One day, I saw a news headline: United Nations "solemn statement": Those born in 1990 are middle-aged!"

When I saw this news, I was shocked, I have passed the time of youth?

So, I'm middle-aged?

In my impression, when others mention it, the children of the post-90s, the children of the post-90s, the young of the post-90s, non-mainstream, and ignorant ......!"

But the time I remember seems to have only graduated a few years recently, and I have only been working for a few years.

In fact, I have been in the society for more than ten years, and the reason why I don't feel the flow of time is because my time is all garbage time, and in these times, I can't find the good times that can be stored in my mind!

If you think about it carefully, in fact, the oldest child of the post-90s generation is already 26 years old, and the oldest young person of the post-80s generation is 36 years old and will soon be forty years old. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

I don't know when it started.,The task of going home for the New Year every year has added a blind date program.,From resistance to acceptance.,To panic.,Unconsciously,The blind date object went from the post-80s to the post-90s,And then to the youngest blind date 99-year-old girl...... I estimate that if it is still a few years and I haven't found a partner, the blind date will appear after the 00s!"

Every time I go on a blind date, the matchmaker likes to add: Although the man is a little older, the conditions are still good...... Every time I hear this, I have a feeling of riding a grass and mud horse to escape, but the reality is often so realistic, you don't live for yourself, you still have parents, you still have relatives, you have to live for them, this is life.

I don't know the days ahead, whether it will really be a successful blind date, I don't hope, I don't want to be confused, I can live a healthy life every day, I'm already very grateful to God, although I occasionally annoy, occasionally lonely, occasionally lonely, occasionally think about women, occasionally want to be a family, but ...... That's just occasionally!"

I've been successful on a blind date, only once, that time completely made me afraid of marriage, not a man's problem, nor my personality problem, but the kind of life where the two have no common language at all, that kind of life is like a dead tree soaked in water, I want to get out but can't do anything, even sex, it's like completing the formula, up and down, left and right, at this time, the woman came to a sentence, is it over?

It's not the gentleness I had in the A/movie in my head at all!"

Life can only go on, and there is no way to regret it, we no longer have the hard body of our youth, and we no longer have the age when we saw our goddess at a glance, but we will also be unwilling, we also want to vent, and we want to shout, but no one can vent to ourselves, and there is no place to vent, the only thing that can give you the last bit of comfort in your heart should only be books!"

I've been working for more than ten years, and I haven't had a fixed job, nor a fixed interest, and the only interest that has lasted for more than ten years should be "reading novels".

After reading novels for many years, my pleasure and sense of touch don't seem to be as sensitive as when I was young, and those novels that I used to read with blood boiling, now in my opinion, are too fake, space, too empty, and I can no longer resonate with myself, this taste is very painful and lonely, so I have always wanted to write a traditional rebirth novel, and then write a traditional time-traveling novel, and also write a game novel that can make people addicted, but in the end, I didn't write a fart!"

Because I am already middle-aged, I no longer have the passion I had at the beginning, nor the impulse I had at the beginning, and I have persisted as hard as iron for a long time!"

In any case, even if it is half hard and half soft, I want to continue to hold on to my dream and write it all, because I am afraid that if I don't write it again, my middle age will be gone forever!"

2016.8.8th!