Chapter 41.5: Yui Yuhihama's Confusion
Yui Hihama had always disliked the feeling of being taken care of by her brother - maybe after a while, she would feel that it was really nice to have such a brother taking care of her, but at least for now, at least since Yui began to realize that Kazuya had been taking care of herself, she didn't feel that feeling good.
I want to stop being taken care of, I want my brother to look at me with surprise, and of course, most importantly, I want to be an older sister to protect and help my brother.
However, it is really not easy to want to protect and help! Kazuya is so calm when she does things, so calmly that she can hardly find room to meddle - and finally when she finds out that Kazuya may be powerless and wants to intervene, the result of that so-called "help" is a fiasco.
At that time, Yui Yui seemed to have completed a very good task, uniting with Kogi Sao's seniors and convincing the Kitahara seniors who had always made Kowa haunted, and she felt that she could no longer let Kowa rack his brains to think about a solution to the problem. However, in the end, it pushed Xiaohe into an even worse situation.
Haruki Kitahara is definitely not an object that Yui Hihama can easily control, he has his own ideas, and his thoughts are not the same as Yui's thoughts, and the result is naturally different.
Why didn't she seize this opportunity? During this long period of time when she didn't know what to say to Xiaohe, she thought about this carefully.
The answer is very clear - because, although she is working hard, she is still trying to hope for other people, expecting others to help her solve problems, expecting others to help Kowa solve her troubles, in the final analysis, this is no different from relying on Kowa, she is still the somewhat clumsy Yui Yubihama, or the Yui Yui who habitually wants to rely on other people's strength to help herself, or help the people she wants to help.
This is not enough! Although Yui has many friends, although she also has a few friends who can be called close friends, but friends are outsiders after all! As a friend of outsiders, it is impossible to understand the feelings of wanting to help Xiaohe—only family, only herself and Xiaohe, are completely their own people.
Therefore, when he wants to help Kowa, the only person who can help him is himself, and he may be able to negotiate with other people, or he may be able to ask others to help, but Yui Yuira himself must always stand at the forefront and watch over his younger brother. Outsiders are always unable to truly appreciate the feelings of their families.
That's right, it belongs only to Yui Yuhihama and Kazuya Yuhihama's, a unique family relationship.
However, this feeling can also pass quickly.
When the somewhat handsome Mizusawa senior asked herself this question with a complicated expression, she realized this - if Xiaohe has other people she likes, will there be a person who cares about Xiaohe as much as herself, or even cares more about Xiaohe than herself?
Or what's even more terrifying is that there will be a person whose emotional strength with Xiaohe is higher than the intensity of his relationship with Xiaohe?
In the past, if she saw Xiaohe falling in love, she would definitely bless him with the most sincere tone. However, now, she is a little worried: the affection between family members is an inseparable emotion based on blood ties, but what about the love between men and women? It is itself a product of impulse, and a few years, or even only a few months of getting along, can the family affection generated by the love between a pair of strange men and women surpass the accumulation of more than ten years of siblings?
It's impossible, right?
Isn't that dangerous? Xiaohe's love affair, if it exists, must be very fragile, right?
So, what should be done?
The answer is already clear, she will not seek help from others, she will rely on herself, and only on herself, to protect her brother.
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For Kazuya's words, Yui is not entirely convinced. Kazuya is too protective of himself, so he has become accustomed to white lies, and is used to answering himself with "no", "nothing", and "no". Judging from his reaction to the conversation with him, Xiaohe does have a girlfriend - but not the predecessor of Xiaomu Yu, who he has always liked, nor Xiaoxue.
Is that really the case, though?
In the classroom of the ministry department, looking at Yukino, who was a little absent-minded, Yui frowned deeply.
She knew where Kazuya, who didn't show up in the classroom after school, went, and Yukino didn't know. She was hesitant to tell her best friend about it.
However, when she hesitated, the other party had already spoken first.
"Looks like, Yubihama's guy - well, I mean Kazuya, well, yes, Yui's younger brother-"
"—I know Xiaoxue is talking about Xiaohe. Looking at Yukino, who was a little unnatural just by mentioning his brother's name, Yui Yui was a little puzzled. I didn't think about this aspect at all before, probably because I was in this environment, and I didn't notice the subtle changes that Yukino noticed, but after Mizusawa Senpai mentioned the possibility of this, she began to feel that no matter what point of view, Yukino under the snow did take Yubihama Kazuya a little too seriously.
"Yes, it seems like it's been a long time since I've struggled with the issue of surnames. Yukino smiled awkwardly.
That's right, Yukino under the snow, who has lost her former calmness, is the Yukino under the snow that she feels unfamiliar with - in fact, this change started very early, why, she hasn't noticed it before?
"All in all, Yubihama is late today!" After tidying up her demeanor a little, she saw Yukino make this concluding speech.
"Hmm. ”
"-So," continued the girl opposite, "does Yui know what's going on?"
"Hmm. ”
"Today's situation is quite special, I think I need to have a further discussion with him on the feedback of public opinion in the current election process, and your brother's reference is still more valuable - if I can, I hope he can come to participate in the club activities today. ”
After returning to a calm posture, Yukino's performance was very calm. However, for her, who is familiar with her, and who is familiar with this period of time and the work with Yukino, this statement is really full of loopholes.
Not long ago, the two of them had just discussed the issue raised by Yukino, and there have not been too many surprises in the past few days - although it is high-sounding, but the excuse is just an excuse after all.
She could feel that under the snow, Yukino just wanted to see Yubihama Kazuya.
Sometimes, in the face of a person like Xue Nai, it may be more appropriate to ask a straightforward question.
"Xiaoxue, can I ask a question before answering your question?"
"Absolutely. ”
"Well, then, I just wanted to ask," she took a deep breath and asked pretending to be relaxed, "Xiaoxue, are you dating Xiaohe?"
At such a time, Yukino's library book, which barely left his hand, fell heavily to the ground, and the paper of the book was somewhat sloppy and scattered. However, she didn't care about any of that.
Under the snow, Yukino's brows were tightly knit, her face was a little pale, and she bit her lip tightly, as if she was trying very hard to restrain her emotions.
- It's almost the same reaction as Xiaohe!
Yui lamented helplessly.
"I didn't think Yui was the one to make such a boring speech anymore. After a long time, the girl opposite made such a blunt answer.
"Uh-"
"—And, that guy, has a girlfriend. It seemed a little casual, but it seemed very frustrated to add.
"Eh, eh?"
"What's wrong?" Glancing at Yui, Yukino asked helplessly, "So, it's your brother who didn't tell you about it." ”
"It's not that I didn't say it—although it must have been revealed later than to Xiaoxue," Yui said with some embarrassment as she looked at Yukino who seemed to have known about it a long time ago, "However, I feel like Xiaoxue knows more than I do!"
- I didn't even ask the girl's name for Xiaohe before, which was really embarrassing.
"Not much, right?" Yukino turned her head, "I just met that girl." ”
"Eh, eh?"
This is the second time Yui Hihama has let out an unexpected scream.
"I can only say that that guy, although he always looks like a sister, always looks for a girlfriend younger than himself in the end. ”
"Young, girlfriend?"
"Well, it's also from Kiyosen Middle School, named Sonoda, a member of the student council - he doesn't worry about his ex-girlfriend settling accounts with him!" With a slight sarcastic tone, Yukino said calmly.
However, Yui could feel a sourness in these words.
"Named Sonoda?" Referring to what Kazuya revealed to himself before, "It's also a girl who has a relationship with her sister", Yui carefully searched her mind.
Then, in that somewhat hidden corner, she remembered the middle school girl who didn't get along so well with her brother at the fireworks display.
"Is that the girl?"
Indeed, the garden in my memory, although it is only a hurried side, is also a very cute child - but, to associate that child with Kowa's girlfriend.
"Yubihama is still very good to that girl, at least that's how I feel. ”
"Huh?"
"It's just a feeling. Yukino turned her head haughtily again.
"Uh, that's exactly what happened," Yui, who felt a little embarrassed, tried to defuse the strange atmosphere, "Xiaoxue's question just now, Kowa should go-"
"-Well, needless to say, let's give that guy a vacation today, right?" However, she saw that under the snow Xue Nai changed her reply with some interest.
- Xiaoxue, do you like Xiaohe?
For a moment, she wanted to ask the question.
However, this idea was quickly dispelled.
She's still not used to pushing her friends into situations where they have to have a showdown.
And she did need time to digest another shocking piece of news.
She thought with a wry smile, is it because that girl rejected Xiao Mu Yu's senior? I feel that I can't imagine it!
Especially when Kowa was preparing to communicate with Kitahara-senpai about the problems of Kogi's seniors.
- Wait a minute, she suddenly realized a very serious problem, a problem for Xiaohe that she thought was very likely to appear.
"That, Koyuki," Yui Yui's voice became more serious, and she asked softly as she looked at Yukino who was looking at her with some puzzlement, "Do you have the contact information for that child?"
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On the first day I came back from Jiuzhaigou, I didn't sleep until three o'clock in the morning, and then I updated, and I felt that I was simply a conscience author. So don't care about the disobedience of Sister Tuanzi's changeable ideas in this chapter~