Chapter 34: The Human Heart
After a moment of confusion in the classroom, I pushed open the door and left the classroom, ready to go home as if nothing had happened. I was even a little surprised at how calm I was at this point, either because I realized the possible outcome early on, or because it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, or because maybe I was expecting it.
As Isshiki told me: Now that the contract has been terminated, I don't need to worry about her feelings. The greatest obstacle that could prevent me from furthering my purpose is gone. This seems to be a cause for good fortune.
But just as there is no joy of victory after the victory of countless wars, I do not have any ecstasy of victory, all I have is a seemingly liberated emptiness.
When I walked out of the school gate, the sun was still barely holding on to the corner of the sky, dyeing the evening sky a bewitching red. In fact, perhaps many times, if you look at the problem more simply, if you look at this kind of subconscious open and secret struggle that you secretly add by yourself more lightly, this is not necessarily a bad thing.
Cooperation, exploitation, betrayal, cooperation again, betrayal again, a normal high school student's life should not involve such shady things - maybe the vast majority of people don't think too much, but once someone chooses to manipulate a collective by conspiracy, there will always be smart people in the group who try to respond with the same means. As a result, solving a conspiracy requires a myriad of conspiracies to respond, which ultimately leads to such a result.
And who was the first to use this conspiracy? Maybe it's me, maybe it's Kitahara-senpai, maybe it's Isshiki, but now it all doesn't make sense. Everyone can only fight in this increasingly complex vortex, and everyone can only take this conspiracy step by step to the peak, until there is a single winner.
Isshiki could choose to cut ties with me and pull out, but, I know, I can't stop. Whether it's for the inner principle, or because of the environment in which it is, or even, because of the state under the snow now.
Wanting to wave away like her in style is just a luxury - those who stay here can only desperately rush in the direction of the only victor, even if they pay the price of being bruised all over their bodies.
Looking in the direction of the school gate from afar, I saw the familiar and characteristic black single ponytail. Sugiura Koharu was wearing a light blue scarf, carrying his school bag, bowing his head slightly, and talking to the person opposite.
And when I got closer and saw the figure of the person opposite her, I couldn't help but stop.
Although we had only seen each other for a day, it seemed like a century had passed, and I saw Kogi Senpai again, and the pink scarf that had been loaned to me under the snow two days ago was gently draped over her shoulder.
I stopped a little late, and when the senior raised his head, he could see me accurately. She lowered her head and said something to Koharu, and then, the student council secretary of Qingquan Middle School turned her head, looked in my direction, showed a complicated expression, shook her head, and then walked away quickly.
Kogi nodded to me slightly, and then slowly paced in the direction of the tram stop, and I quickly followed her rhythm, walking shoulder to shoulder with her.
Admittedly, I'm curious to know what the senior said to Koharu. However, I know very well the character of Yukina Kogi, and as long as she doesn't want to, you'll never know what you want to know from her.
However, it was clear that she wanted to say something to me, so I just quietly slowed down to keep pace with hers, waiting for the other person to break the silence.
"It's a very creative move to ask my classmates under the snow to return the scarf to me, are you worried that you will cause a commotion by returning the scarf?"
"Ahh
"—That's what Xuexia-san told me, what's wrong, what's the problem?"
"Ah, well, this, no problem. "I lowered my head, the guy under the snow is quite kind in this regard, but since you have given such an explanation, you and I will be informed in advance!
"So, Kazuya, do you think I should believe the explanation of the classmate under the snow?" However, the next fluttering question thrown by Kogi Yu's predecessor caught me off guard.
"Well, this, if the seniors don't want to believe it, then I can't convince you reluctantly, right?"
"It was still fifty or fifty attitudes, but now I can be sure of your answer! Kazuya is just too bad at telling lies in front of me, so you will try to avoid lying to me. So, when you answer a question in an ambiguous way, it basically means that you have a question that you don't want to answer me directly at that moment. ”
At this time, the only person who can still grasp my thoughts so keenly is Kogi Senpai.
Actually, I don't want to worry too much about it if I could. However, I still want to know why? Or, Kazuya, are you also trying to cover up for your classmates under the snow?"
"Then there's no need," in front of such a little Mu Yu's senior, all I can do is to entertain them all," Xue Xia was sick at the time, and I thought about adding an extra layer of protection to her, and the only thing I could use in my hand was this scarf. ”
"Sick classmate under the snow, take precedence over my scarf, is that so?"
"I can't say that, but after all, it's a sick person over there, even if it's not under the snow — well, that assumption seems a little wrong. ”
"Because I know Xuexia-san, you think it's okay to lend my scarf to Xuexia-san?"
"That's probably the case, but I really didn't have much other thoughts at the time, after all, the relationship with the snow was not bad, and she questioned the scarf at the time, but-"
"—but you refused," Kogi interrupted, looking at me with a playful expression, and said, "You know and admit your actions thoroughly!, But, as I just said, the more thoroughly you admit your actions, the more you defend your classmates under the snow, aren't you?"
I stole into the eyes of my senior and tried to grasp her true thoughts, but to no avail.
"However, I accept your explanation. Shaking the long hair at the back of his head and letting the double ponytail rest on his shoulders in a more supple position, the senior said softly, "At least, you admit it, don't you?"
"There doesn't seem to be any other way to do it. ”
"You can hide it, you can try to hide it whether I can see it or not—I'm not as easy to see your problem as you think. ”
"I'm sorry, but in front of my seniors, it's really hard to lie!"
"Well, it's ridiculous that you, who are good at using your own crooked reasoning to convince others in various ways, are not good at lying!" "The senior blinked playfully, but then, her expression became serious again.
"So, the next question, Kazuya Yubihama, who has been in a relationship, do you think you know the mood of girls?"
"That's a bit too acute—"
"Please answer 'yes' or 'no'. ”
"Well, if you have to say it, you don't know, do you?" I replied awkwardly as I watched my senior staring earnestly into my pretty eyes.
"yes, I think so too, Kazuya Yubihama, although you have all the potential to be a boy who is popular with girls if you want to, but really bad at understanding girls' thoughts!"
"I'm not talking about the scarf just now, right? If you're really angry about the scarf, then I'm sorry to you now—"
"-So, Kazuya is really bad at understanding girls' thoughts!" Senior Kogi shook his head with a wry smile, "Do you really think that I'm still struggling with that scarf now?"
"If not, then what else could it be?"
"I just chatted with Sugiura-san, not for a while, to be exact, it wasn't that I talked to her for a while, but she saw me as I was leaving, and then grabbed me and talked for a while—she wanted to wait for you at the school gate at first. Of course, you know, she finally felt that there was no point in talking to you about something. ”
"So, what are Koharu going to say to her seniors?"
"I'm sorry, that's a secret between girls!"
"Isn't that the end up like a dumb riddle, it's really a little unacceptable. ”
"So, Kazuya, can you guess? This is just an opportunity to hone your understanding of girls, and if you guess correctly, I'll tell you an extra secret that I've never told anyone, but that's important, a secret that Yukina Koki has decided on recently - but only if you guess it right at all. ”
It was only then that I realized that my seniors and I had already walked out of the confines of the tram stop, and we were just walking aimlessly in a particular direction, and inadvertently, we seemed to have come to the river, which was not where there were many people near the school.
Senior Xiao Mu Yu didn't speak, and I was silent thinking. The sound of the river flowing in late autumn and early winter is noticeably less pleasant than in summer, a little muddy, and a little more terrifying.
I remembered my judgment of Koharu Sugiura.
"Is it because of what happened under the snow? She should be aware of the problem under the snow. ”
"Go on, I want the full answer. ”
"Well, because of the abnormal performance of her idol under the snow.,Her idol collapsed.,So,I don't know what to do.,Just came to me.,Is trying to ask me about measures to solve the problem in this regard?"
"Is this the end of it?"
"Uh, I guess, that's it. ”
"So, Kazuya," Kogi Senpai-senpai sighed and said, "Sure enough, you're really bad at what girls think and won't understand!"
"Is this wrong?"
"So, let's give you another chance! If you get it right this time, you can also tell you the previous questions from Sugiura-san. What do you think, what do you think of the current classmate under the snow?"
"Did the seniors also have contact with the classmates under the snow?"
"No, I just guessed it myself-"
—just guessing. ”
"Girls are always more able to understand girls' thoughts, even girls with completely different personalities, this time, you will think that you and I are judging whether the thoughts of the classmates under the snow are the same. ”
"Under the snow, isn't she beginning to deny herself because of some situations and lack confidence in herself, so she needs the help of others to get out of the difficulties?"
"Is this the end of this time?"
"Uh-"
The wind by the river blew the senior's freshly combed hair a little loose, and even disrupted the bangs on her forehead.
Yukina-chan's expression was well hidden.
"If you don't understand, in the end, it's up to you who tries the hardest to let you know. ”
I heard something that didn't mean well.
"Sa, let's go, I think Kazuya's direction should be the other side, and it will be faster to take the train?"
I followed behind Kogi Senpai blankly.
I seem to know something, and I feel like I don't know anything.
If you want to comprehend the plot by yourself -------------------------------------, please ignore PS--------------------------------
So I always want to explain these plots or something, so as not to cause misunderstandings.,Although and also very slow, but he just got one of the qualities that Yukina values the most - confession.,But Yukina's character is a character who always wants to leave a glimmer of room for his own understanding.,Although there is also a side of bravely piercing the window paper.,But she won't magnify the trick until the last moment.,Well,So it's probably clear, right?