one, and maybe it was really because of this misunderstanding and missing too much that it made me have a fatalistic thought: Yubihama Kazuya and Yukina Kogi Satsu can't get together.

And this kind of fatalism always makes me feel that even if there is another chance, there will be all kinds of accidents, let us continue to pass by, if this is really fate, then what is the point of persevering?

However, the crux of the problem may not be in the meaning of persistence, right? The crux of the question is whether I still want to persevere.

Even if you know that it will be misunderstood next time, do you still want to stick with it?

The answer seems simple, but am I really trying to give up?

Perhaps, in my subconscious, I still can't give up, otherwise, why would I be like what Yono Yukishita said, only refusal, can do so right?

"So, why did Senpai say this to me, I originally thought-"

"So you think I should be more biased towards Xiaoxuenai?"

"Hmm. ”

"It's true that I've been helping that child, but if I see that I don't have a chance, it's my sister's obligation not to let her continue to be obsessed, right?"

"It's not like the serious words that Yang Nai's predecessors can say!"

"And, more or less, for Xiao Muyu, sometimes, there will be some guilt, right?"

"Guilt for Kogi's seniors?"

"A good boy shouldn't ask about things you don't know, right?"

I know that I may never know the cause of this guilt.

So, can I do what she said, for the unwillingness in my heart, and work harder?

With a little more effort, maybe it's really okay, right?

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The reason for Yang Nai's assist is seen in Strasbourg, there was a small detail at the beginning~ emmmm suddenly felt a little excessive, just sent a card to the second lady, and pulled her sister to send assists to others or something (Wangtian), second miss, I'm sorry for you QAQ