Wu Neng opened Baidu and typed a few words: How long can you live in the advanced stage of brain cancer?

There is an advertisement for a certain hospital in the first row on the page, and there are a lot of questions in the following question, Wu Neng clicked on an answer casually, and saw that in addition to the advertising answer of the comfort and rampaging hospital, no one said a number. Pen ~ fun ~ pavilion www.biquge.info

Although he couldn't find the answer, Wu Neng could already have a hunch that his life would not be too long!

Every day, there is a chainsaw in his head that cuts his still a trace of sanity, Wu Neng can't help but feel his throat tremble, and the last bit of swill in his stomach is spit on the computer keyboard, Wu Neng wants to get up and pick up the toilet paper to wipe it clean, but his head can't help but dizzy, the handwriting on the computer screen in front of him is as blurry as a layer of mist on it, Wu Neng wiped his eyes, and the pain in his head hit ...... again!"

Two days later, Wu Neng sold the last bit of valuable belongings in the room, this ten-square-meter room with a monthly rent of 330 yuan, leaving the last five years of Wu Neng's life, Wu Neng took out all the 43,000 yuan in his bank card, he was worried that he might die tomorrow, and no one proved that he still had the 43,000 yuan in the bank.

After buying a bus ticket to his hometown, Wu Neng once again returned to his hometown, which had been away from home for three years, a small county town in the south, and the small county town had to walk more than 20 miles of cement roads over two mountains to reach the home where he was born and raised.

He has walked this road thousands of times, and there is his elementary school and junior high school in the middle of the road, and all his youthful life memories can be found on this road.

More than 10 years ago, it was a dirt road, and a cement road was built in the last 10 years.

He didn't call a motorcycle, he didn't call a taxi, he walked slowly in the direction of his home with a black canvas bag on his back.

The memory of this road has long been completely different from the memory of his youth, he went out to work for 20 years, only went home a dozen times, and every time he went home, he either went home on a blind date or went home for the New Year, hurried back, hurried to go, never cared about everything on the road.

Life is like this, at some point, we never care about time, time is the least valuable thing in our life, but every time time passes, we find that in fact, time is the most precious thing in our life, we always miss the ......!"

The journey of more than twenty miles is completely unbearable for Wu Neng's current body, and after only walking less than two or three miles, Wu Neng feels that the chainsaw in his head has begun to move again, and this time it seems that his head has been cut open, his vision has been completely blurred, and his consciousness seems to be about to leave this body.

Wu Neng sat down on the side of the road, took a sip of water, and shouted in his mind over and over again: Wu Neng, Wu Neng, you are sober, you must not die on this halfway, if you don't even see your parents for the last time, are you really willing to regret it????

The name Wu Neng, he has been very disgusted since he was a child, he doesn't know why his parents gave him this name, maybe his father who only studied elementary school hopes that he will grow up to be capable, but unfortunately the surname Wu in front of him, Wu Neng, Wu Neng, as his name suggests, has been an incompetent person all his life, living a dull life, living a nest, living incompetent!"

Wu Neng was going to use his last savings of more than 40,000 yuan to send back to his parents with the bank, and he would find a no-man's land to leave, but he always had a knot in his heart, there was a natural bottomless pit in the mountains behind his hometown, when he was a child, his favorite little yellow dog fell, until a long, long time, he didn't hear an echo, he was only seven years old and cried on the edge of the hole for a whole day, at that time he wanted to go down to find it himself, but he was afraid, and finally he swore that when he grew up, he must go down to find the little yellow dog, but unfortunately time is in a hurry, and those childhood memories have long been forgotten with life, until he knows that his time is shortWhen I wanted to find a place to cut myself off, I suddenly thought of that place.

The hole is not big, the waist of the two is wide, every time they look inside, it is the feeling of black fog, because it is too deep, no one has ever gone to the bottom, when he was a child, Wu Neng often threw stones into it, and never heard an echo, and later, from time to time, there were poultry falling in, and the adults in the village were also worried about the accident of children, so they covered the hole with trees until now.

Whenever Wu Neng was in unbearable pain, he thought about self-determination, but his unwillingness to live always made him endure it, and he also wanted to go over for treatment, but unfortunately thinking of the mountain-like expense, his heart stimulated his body like ice water.

Let's go to my last wish, see my parents one last time, go back to my hometown one last time, and see the beautiful ...... I once remembered!"

With this glimmer of hope, Wu Neng spent more than four hours to complete the more than 20 miles, a long road in life, and all the good and regrets are in plain sight!"

Wu Neng's home is a small mountain village, surrounded by mountains, there are several small ponds in the middle of the village, a small road zigzag to the outside, even if the cement road was repaired more than ten years ago, it was not really repaired to the village, it was necessary to climb over two mountains to get to the cement road, usually by a yellow mud road to the village, the yellow mud road is a tractor wide, these years there are occasionally villagers who buy vans and cars to go home for the New Year, meet two cars, and have to take the initiative to return a car to pass.

This village is not big, just one hundred and forty or fifty households, the population of four or five hundred people, in the middle of the mountain nest occupies the surrounding flat land, the young people in the village basically go out to work, leaving only a few old people and children, with the economic improvement, most of the people have gone to the county to buy a house, leaving only forty or fifty households, there are also two or three stories of small buildings built in the hometown, although it is empty all year round, most of the villagers are working outside, leaving behind the old people and children, every few years Wu can go home to hear the old man passed away and other exclamations！”

Most of the people in the village are surnamed Wu, they are all clan people, and they basically bring some relatives, such as Wu Neng's father has five brothers, a younger brother, and two sisters, he ranks eighth, and Wu Neng's grandfather also has seven brothers and sisters in the surrounding villages, this village can be traced to the early Qing Dynasty, basically a kind left by an ancestor, Wu Neng's childhood memory, the days of twenty or thirty children in the village playing eagles and catching chickens together slowly faded in time ...... time!"

Wu Neng climbed over the last mountain, on the mountain can already see the old and new buildings under the mountain, occasionally interspersed with a dark yellow adobe house with only one floor, this one-story adobe house is called a bungalow, most of them were built in the late nineties, at that time the economy had just improved, and many people in the countryside went out to work to make money, and the husband and wife could save seven or eight thousand a year by saving money and frugality, and at that time a bungalow was only one or two thousand yuan, not enough to borrow some more to build a new house, because at that time the countryside generally lived in the kind of yellow mud adobe house, covered with tiles, every rainy day, from time to time to take a bucket to go under the eaves to continueSometimes in the middle of the night, I sleep in the bed, and I also hold the basin on the side of the bed, and the sound of dripping water is accompanied by the ...... of falling asleep!"

One of them is Wu Neng's home, Wu Neng's eyes are a little wet, and his vision begins to blur again, he doesn't know whether it is the torture of illness or the last trace of emotion in his heart, whether it is that, his heart that is about to die is finally activated by tears, Wu Neng seems to have a thousand words to say at this time, all kinds of grievances can only be vented through tears, Wu Neng, who is still seven days away from turning forty, is like a child at this time, kneeling on the soft and dry soil, he can't remember how long he hasn't shed tears, maybe since the day he stepped into society after graduating from junior high school, he hasn't shed tears, how longMore than ten years, more than twenty years, do those still make sense?

His life seems to be a meaningless life, a forty-year-old life, a forty-year-old experience, just like living in a dog, maybe not even a dog!"

Wu Neng walked slowly to the door of the house step by step, the village was very quiet, only to hear the squeak of July squeaked and squeaked non-stop, there was an old mulberry tree at the door of Wu Neng's house to cover most of the low bungalow, the sun was shining on it, half the time and half the sun, the silver light was shining, which made people feel a sense of inner stability.

Unexpectedly, Wu Neng's parents are not at home, but the room is not locked, just cover the door, Wu Neng pushed open the door, everything in front of him is close in front of him, no wonder it is not locked, there are only two rooms in the small bungalow on this floor, the outside is the living room for eating, and the other is a place to sleep, the furniture in the living room is a dark black dining table, and there are two leftover vegetable bowls on the dining table, Wu Neng took a look, a fried eggplant with chili, a cold bitter gourd, and did not see a trace of meat dishes, just these two simple dishes, Wu Neng once again felt blurred vision, and the chainsaw in his head began to move again。

The dining table had been in use seven or eight years ago, and there were several wooden stools, some made of bamboo and some of them, of various old ones, with a few eggplants and peppers stacked in the corner, and a yellowed five-watt light bulb hanging on the table, but there was no furniture in the whole room.

In the other room, there is a wooden bed, there is also a bamboo bed opposite, the fan leaves made of braised leaves are thrown on the bed, an old wardrobe against the wall is next to the wall, a dressing mirror stands on it, and the white decoration on ......the wall has long been yellow and black!"

Wu Neng felt that he was really dying, although the sun was just right at this time, Wu Neng's vision had already appeared black, everything in front of him seemed to be black and white, and the organ of the eye might also die soon......

Wu Neng guessed that his parents might have gone to pick peanuts on the opposite mountain, he put down his backpack, took out the two suicide notes in the backpack, put them on the table, and after a long time, he picked up one of the suicide notes and walked out of the house!"

It was noon, the scorching sun was in the sky, and none of the old people and children in the village went out, which was in line with Wu Neng's thoughts, he really didn't have the energy to say goodbye to his familiar relatives, one of the two suicide notes was a real farewell letter, and the other was a book of unfilial piety, he took away the real farewell book, and the content of the book of unfilial piety was just a farewell, not a farewell!

Mom and Dad, you've worked hard!

Mom and Dad, my son is not filial, I can only say goodbye in this way!"

Mom and Dad, as much as I want to stay longer, I can't bear to see your disappointed eyes......!"

Mom and Dad, there are tens of thousands of dollars left behind in the bag, these are for you to buy some daily necessities, remember not to save ...... on food and clothing!"

Mom and Dad, I'm going to work far away this time, maybe this time the working hours will be a little longer, but if I have time, I will still come back to visit your ......!"

Mom and Dad, I've already found a girlfriend, I'll bring it back to you next time I have a chance, and maybe bring my grandson back ......!"

Mom and Dad, forgive the unfilial son for so many years for the two of you to bother, I hope you cherish it!

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Unfilial son Wu can stay!"