Chapter 21: The Paradox of the Logic of Self-Satisfaction
"By the way, Biqigu should know why your classmates want to work, right?" When I walked out of the high-end hotel, I asked Biqigu.
I don't know why.,Hikiya Hachiman doesn't look like a senior at all in my eyes.,Although he himself still makes a kind of senior's momentum when he talks to me in the few times.,But this momentum gives me the feeling that it's a little boring like a childish fight that doesn't admit defeat.,So,Although I occasionally call him "senior",But I often call him by his first name.,It's a very rare thing to keep changing between the two titles.。 Of course, it seems that Biqi Gu himself doesn't care much about this.
"Of course you do!" said Bikiya, putting his hands behind his head, tilting his head up, looking at the sky outside the window.
It's a pity that although it's almost eleven o'clock now, the lights in the city don't seem to be weakened at all, so we can't see the starry scene - the starry sky at night when the lights are bright in the animation is deceiving, and the faint light of the stars is obscured by the light of modern industrial production, which is the cruel reality.
"Is there a shortage of money in the senior's family?"
"Hey, hey, hey, how can anyone ask this kind of question directly? Generally speaking, isn't it very self-respecting to ask such a question?"
"But considering that the self-esteem of the senior is so humble that it will never be affected by my questioning, so I don't consider asking questions in a more polite way, after all, it's still a waste of time to think about this kind of thing!"
"Huh," Bikiya touched the silly hair on his head, showing disdain, "You don't seem to have learned your sister's friendly side of people, but you have learned the attitude of Yukino under the snow very well?"
"Isn't it the same with my seniors? If you can learn your sister's way of dealing with people, then you will still be reduced to the point where you don't even know your classmates?"
"But at least I'm not going to learn the cold attitude towards people under the snow!"
"Pretty much, you don't have a chance to show that attitude, because other people generally ignore you!"
"So you're a junior, do you have some basic respect for your seniors?"
"The premise is that this senior needs to be worthy of my respect!"
Ahra, how do you feel that after tonight's battle of Kawasaki Sahi, the relationship with Hikiya has suddenly changed for the better? How does this kind of mocking dialogue feel like a conversation between two friends who have a better relationship and like to belittle each other?
Obviously, Biqigu also realized this, and turned his head, and he pulled the topic back to the direction we had at the beginning: "In this world, there are always more people who lack money than those who don't. ”
I agree with that. I nodded in response.
"So you're going to work after school. ”
"So, I can't blame Saki Kawasaki, who is in the same position as me, although she is more urgent than me, but from the starting point, I am the same as her, so I don't think I can convince her. ”
"I've guessed what you're thinking," said Bikiya, who looked at me as if he was in trouble, "so how strange is your family that has been able to raise two completely different characters from you and your sister! ”
Of course, I'm curious about what Biqigu said about me, and I still remember that he once disdainfully made a "I'm playing a game" evaluation to me, of course, I didn't know him well at that time, and the current Biqigu shouldn't give this kind of answer. However, the current Biqigu, I don't know why, still retracted the evaluation that was about to come to his lips. Of course, I can understand his thoughts, because if there is an answer that I can't accept that denies my goal, then I can argue with him for a night.
"Kawasaki's problem is a money problem, but it's not a money problem either," Hikiya waved his hand and said, "Just like Yubihama, you're working part-time, but is your sister worried about you?"
"Don't worry, after all, I don't work long hours every day, and I can still rush home to finish dinner at night!"
"So that's the point, you and your family have plenty of time to interact with each other, just like me and Komachi!"
"Inexplicably, I feel a terrible squatting at home, or is it my sister's terrible aura?"
"So, Kawasaki's problem is here, I was supposed to work so as not to cause trouble to my family, but because I was too concerned about my family's feelings, I ignored my family's feelings, and if Yubihama had similar thoughts, your sister would be worried about you, right?"
"Well, although it feels like you said something very reasonable, I always feel that it shouldn't be said by someone like you!"
"Then you don't understand, for a person who aspires to squat at home," said Hikiya with a smug face, "It is absolutely necessary to understand the feelings of your family! Otherwise, how can you meet your own survival needs while living a life of detachment from society in the future?
"Please don't think of gnawing old as such a thing worth showing off, which will completely destroy the perfect impression that your previous high-minded talk brought to people! Another thing is - we are now very clear about the reason for Kawasaki's part-time job, she has to save her own tuition, and she doesn't want to cause trouble to her family or something, but even if you know this, you also know that the reason why she did too much is that it has caused the concern and anxiety of her family, and the money problem as the core part of the problem has not been solved!"
"Yubihama, have you never been short of pocket money?"
"No—"
"Staring—"
"Why are you looking at me like that?"
"No, I just think your schoolgirl looked pathetic with you. ”
"Obviously you complained about my poisonous tongue just now, aren't you also poisonous now? Also, I haven't encountered a situation where I am short of pocket money, so I can't understand that I have done a good job in planning money?"
"No, no, no, nothing, I'm just thinking that you, who haven't been in a pocket money tension situation, don't understand the true meaning of money for people like us. ”
"If you don't go out to work to make money, don't look so noble about money!"
"Anyway, if Kawasaki is saving for tuition," as usual, Hikiya didn't seem to care about my complaints, he just waved his index finger and said, "A more effective way is a college scholarship, right?"
Indeed, if it is a scholarship, then you don't have to work too hard for the tuition fees of private universities. However, this still can't solve the logic of Biqigu's preamble that does not match the afterword.
"So, what's the connection between scholarships and pocket money?"
Biqigu looked at me with a very pitiful look, but he never gave me an answer, according to my understanding of his character, this answer should be a little tricky or even a little despicable, but after looking at his face that although he was dressed more handsomely, but obviously leaked an underweight expression, I still didn't grasp what Biqigu wanted to express. And he didn't want to answer my thoughts, he must have enjoyed this complacent feeling that he had mastered one more skill than the other party, right?
In the face of this kind of guy, ignoring him and making his sense of accomplishment disappear is really the best choice!
"So, if that's the case, why didn't you just tell Kawasaki in person?"
"Ah, this matter," Hikiya's stinky expression disappeared, obviously because I didn't take his rhetorical question and anger with good intentions, he said a little coyly, "Isn't it very simple? Although we know that Kawasaki has caused the family to misunderstand, Kawasaki himself doesn't know, so the current approach should be to let Kawasaki understand her brother's concerns and clarify this, if you just talk about the scholarship simply, there is no cause and effect, and the other party can't accept it, right?"
"But you're not going to bring her brother to a place like this, are you?"
"Don't worry," Bikiya said as if by magic a note from his pocket, "I just pressed a note under the cup after drinking that soda, and asked her to wait for me at McDonald's on the street tomorrow morning after work, and at that time she just needs to call her brother and let the family clear up the misunderstanding, would you be interested in going and watching?"
"Let's not talk about whether I'm interested in observing, but senior, this approach of yours is too much like-"
"What is it like?"
"I suddenly feel like I can't express it in more elegant words?"
"Huh?" Bikiya understood what I meant at that moment, but he quickly shook his head and said, "Your understanding problem is too big, isn't it? Isn't this the way of exchanging information in TV dramas? It's just exchanging information, exchanging information!"
"Well, there's one more thing," I asked, glancing at Hikiya, who was arguing in a panic, "Do you know what time that Kawasaki-san gets off work in the morning?"
"Uh-"
"I don't know when you get off work, are you going to wait for her at McDonald's all night?
"Uh-"
"And then you're going to let her brother stay on guard for the night, and cause too much trouble to the others, right?"
"Don't say it!"
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Of course, in the end, it is said that Kikiya, who was lucky, learned about the approximate time of Kawasaki's work every day through the younger brother of Kawasaki's classmate, and also made an appointment with others to meet him. After explaining the situation to my sister and Yukishita, my sister and Yukishita also seemed to express a strong interest in the meeting tomorrow morning, at least the excited tone of my sister's "I feel like I can take this opportunity to have a good relationship with Kawasaki-san" when she heard the news was not fake.
Of course, for me to get up at this time of five in the morning to meet someone who has nothing to do with me, I would not do such a thing, and what I have been hesitating about is another conversation between me and Bikiya after that. This conversation happened a little abruptly, but it clearly told me what my current Biqigu thought of me.
"To be honest, I'm a little surprised by Yubihama's approach today!"
"What do you mean?"
"Haven't you always been reluctant to get too involved in these matters?
"—I don't think that's a ridiculous line of thought!"
Of course, that kind of thinking is not ridiculous, but the point is that even you often do things that surprise us - such as the previous football game, and this time we paid attention to Kawasaki, and this inconsistent behavior can feel strange. ”
"I made a mistake in the ball game, but this time," I said, glancing at Hikiya, who asked me in a serious manner, "It's nothing, it's just that Kawasaki's situation reminds me of Yui-sama, although the two of them do completely different things, but the sister's concern for her brother is the same!"
"So, the question is, the way you would change your behavior because of this affection for your family?"
"It's very simple, family is a special case! Family affection can't be analyzed by reason, right? Therefore, my principle based on rational judgment is contradictory to family affection. ”
"Is that so? So do you think it's normal for you to change your ways? I think you're using this excuse to relax for what you've been doing to suppress your true thoughts!"
"Hikiya Senpai?"
"Judging from what little I know about you, everything you take the initiative to do, execution and judgment are a little bit like a freshman in high school, but you have suppressed this ability alive, I don't know your reason, if you really have a reason to convince yourself, then, you will not show the current situation of the so-called 'exposing nature' from time to time. ”
"I don't call it my nature, or rather, it's my sins and mistakes that I am aware of, and it's something I need to change—"
"But there is no need to modify it in front of your family, right? Or, in the face of family affection and similar situations, there is no need to worry about this kind of personality problem. Hikiya squinted at me.
"Yes!" I replied subconsciously.
"Then, Yubihama, why is this nature of yours, which is called 'sin and wrong,' being displayed in front of your most precious family?" asked Hikiya with a hint of sarcasm.
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The last 1,000 words were held back for a long time, and the previous content was stuck in 3,000 words, and then I didn't know how to write 4,000, so I added this conversation that shouldn't have appeared here, and I wasn't happy.