She saw that her face was full of confidence and passion at that time, and her clear eyes were shining with fearlessness.

She saw herself standing on the stage, the corners of her mouth with a raised arc, her lips lightly opened, and she could imagine that in the next second, her voice would fill every corner of the auditorium and penetrate the ears of everyone present.

"Don't!"

"Don't!"

Cheng Xingtao wanted to run over, wanting to use her strength to stop it, she cried as hard as she could: Don't speak! Don't speak! Please! Don't speak! Even if you regret it for a lifetime! Blame yourself for a lifetime!

However, no matter how loud she cried, no matter how fast she ran, she still ignored herself on the stage and continued to act on her own, and the people in the audience also looked at her and waited for the words in her mouth.

"I ......" she heard the word from her young and ignorant self, and she didn't even have to listen to it anymore to fill in the rest of her words.

"Don't ......," she screamed inwardly, covering her ears with her hands.

Ding Qing didn't finish speaking, and found that Cheng Xingtao on the side was pale and fell to the side, he was startled, threw the microphone, hugged Cheng Xingtao, and shouted: "Cheng Xingtao!"

The scene suddenly fell into chaos, Li Yuanxiu rushed to the stage as soon as possible, glanced at Cheng Xingtao, and said to Ding Qing: "Carry her to the backstage first." ”

Ding Qing explained to the host: "You continue." ”

then took Cheng Xingtao and Li Yuanxiu to the backstage together.

Yi Xiaoxin also chased after him, and his heart jumped to his throat.

It's so dignified, how to say faint and faint!

Li Yuanxiu opened the way in front, and there was no place to rest in the background, only a small sofa in the dressing room.

After cleaning up the sofa, Li Yuanxiu motioned to Ding Qing to put Cheng Xingtao on the sofa, and then asked the people around to stay away, and ordered: "Open the window, don't leave the extra people in the house, and keep the room ventilated." ”

Yi Xiaoxin drove all the people watching the excitement out of the house, and she blocked the door of the house to prevent others from entering.

Ding Qing stood aside, watching Li Yuanxiu listen to Cheng Xingtao's heartbeat and check Cheng Xingtao's eyelids, he didn't know what the situation was, so he could only be anxious.

"What's the situation? Is it serious? Do you want to be sent to the hospital now?"

Li Yuanxiu glanced at Ding Qing helplessly and motioned for Ding Qing to shut up.

Ding Qing obediently shut up, he didn't believe in Li Yuanxiu's ability, he just ......

It's nothing but nothing, and it's useless for him to be in a hurry.

Li Yuanxiu pinched Cheng Xingtao's people, and after a while, Cheng Xingtao slowly woke up, and when she saw Li Yuanxiu and Ding Qing staring at her, her eyes were hot, and tears flowed down the corners of her eyes.

She covered her eyes, not wanting them to see herself so weak.

"Tell me to be quiet. Cheng Xingtao said in a choked voice.

Ding Qing and Li Yuanxiu glanced at each other, Ding Qing asked with his eyes, what was the situation, Li Yuanxiu didn't say anything, just made a look to go out and talk.

After Li Yuanxiu and Ding Qing went out, they said to Yi Xiaoxin, "You accompany her for a while." ”

Yi Xiaoxin turned around, and Li Yuanxiu closed the door intimately.

Yi Xiaoxin sat down next to Cheng Xingtao, Cheng Xingtao let go of his hands covering his eyes, stared at the air in front of him, and his voice was sad and sad: "Xiaoxin, I still haven't come out of the shadows at that time." ”

Yi Xiaoxin looked at Cheng Xingtao's ashen face, hugged Cheng Xingtao into his arms, and comforted her: "Peach, that's not your fault......

"The moment I was just now, it seemed like I had returned to five years ago......," Cheng Xingtao interrupted Yi Xiaoxin's comfort and said to herself.

She knew better than anyone that it wasn't her fault, but even if she knew, she couldn't change what had happened. No amount of comfort she received could alleviate even the slightest pain in her heart.

Cheng Xingtao hugged Yi Xiaoxin tightly, after so many years, she thought that she could let go of the past, and even when she wanted to get along with Qiao Yue for a long time, she felt that she would definitely be able to face the past.

It's just that at that moment just now, Cheng Xingtao realized that the scars left in the past have permanently left a scar in her heart, not to mention healing, she can't even touch it.

"Xiao Xin, I have thought countless times, why did I meet Xiao Yuyang? Why did I fall in love with him for no reason? Just after seeing him, I became fanatically infatuated, how ridiculous is that! In the countless nights when I was awakened by nightmares, I thought carefully, carefully considered, and thought carefully, I listed Xiao Yuyang's shortcomings, no matter which one, it was enough to make my good impression of him zero. But why, why......"

Cheng Xingtao sobbed and slammed the bloody accusation into Yi Xiaoxin's heart, if only she could hold Cheng Xingtao at that time, if only she had said her disapproval at the beginning.

Why didn't he stop Cheng Xingtao's heat at that time?

If she stops it, even if her friendship with Cheng Xingtao breaks, at least Cheng Xingtao will not suffer the later abuse and accusations.

"Peach, don't think about it, don't think about it, that person is not worth it at all!"

But Cheng Xingtao couldn't listen to Yi Xiaoxin's comfort, and still said to herself.

"During that year in Japan, I often woke up crying in the middle of the night, looking at the dark night, in a strange country, at that time I didn't understand the language, I had no one to talk to, I used to talk to myself in the air, and after a long time, I began to not know how to talk to others, at that time, when I looked up and looked down, I could think of homesickness and tears. I want to come back, but I don't dare to come back!

"Xiaoxin, that year, I had a very severe depression, and I often locked myself in my room, and the locks lasted for several days, and my classmates thought something had happened to me and almost called the police. Later, when things got bigger, I didn't dare lock myself up anymore, I was afraid that they would send me back, so I forced myself to go to class on time every day and live like the walking dead every day. ”

"Later, I used to go to the beach and sit and look at the sea in front of me, I could imagine that the shore on the other side of the sea was a place I was familiar with, and sometimes, walking on the beach, I would think, whose footprints were left on the beach? Where I stepped on whom? Where I stepped on, will anyone care? Will anyone remember this land, did I live? Will anyone remember the land where I once lived? Remember the real me, not the gossip about me......

"I remember! I always remember! Peach! No matter where you go, I remember you!" Yi Xiaoxin hugged Cheng Xingtao in her arms tighter, if she knew that Cheng Xingtao had lived so gloomy, then she would definitely not be angry with her!

Cheng Xingtao has never told anyone about the pain and darkness in the past, and now that she finally said it, she didn't want to get anything, she just wanted to say it and pour out the bitter water that had been buried in her heart.

It's really tiring to be alone with those heavy past lives.

She felt like she had been crushed by the scarred memories, and she didn't know how to straighten up again and move forward.