People's character and cognition are shaped, there are no inherently evil people, and there are no inherently good people, and some are just people who are bound by the past history and are afraid of repeating the mistakes of the past. All human personalities and all choices can be deconstructed as a re-reflection of what has been experienced. Of course, I'm not an exception.

Without an understanding of a person's past, it is impossible to truly make an objective evaluation of the person's actions.

To quote a phrase that people often say when making excuses for their mistakes: "You have no idea what I've been through!"

Although this is more of a self-concealing expression, to some extent, this sentence is not wrong.

So, after a phone call with Isshiki, I decided to talk to the other protagonist of the incident and retract my preconceptions about him, to make sure that Hikiya wouldn't do it again after my actions.

I'm no stranger to Group F in the second year, because I'm probably no less familiar with the people in this class than I am with the people in my own class - in a sense, it's even higher, because the Group F in my year is less likely to have people with their own distinct personalities.

The members of the current group, led by Hayama, are still the focus of the class, and the older sister naturally mixes in with them, but her brows are tightly knit, and her attention is obviously not on their topic. Sister Yui was obviously a little abnormal when I went home yesterday.,But I didn't pay too much attention to this matter because of my own mood.,If you have time after school today, I'm still concerned about it.

Outside of the Hayama group, I saw Sagami Minami, who had been a good target for other people, chatting with the two other girls around her, and her eyes were sometimes a little envious and hateful to the top caste, but she also knew that she and that wave of people did not have the same identity.

In addition, the cute boy Tozuka-seni is munching on bread in his seat, perhaps to accumulate energy for the next training in the tennis club. Of course, from the direction in which his gaze was cast from time to time, I found Hikiya Hachiman relatively simply.

It's not so much that he is ignored by the rest of the class, but now Biqigu is actively showing an aura of resistance and autism, wanting others to ignore it. As I walked up to him, he was looking closely at the stripes on the table, as if trying to discover some historical secret of the school from above.

After I patted him on the shoulder, his first instinct was to sit deeper into the chair and widen the distance between him and me, and then, after discovering the person he was talking to, he relaxed and sat down again.

"Delaying doesn't solve the problem, I'm just helping people solve the problem. Before I could speak, Biqigu said first.

Obviously, he was ready to face our reproaches, and perhaps it was too late for him to question them now.

"Of course, it doesn't matter if Yubihama wants to educate me with the so-called self-satisfaction theory that you have earlier, because that's the way it is, and I solved the most problems with the least sacrifice when everyone had nothing to do. Anyway, people like me will soon be forgotten if they are infamy, and everyone else's reputations will be saved, won't they?"

"Do you know?

"But now it's the younger brother of your siblings who is questioning me in front of me, and you can't even see your sister's gentle looking expression, only your somewhat overly serious face, isn't it? Love story or something.,It's a lie from the beginning.。 Hikiya smiled sarcastically and continued as a matter of course.

"That's right, love story or something, compared to Qigu's predecessors, it was a lie from the beginning!"

"Will the current Yubihama brother agree with this sentence?"

"It doesn't matter if I agree or disagree, but, today I'm coming to Biqigu-senpai-senpai, and what I want to ask is not why you're doing this-" I raised my eyebrows, looking at Biqigu's indifferent mocking expression, "What I want to ask is, Biqigu-senpai, when did you start to treat this kind of talk as a lie?"

"Is that important?"

"Well, it's important. If Hikiya Senpai is the kind of person who has adhered to the view that this world is not gentle at all from the stage when he just knew about love, then I have nothing to say, but, according to the logic of normal people's behavior, there should always be a stage where I fantasize about the tender emotions that may exist from outsiders, right?"

Hikiya's mocking expression slowly collapsed.

"So, is this important?" he asked again and again, "if this is such an ungentle world, is it important to recognize it at what point?

"So, Hikiya Senpai just admitted that he had a time to expect the gentleness of others, right?"

Biqigu didn't nod, but, on the other hand, he didn't shake his head either.

Silence is acquiescence.

"It's not a good experience. Slowly, he said with a shaky voice.

Peeling off the mask of Hikigu's self-disguise layer by layer, and then, slowly touching his angry nerves, this is already a great insult for such a person who prides himself on seeing through everything and looking down on everything.

However, this is not enough.

"Of course, I don't want to know what kind of black history Hikitani's predecessors have, whether it's taking the initiative to confess to a girl and then being used by the other party as a tool to stimulate the boy he likes, or taking a simple girl as a good impression of his gentle language and doing stupid things, or helping other people but others don't appreciate you - so I realized the cruelty of the world, none of this matters. "Just as Hikiya was about to reveal his past, I rejected him again.

"So, what's important?"

"The important thing is, why is it that after realizing the cruelty of the world, he is so gentle with the help of this world than his predecessors in the world?"

"Yubihama, what you said is disgusting, it will make people doubt your sexuality. ”

"Ah, you mean that if Tozuka-senpai said that to you, you would fall?"

"Two different things. ”

"Well, if you don't want to answer, I can tell you the answer, Hikiya Hachiman-san, "I think, I've grasped the current mentality of Hikiya," shouting about the cruelty of this world, but you have to sacrifice yourself to help others, what you want is a response from others, or rather, help from others. When you see other people unhappy with what you have done, you feel the tenderness that other people have for you. After all, you're just looking for kindness in this drastic way in a world that's not gentle in the vast majority of cases, isn't it?"

The reaction to the same hurt can be varied, the same being deceived by others, some people will choose to never trust anyone, and some people will use more subtle but more drastic ways to find someone they can trust. Some people will close themselves off from associating with anyone, and some people will desperately try to contact all kinds of people to find the possibility of trust.

Bikiya is the kind of guy who shouts about the former on the surface, but in fact has a plan to practice the latter.

"So, let's go back to the original question, right?" I looked at the silent Biqigu and continued, "Actually, that's what I'm here for, and you're not wrong in your judgment at the beginning. ”

"Consistently hurting yourself in this way to get other people's attention is frightening to people who try to be gentle with you. When they are scared enough to refuse, when you feel that the kindness of these people to you is 'really' false, have you ever considered that you are wasting the kindness that other people have done to you?"

Don't always feel good about yourself and feel like the hero of this world, thinking that your waywardness can be infinitely forgiven by others!

This applies to Biqigu, and at the same time, it also applies to myself.

In the past, I did many ridiculous things because of the "rationality" that even my own actions had to be denied, but in this case, I named it "right".

However, many things in this world cannot be defined by simple right and incorrect.

"So, does Yubihama want me to save the situation?" After a long time, Hikiya raised his head and looked at me calmly, "Do you think there is still room for me to meddle now?"

"Not really, I just hope that this time, senior Biqigu, will not add trouble to my next actions with such an extra act. ”

"Completely disgusted, isn't it?"

"Maliciously understanding other people's words is the specialty of Hikigu's seniors!"

"If that's the case, then I can only hope that, Yubihama, you still have time to save it. Bikiya smiled helplessly, to be honest, if he hadn't routinely smiled with dead fish eyes, he would still be much more popular.

"Too late to save?"

"Of course, because the current Hikiya Hachiman has a worse reputation than when he confessed two days ago!"

"Huh?"

"Well, listen carefully to the people around you, Yubihama, oh, just listen to the Sagami trio. ”

"That's Yui's younger brother, what did you say to Hikiya?"

"They're members of a club!"

"Wow, that's pathetic, talking to that kind of insidious and silent guy, I don't know when it's going to be a stepping stone to that guy's fame. ”

"Even if you have a bad reputation, it's better than obscurity, and you really can't understand the values of these people!"

"Yui didn't talk to Biqigu today, did he? Yui's younger brother, tsk, is this a gathering of people?"

"So, what's going on?" Maybe it's because the first-year news is so secretive, so I'm ignoring something.

"Brother Yubihama," Hikiya stretched and looked around, "My lie has been exposed, and why should I tell this lie?"

"—Of course, for grandstanding!"

Hikiya sat in his seat like that, and it was only then that I realized that, in fact, all eyes of the entire classroom were focused on me and him.

Things have changed far more drastic than I imagined.

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Don't always feel good about yourself and feel like you're the hero of this world, thinking that your waywardness can be forgiven infinitely by others... Although the atmosphere of the whole chapter is very heavy, but when I wrote this sentence, I couldn't help but laugh wildly, hhhhh.,The feeling that the same male owner robbed the aura of the original male protagonist and taught each other a serious lesson.,Ah,It's shameless.。