Chapter 4: The Limits of Choice and the Lie of Self-Sacrifice

Except for the call from under the snow, to my surprise, my sister didn't take the initiative to contact me. Of course, there is no regular contact with home, but other than that, there is not even a phone call such as "how did Xiaohe deal with those letters", which makes me feel a little frustrated.

Not only that, but the issue was forgotten by her, and it was not mentioned even after returning home. It's not that I've never seen Yui Yuihama with this kind of abnormality, but I don't know the reason for Yui-sama's abnormality, which makes me a little anxious.

I found that I suddenly understood Sister Yui's anxious mood when I was thinking about my own affairs in a muffled voice, and this inexplicable irritability but I didn't know how to solve it was really uncomfortable.

The initial consideration, of course, was that I might have been a little reluctant to refuse the kindness of a few boys during the sabbatical trip, but when the sabbatical trip ended and the ministry activities resumed for the first time, I thought I might know the answer to the question.

It's not uncommon to be cold as ice, but it's not uncommon to be a little hesitant to deal with problems, and it's not uncommon for Yui-san to be careful not to offend people when talking to people, but it's very rare for Hikiya Hachiman to be late for club activities and be forced to be calm when he enters the classroom. Of course, the gathering of three people in this state may be the greatest crisis in the history of the community.

According to the phenomenon, the problem must have been the request during the school vacation.

I'm not a fool who doesn't know how to read the atmosphere, but I'm not a coward who only knows how to look at the atmosphere and cringe. Or rather, when the whole atmosphere seems so awkward, only I can break it as an uninformed person.

"So, there was nothing wrong with the previous commission, right?" asked as if he didn't know what was going on.

Xue Xia raised his head, and as quickly as he could, showed me an inquiring expression—as if to question whether I was a little too stupid to make such a statement at this time.

Yui let out a soft "ah" and quickly turned away after realizing that my eyes were on her.

Although he didn't pay much attention to Hikiya's expression, he seemed a little annoyed at that moment, and although he lowered his head, he ended up as if nothing had happened.

"Don't think this club won't be able to deal with problems without you. "It sounds like a word under the snow, but it comes from the mouth of Hikiya.

"yes, it seems to be a good deal. However, the sarcasm in the words under the snow can be appreciated by even the most dull of the people.

"But, that, everyone, is still ordinary, ordinary, isn't it good?" Sister worked hard to adjust the atmosphere, some people may change their personality because of the change of their identity, but, Yui Yui Hihama is definitely not, even if Cinderella becomes a princess, she will not be pampered and proud because of her identity as a princess.

At this point, I was a little unclear about the current situation—the problem should have been solved, that's the conclusion, but it's also true that the other three people in the ministry had problems. That is, in the process of solving the problem, there is a disagreement, presumably.

I can understand the conflict that these three people may face when they approach the problem, but shouldn't all the conflict be resolved while the discussion is going to be made - is it true that if I don't have these three guys, I can't reach a consensus?

"So, it's best for us to be ordinary - you see, after all, the ministry hasn't been active for a long time, and it's normal for Xiaohe to be a little uncomfortable, in fact, everyone is ordinary, isn't it?"

One glance at the snow and then at Biqi Valley, they really looked like they were doing a good job of "ordinary".

If I hadn't seen Yui-sama's behavior at home, I might have mistaken the situation just now for another meaningless bickering between Yukimi and Hikiya after a long time, but now, I can't make that judgment.

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It is better to ask the truth than to choose Bikiya, not under the snow, in comparison, Bikiya may not be honest about his true thoughts, but when he makes a choice that he has no regrets, he will not lie about his actions.

"Tell me exactly what happened. "Consciously catch Hikiya before he tries to escape first, and ask questions straight to the point.

For Hikiya, who knows my character, he should be able to realize that the ambiguity at this time is not convincing to me.

"The problem is solved, that's it, whether it's Tobe's or Hai Yina's, and it's in the most appropriate way, the way that won't hurt everyone—you heard it, what your sister said just now, everything is ordinary, and that group in Hayama is now running in its usual posture as always—isn't it beautiful?" Probably to add a little convincing, Hikiya showed a somewhat exaggerated and mocking expression— Just as he has always shown a dislike for that collective.

However, by the time he said that, his assertion was already untenable.

"The least way to hurt everyone - do you think you're Yui-san? I've never believed that Hikiya Hachiman-senpai could come up with such a solution. ”

"Then there's no way, after all, there are too many people who are looked down on by Yubihama, aren't they?

"It's useless. Sometimes it works, but when I try to get to the bottom of the matter, especially when the truth of the matter might be related to Yui-sama, I don't get guided by some bad emotions until I know the truth. ”

This struggle with Hikiya didn't last long, and soon, he showed a somewhat tired expression—just like he had done in front of Hayato many times.

"I did it before Tobe confessed to the old name, and then I was rejected, and the misunderstanding was solved, which is the most indisputable practice, isn't it?"

Before Biqigu answered, I could almost guess the choice he made.

After all, when I was at Forest School, he had already shown me a unique way of solving problems that belonged to Hachiman Hikiya. At the time, he expressed his anger at me because I almost made his efforts go back to naught.

It's just that, compared to that time, this time his self-dedication was more thorough, if at that time he only sacrificed the opinion of those elementary school students about him, now, he sacrificed the possibility of his classmates being friendly to him.

"Hayama can't be reconciled because he can't be biased, and to stop it, I'm the only one who can do that—or, Yubihama, you can come up with a better solution, like you did with that elementary school kid at the time?"

Hikiya also apparently remembered my encouragement to Rumi Tsurumi at the time, and I tried to make that child choose his own independent path.

However, in this matter, it is true that I may not be able to find a better way to solve the problem than Bi Qigu. Admittedly, the best way to do this is for Sho Tobe to have the same keen collective judgment as Hayama and Ebina, or to make Ebina Himena understand the meaninglessness of this collective existence. In other words, the problem is solved by making the entrustment of one of the two contradictory delegations no longer valid.

And yet—

"If the problems in this world can be explained by reasoning, then there won't be so many contradictions in this world, so you prefer control to persuasion, right?

Just as I had a thorough understanding of the method of Bikiya, Hikiya Hachiman, who was clear about what I had been doing during the cultural festival, also had a thorough understanding of my considerations.

"But neither Tobe, nor Ebina, nor this kind of emotional problem is beyond your control—not even Hayama can do that. So, there's nothing you can do, and here's the biggest hole in your problem-solving thinking – either, you need enough time to convince someone of your beliefs, or you need enough authority to make sure your ideas are carried out. But, in the vast majority of cases, you have neither the time nor the authority. ”

Perhaps because I directly picked out the problem, Bikiya returned to the state he was in when he "taught" me at the forest school, and this time, because of the reasonableness of his approach, he seemed more confident.

"Admittedly, if I had been there, I wouldn't have been able to have a good solution. But shouldn't you be a little more worried about the aftermath of your way of solving the problem—than Qigu's seniors?"

"The so-called good aftermath after solving the problem is just greed after all. When necessary, it is necessary to make necessary choices, and there can be no perfect solution to the problem. Didn't we come to the same conclusion when the Xuexia family discussed that issue with her before?"

Unconsciously, my questioning of Bi Qigu became his denial of me.

"Of course, at that time, you put forward another plan, this victim, to choose the most reasonable sacrifice, the most effective sacrifice. But you still can't solve the problem I talked about before, you can either convince a person to sacrifice, or force a person to sacrifice, the former takes time, the latter needs authority. ”

Then, according to the words of this judgment-

"But there is one person who, if he is persuaded to make a sacrifice, does not need time, and does not need authority. When faced with the dilemma that there is no way to solve the problem, only this person can make a contribution at any time. ”

And that person is himself.

Hachiman Hikiya further refined his theory of self-sacrifice.

"I'm sorry if your sister is upset about what I'm doing. However, I think your sister would be sad if she didn't fulfill the commission of those two people, right? After all, Yui Yuira Yuira is such a gentle person!"

The word "gentleness" has such a complex meaning in Bikigu's words. Gentle means that you can't solve the problem, right? Simple tears, simple sympathy, and simple fragility do not help solve the problem. This is perhaps the biggest thing I have in common with Biqigu when we look at things.

However, it is precisely because of the common that I need to prove his mistake all the more.

"Your theory is beautiful, but your theory can't solve a problem—or rather, this problem is the most fundamental problem. ”

The dull hairs on Kiya's head stood up.

"What's the problem?"

"It's a very simple question, so simple that you can find it funny – that is, the question of whether your self-sacrifice makes sense. ”

"Isn't this question answered by the facts? Everyone is ordinary, there is no problem, isn't it?"

"But the facts also tell you that you sacrificed not only you, but also the other people in the ministry who trusted you and cared for you, didn't you?

That's right, Biqigu can't answer this question.

I try to persuade or force a person to accept a sacrifice, and that person is clearly aware of the fact of his sacrifice and the meaning of his sacrifice in the end. But the kidnapping you have done to other people doesn't make people think of that!Do you think that Sister Yui or Yukixia now cares about the price they pay to solve the problem of the commission?"

Taking a step back, even if your self-sacrifice really doesn't involve anyone, you can't expect the consequences of solving the problem, in short, your self-sacrifice is just self-expectation for the realization of your ideals. If Tobe-senpai continues to choose to confess after your confession, have you considered this result?"

"Of course, no matter what the actual price is, in terms of results, it is more successful than the previous Qigu in your approach. However, the price you pay is that you will never be able to make up for the subsequent reaction to the incident - self-detonation means that you have given up the right to solve the problem later, which is not the way a person trying to solve the problem should be. Self-sacrificing and then handing over the follow-up to someone else is also pretty bad practice, isn't it?"

"But, in the vast majority of cases, self-sacrifice is enough, didn't you say that, in terms of results, I succeeded, didn't I?" Hikiya retorted.

"The results can be deceiving, a good general will never think that the battle he wins is the last battle. Self-sacrifice is the worst option in a situation where there is no choice – even if as a leader, self-sacrifice is an option that is not allowed. Although it will make you feel very unhappy to say this, but, Hikiya Hachiman, your self-sacrifice is only self-satisfaction in the end!"

"Self-satisfaction of thinking that you have solved problems, self-satisfaction of thinking that you have created a self-satisfaction that no one else will get hurt, self-satisfaction of thinking that your ability is strong enough, self-satisfaction of thinking that your own method is the best solution, compared to the results that Qigu Senior, your approach can achieve, that's all. ”

A good strategic decision-maker will always leave a glimmer of room for himself, and when he tries to see the dagger, he basically loses.

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Well,I remember I said before.,To separate the author's own thoughts from Kazuya's thoughts.,But,This paragraph and also the evaluation of the big teacher,It's basically my own thoughts.,Although it's a little harsh.,But after thinking about it carefully, I think that's it.。