In my eyes, Xue Nai is always "that" Xue Xue Nai, always the most special person. Not because she occupies a special place in my heart, but because I believe that she is a special person, and despite all her flaws, despite all the maddening things, there is only one thing that will not change - that is, she is an absolutely calm, absolutely sane person.

Feelings are such a complex variable, and they don't need to be added to her.

Of course, it is a pleasure to work with her, her judgment is accurate, her decisions are decisive, and although she lacks self-awareness, this does not affect her to be an excellent rational person.

So I ignored – or rather consciously ignored her side as a girl, the fragile side of her feelings as a girl.

Even, until Yui-san uncovered this self-deception of mine in the blatant, I habitually wanted to continue to ignore it.

"But my sister didn't ask the truth under the snow, did she? At least she didn't give you a clear answer. ”

I don't know if this feeble struggle is meaningful, but it at least calms my mind. I wanted to be comforted: one that I had definitely not made too many mistakes.

"Yes, Xiaoxue didn't actually say anything. ”

"Right, since she didn't say anything, it was actually my sister's speculation. ”

"But I can feel it, but I can't feel it?"

"Uh, ah, I've always been slow to respond to feelings, haha-I shouldn't say that my sister's reaction to feelings is too keen, so I turned some of the abnormalities into such a big suspicion, right?. ”

I know, I know very well, that I'm running away. In my limited life, I rarely ran away from the truth of the matter, and I watched it all indifferently, except for the self-lockdown after that final.

But this time, I couldn't hold on anymore.

If this side under the snow is messed up, then what am I left with?

If it did, as my sister had said, my idea of punishing her with this cruel truth after she had calmed down under the snow was completely frustrated—she would probably just fall into deeper self-loathing, not realizing my purpose.

So, apart from the useless pride of feeling that I am completely right, what kind of result did I get with such a great effort and sacrifice in the process of wiping the dishes that I am proud of?

"If Xiaohe doesn't want to believe it, then when is Xiaohe going to find Xiaoxue and carry out your so-called preaching?"

This question completely punctured my illusion of escape.

I can't just let go of the snow and leave it alone, but the more I want to care about the snow, the closer I get to the truth, and my heart tells me that the truth is closer to Yui-sama's side.

"So, in fact, Xiaohe is aware of it - Xiaohe is more sensitive to feelings than you say yourself. ”

- Even if that's the case, don't puncture it!

"Kowa's sake for Koyuki's sake, I can feel it, but, if I can-"

- So, don't puncture it!

"Have you ever thought of an unexpected remedy?"

- Moreover, why did you have to be pierced by Yui-sara? It doesn't matter if you are poked by anyone under the snow herself, by Isshiki, by Kogi Senpai, why do you have to be discovered by Yui-sama?

Why has I always been protected by me.,I've always taken care of it.,I've always been able to help me, I've only been disgusted by Sister Yui, who told me all this?

It's so annoying to be so embarrassed in front of my sister!

"So, of course I didn't think about it!" I was stunned when I shouted it uncontrollably.

As a result, I can hardly imagine that I may have a somewhat distorted expression in front of my sister exposed in front of my sister.

My sister also seemed to be frightened by my eyes, and she couldn't speak for a while.

It's obviously my own problem, but I show such an expression to my sister, which is really bad.

"I'm sorry, Yui-san, let me think about it calmly for myself. I stood up and staggered towards the door.

If I continue to look at Yui-san, I think I'm going to break down.

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When I abandon other companions, I think that companions are a burden to me, and to abandon them is to liberate them and to make me move forward better. I've always thought so.

However, when people are really facing a desperate situation, they will involuntarily shout "help", and the object of this "help" will never be themselves, but their companions, or at least the people around them.

So, from beginning to end, what did I do? for the sake of my heart's goal, for my ideals, I kept abandoning other people, and constantly hurting other people—until just now, when Yui-san offered me a possible last helping hand, I rejected it with such an ugly gesture.

Who else can I turn to?

I looked at the familiar and unfamiliar school gate of Qingquan Middle School in front of me and smiled self-deprecatingly.

When people are unconscious, they will go where they want to go most. Qingquan Middle School may not be the place I want to go to, but maybe it's my only choice right now, right?

Although I don't have a very good relationship, maybe it's a little reluctant to even call me a friend, but because of some coincidental cooperation, I know a lot about my current situation.

Dialing the phone number I almost never reach, I stood quietly at the school gate.

The most crowded period after school has passed, the members of the homecoming department have long since left, and there is a period of time before the end of the general club activities, except for a few students on duty who appear sporadically or leave the school a little late for various reasons, the front of the school gate seems to be somewhat quiet.

However, it is precisely because of this that I will look more conspicuous in my high school uniform. A few students gave me undisguised suspicion. No matter what the era, high school students will always be suspicious when they come to junior high school students, even if they are only a year older.

Noticing this, I moved to a relatively inconspicuous corner, lest the girl who came out later be seen and have a bad rumor - it seems that since the summer vacation, I have been battling all kinds of rumors, some of which have succeeded and some of which have failed, but these strange rumors seem to like to find people around me and make my life less peaceful.

Soon, the girl with long blue hair hurriedly walked out of the campus and looked around. She didn't carry a school bag, but instead took some paperwork, which I had obviously called out at work, and was going to go back to work later.

People who can work hard without so many troubles are really happy!

Leaping out of the shadows, he patted the other party on the shoulder: "Sonoda." ”

"Ahh

"Yubihama-senpai!" Sonoda rolled his eyes a little grumblingly after noticing that it was me, "I don't think you're the kind of person who likes to hide in the shadows and be scary, are you?"

"Of course not, I'm hiding in the shadows just to keep out of the ordinary, and by the way, it's just that your reputation will be affected, and the new president who just took office was impeached by the peach scandal, which is really bad, isn't it?"

"Theoretically, I haven't passed the vote of confidence, and I haven't taken office yet, I'm just a proxy!" said Sonoda, blushing a little with his bangs.

"Well, even so, it's actually a certainty, right?"

"Hmm," nodded as Sonoda didn't seem to want to dwell on the topic, raised his eyebrows, and began to get straight to the point, "Is there anything about the senior taking the initiative to find me?If I'm not mistaken, this should be the first time that the senior has taken the initiative to come to me without an agreement, well, since that cooperation." ”

"So, are you busy?" I asked, looking at the paper in Sonoda's hand and the coat he was wearing casually.

"It's not that busy," probably realizing that his clothes were a little untidy, Sonoda pulled his coat as if trying to straighten it, but finally gave up, "I just pretended to be very busy, and Senpai-Sugiura-senpai said that if the new student council president behaved leisurely at the beginning, it would make the students suspicious, so I tried to separate the work as much as possible, and made it look like I had something to do every day, which was actually very trivial work." ”

"Xiaochun, that guy, where did you learn enough to deceive and work hard? Ordinary students don't go to the student union office, as long as you stay in the office and do whatever you do, everyone will no longer doubt your enthusiasm for work, why do you need to separate your work?"

"The separation of work is something I think about myself, and my seniors didn't mention it," Sonoda defended his favorite senior a little anxiously, "Moreover, Sugiura-senpai has only mentioned to me once recently that he wants to pretend to work hard, and the other times I talk to her more about-ah!"

In the middle of his words, Sonoda screamed softly, restraining himself from speaking

It's probably a private topic between girls, right? It must be strange to bring it up with me, not to mention, the relationship between me, Koharu and Sonoda is still a little too complicated.

"Ahem, all in all, I'm not very busy right now, so can Yubihama-senpai tell me something?"

"If you're not very busy," I said earnestly, looking at Sonoda, "can you come with me?"

I think I just need someone to listen to, someone who can understand my current situation, but who can remain neutral and calmly analyzed.

I was suddenly glad that I hadn't immediately severed my relationship with Sonoda.

Barely and poorly, at least now I can find a place to lean on.

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Well, this volume is finally coming to an end, and no one has written this volume for half a year...