Touching is a very strange existence. Many people may feel that they can cry for the affection between family members on TV, but they can't show enough emotion to their parents when they experience the same thing, and they can be moved by the ups and downs of the virtual relationship between men and women, but they always complain that their feelings lack heart-warming places.

Is it because the virtual is more exciting than the real? I don't think so, I think it's because we are too familiar with each other in reality, too close to each other, and we are paralyzed. For example, we may not be too excited about the same date in the days after the date, but when we recall the good times after a long time, we will cherish every detail that we remember.

Things that rely on the medium and the distance are more likely to move people. However, after reacting, what we need to recognize is reality.

Of course, boys may be animals with low emotional intelligence, and boys can of course be stupid people who can't understand what girls are thinking, but there is only one thing that all boys can't make mistakes - that is, girls have a good impression of themselves, and for the vast majority of adolescent stupid boys, a little more attention to themselves will be mistaken for a good impression of themselves, so when a girl's real good feeling is revealed, it is impossible for them not to be conscious.

Failure to realize is not that this possibility is not not taken into account, but that they have denied it with other principled judgments in their minds—but, since there is a possibility, there is a possibility of a mistake in judgment.

Ichiyuki is one of the girls I know who is most adept at hiding her feelings, she is good at using her language and face to make boys have unrealistic fantasies, and at the same time, she uses her fluttering attitude to give people a mysterious and unpredictable feeling. To be honest, from a neutral point of view, this attitude is really a bit bad.

However, as every person who comes into contact with Isshiki, they may not be aware of this, they will believe that she is sincere to them, and that they will believe that they are the "special one" who understands the true side of Isshiki. Even though I know that Isshiki may be hiding something from me, subconsciously, I still believe that I am a "special one", and I judge this more strongly than anyone else.

However, it is precisely because of the belief that something is concealed that the anomaly can be detected more easily.

That's right, vaguely, I can feel that Isshiki's behavior is cheating.

As she said, she did too many things to help me, but, I didn't wait for her to ask for something in return: the farce of the student council election was an unrealistic promise after all, and the reward for helping the school festival without an end was even more ridiculous, and after excluding all the reasons she had helped me for profit, I found that I couldn't find a proper reason for the goal of maximizing profits- Helping me with my time and emotional investment, I could have achieved better results if I had put it into something else.

I was shackled by the fixed impression of the previous maximizer, and I gave up thinking because of my mistake of being vulnerable and having to find someone to rely on, so I easily accepted Isshiki's explanation of profit, but when I reviewed it again, I could clearly realize that the ratio of investment and return was unbalanced.

When I read those emails that moved me to the point of giving up thinking for a while, maybe at some point, I was about to fall—to paralyze myself, to accept her tenderness with cynicism—whatever the reason behind this tenderness, whatever the purpose of my use of this tenderness. However, it was only a matter of moments.

This is a kind of irresponsibility, irresponsibility to one's own feelings, and irresponsibility to the feelings of the other person.

At this time, I think I have a clear understanding that perhaps many of the lies I once thought were one-sided were in fact just an obscure expression of feelings.

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When I first met Isshiki, it was a girl who was so confident that it made people feel a little headache, although it was different from the confidence under the snow that believed that she could solve all problems, but the confidence in herself that she could make everyone fascinate for herself was the most obvious sign of her.

Isshiki is changing, she is becoming more fond of thinking for herself, and she is becoming more mature in her thinking, but the original conceit of trying to play people between applause is gone.

I can't say if it's good or bad, but it dawns on me that maybe it would be a better thing for her if she was the girl who could easily hide her feelings in front of me.

Different from her current appearance, Yishiyu's singing skills are really flattering, but when she sings seriously, I can realize that she is indeed a very cute girl.

It's not that I didn't think Isshiki was cute before, but that before me, my perception of Isshiki's "cuteness" came from the impression of the outside world, and everyone else thought Isshiki was cute, so I also thought Isshiki was cute, but in essence, I didn't judge this from my own aesthetic standards.

However, she is indeed a Peugeot girl, her brown eyes turn seriously with the subtitles on the screen, her cherry lips reveal crisp but somewhat poor pitch lyrics, the whole person squirms gently, hard, but a little overwhelmed, this is her real and cute side.

"I have to say, your singing level is worse than I thought!"

Seeing the gaze she threw at me, I said so.

"Evaluate me at Kazuya's level, are you sure you're not stressed?"

"But you're probably the kind of person who often goes out singing with boys and girls - the sound is good, but listening to you sing has the feeling that every song is barely sung, teetering on the edge of going out of tune and not out of tune, are you sure your singing voice hasn't been complained about by your other friends?"

"Because karaoke is not a professional place in the first place, the important thing is to sing happily and not to pick on everyone!"

Isshiki said a little annoyed, looking a little unhappy with my comments, but it also showed that she was fully committed to this state.

Then, it's time to set a trap for her.

Strictly speaking, whether this is a trap or not depends on Isshiki himself. If, as I had hoped, my judgment of her feelings was my misunderstanding, then the question was not a trap, but if it was, I believe she would have jumped in the state I had created.

Actually, I don't want to give up - such a person who supports me unreservedly, if you really support me for the kind of reasons you say.

"But you know, Isshiki, what I listen to the most in this karaoke is the singing voice of Kogi Yu's seniors, that karaoke queen, so this contrast gap. ”

"Ahh

I felt the silence and asked the question I had already thought about.

"The specific situation is a bit complicated, but the conclusion can tell you that I re-rejected my predecessors once again and firmly, and I think that the next step should be fine, and the public opinion that deceives everyone should be a certainty. ”

"Well, thank you. Isshiki's expression looked a little hesitant.

"Words like 'hard work for you' feel like you're asking me to do my job - it's my own actions and my own choice!"

"Well, anyway, I think it's hard work for you to make this decision. ”

The breath of speech has become unstable, and at this time, it shows your usual alertness!

"However, in order for Kogi Senpai to give up completely, she needs a reason why I rejected her. ”

"Reason?"

"That is, she can't understand why I should reject her if I haven't accepted the favor of other people?"

"Ah, well, to be honest, I don't understand it!"

Now, I'm getting nervous. I think I may have realized the answer to the next question.

"So, I need to have someone to associate with now—either in disguise. ”

I looked at a colored feather.

If your answer is to volunteer, I can only cut off your hope. However, I would prefer your answer to continue to consult with me, so that this relationship between us, even if it is a misunderstanding, even if it is a deception, can continue.

"Now that I have announced that I will be your backing, then at this time, I can only help to the end!"

Here's her answer.

Although it is not exact, the expectation in her eyes represents her true mood.

It's annoying, but my judgment is correct.

Of course, I really thought about the necessity of a disguised object of intercourse - Isshiki was certainly in the scope of consideration. However, there is one principle that cannot be wrong, and that is - the object of disguise must not like me. For a girlfriend who is destined to break up just a tool, it is taboo to invest in feelings. Therefore, Yishi, who took the initiative and pretended to be careless in proposing this plan, was going to be rejected here.

Perhaps it was her feelings for me that were even vetoed.

"Is that really the case?"

I stood up and rubbed her hair, helplessly, but somewhat spoiled.

I now know the concealment and disguise of your previous efforts, I now know your previous fearfulness and caution, I now know your attachment and your feelings.

"Yishi, you're still too anxious!"

But, yes, you're still too anxious—if I can take a step back at this time, if I can show your maturity and your wit as you always do at this time, then I will believe that my judgment is wrong—I will convince myself that my judgment is wrong, because I am much weaker and more dependent on you than I appear to be.

So, if you were like your previous self and stop here, the result might be different.

However, you have chosen to confess here.

Presumably, it's hard work to keep this somewhat tired mask, right?

Maybe when we first met, you could still laugh and hide your feelings until the end, but, sure enough, Isshiki, you've changed a lot - whether this can be considered growth or not.

So, since you can be calm, I can't let myself run away anymore.

All I could do was say no.

I'm sorry.

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Two more words here.,Actually, when I first wrote this volume,,I really didn't realize that Xiao Caiyu would be the first person to officially leave the scene (Koharu still owes an official card),But it's almost logical to write this plot.,Caiyu-chan in the rumored incident.,It's actually like a final counterattack.,If you don't succeed.,It's a benevolent.。

The twist from the last chapter to here,It may feel a little abrupt.,It feels like I'm forcibly pushing the plot.,But if you look at Kazuya's previous emotional tendencies for Caiyu a little more closely,It's obvious that I've been emphasizing.,It's a paralyzing dependence.。 Caiyu's exit method was set by me.,When I wrote the 20th chapter of this volume,,I realized,It's time to come.,For a person like Kazuya.,He can't accept his paralyzing dependence for a long time.,So when he comes to his senses.,He'll be tempted.,And for the current Caiyu.,As long as it's tempted.,She'll fall into the trap.,The final result is the current result.,There's no other possibility.。

So I've been saying that this plot seems to have a lot of ifs, but it's actually single-line, and in the final analysis, the final development of the book is actually single-line, partly because of the author's big will, and partly because of the character of the main character.

There should be a few more chapters in the follow-up of this plot.,But after this is over,,It should mean that Ichicolor has completely exited in the emotional line.,The female characters in this book with the emotional line.,I like it very much.,When I refuse,,I'm definitely much more uncomfortable than He.,But,I can only write like this.,And can't pretend to be confused after Xiao Caiyu clearly expresses his feelings.,And Xiao Caiyu can't continue to continue his game with ease.,But,In a sense,For her,This relatively clean relief,Not necessarily not a good thing. - Uh, I'm definitely not suggesting that Yukino is still hazy about her situation...