Chapter 3: Making a Choice at the Beginning Is a Mistake
What if a person's black history is forced to dig up? What if something that a person has been deliberately forgetting is suddenly discovered and forced to clarify?
The answer to this kind of question is to pretend to be stupid. Of course, this is also a very normal thing, right! Only a fool would say all these things, and then be whipped and whipped again? From my personal point of view, I can't find any reason to be responsible for this.
Therefore, even in the face of the high-pressure persecution of Yukino under the snow, my reaction is still a firm "no" word.
"Xiaohe," my sister looked at me with some concern, na, sure enough, people other than family members are not trustworthy, only my sister will stand by my side at this time, "I think I can actually say something, right? If there is any problem between Xiaohe and Xiaoharu-chan, maybe I can help solve it by the way in this matter? My sister has always been very supportive of things like Xiaohe's relationship!"
- Okay, I take back what I said about my sister, although it seems to be trying to solve the problem for me, but how do I think this is paving the way for Yukino to ask me questions under the snow!
"Well, Yubihama-senpai, although I personally don't think it's a good thing to casually inquire about other people's privacy, but now that your work may be affected by your personal factors, don't you think it's a very improper behavior?"
"It's not a problem I deliberately brought about, what is Koharu going to do, I can't help it! Could it be that Koharu came to this school because of my existence?"
"Well, it feels like it's possible, after all, this kind of activity, generally speaking, the vice president is in charge of the contact, and even the assistant to the president, someone like Saiyu-chan can be in charge, right, there is no need for the secretary to come forward. ”
"And as far as we know, the only one in this school who can let that secretary appear in person is a certain former Mr. Xianchong, right? It's better to temporarily peel off the skin on your appearance!" "I don't know why, Biqigu suddenly formed this rare talent for poisonous tongue today, could it be because he suddenly had a desire to preach when facing juniors younger than him.
Of course, after a glance at Bi Qigu's slightly open flat, rotten eyes, I think Bi Qigu's attack stems more from dissatisfaction with my experience of "former current charge" - the current charge is going to explode, and the current charge is a sin - I guess he thinks so - well, sure enough, I don't like this guy, in a sense, he is as arrogant as Xue under the snow.
However, at such a time, it is one thing for me to hide the truth or not, and it is another thing to solve the problem, because it is my reason that this kind of problem has arisen, and it is generally reasonable for me to solve this matter.
"Don't worry!" I sighed, giving the others a message that they would feel more comfortable with, "Although Koharu is very tough at this time, you can surely know that this is just an attitude of fighting for her own interests, and she is not the kind of person who can't separate her feelings from work. ”
"Since Yuhihama has said so, then we can temporarily take the negative influence on that Sugiura secretary due to Yuhihama himself, but the problem now is-"
"-Don't worry, I still have this self-awareness, I won't leak the information from our side to Koharu's side, in the final analysis, the relationship between the two of us is not so close now. ”
"Well, that's it! I think I can educate that little guy well!" Xue Xia showed an expression of interest, which felt like the excitement of a cat playing with a mouse before facing it.
Although I like cats a lot, this cat feels very dangerous!
"Well, under the snow, no, minister!" So, after hesitating for a while, I stopped and reopened the library book in my hand, and it looked like it was already under the snow.
"Any questions? It's not very difficult in terms of the commission itself, but if you have any comments, it's okay to ask me. ”
"Well, Minister Yukishita," I felt a little awkward, and I made a request that I even felt a little problematic myself, "In the final confrontation with Koharu, or, don't hit her too hard, right?"
"Oh, do you still feel sorry for your little girlfriend?"
"No, it's just that I think- okay, forget it, you should understand it that way!"
Suddenly I felt that I could not face this kind of questioning under the snow, I felt as if my whole body was being watched by the other party, and all my secrets were about to be exposed, and in this unbearable environment, I got up and left the classroom of the Ministry of Minister.
Of course, apart from Yukino under the snow, where everything was in place, Hikiya Hachiman, the one who had just suddenly stared at me with a hawk-like look at me for a potential attack, also muttered something out of his mouth as I left.
"People who are too smooth! I don't know how to fail, so I'm running away. "Of course, I still didn't hear Hachiman Bikiya clear in the end.
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A person who likes to comment on other people's decisions, to make an impact, wants to make a change, either because he is intimidated by someone who is more preachy and has a stronger personality than her, or because his actions have really caused harm. If I am the latter, then the former Sugiura Koharu should be said to be the former, right?
But, on the other hand, it must be realized that if the strength of the character is suppressed only by a forceful means, then, like a spring, the deeper it is pressed, the higher the possible result of its rebound, that is, when the person who oppresses him is younger, then to a certain extent, he will become more stubborn. Not just because of the long-term patience of the character itself, but in order to prove to the people who have put this pressure on her: relying on her own preaching, relying on her own strength, can achieve better results than under your strength.
This is especially true for young middle school students who do not admit defeat, and if you analyze this emotion carefully, you will find that it seems to be a simple childish contest, but it is regrettable that too many people do not even realize it, they only feel that they are proving their ability.
So, the question is, at this time, if a person overwhelmingly crushes your proud volunteering, how will you deal with it, which is likely to go to the other extreme, that is, complete inferiority, and complete dependence on other people.
This kind of complete inferiority complex and total dependence on other people is not the same as the current state of mine, one is the collapse of self-consciousness caused by the blow to one's own confidence from the outside, and the other is a kind of restraint based on self-reflection.
Therefore, Yukino can defeat the confident Sugiura Koharu in this challenge, but she can't crush her opponent with any kind of contempt for the other party like she has done in the past, after all, characters like Kikiza Yoshiki are only a minority, and the vast majority of people, the vast majority of people who have absolute self-confidence, can't do this.
However, I can't explain this whole set of logic with Yukino under the snow, but there is one thing I am sure of, that girl should not fall to the other extreme because of this practice under the snow, although maybe the practice under the snow is a great harm to her own proposition, but I can't afford to use Koharu's fiasco in exchange for Yukino's defeat.
In other words, in my heart, Sugiura Koharu, although it is not the relationship of the so-called "little girlfriend", but, at least, when evaluating her status, it is still higher than Yukino under the snow.
"That, Xiaohe, what happened to you just now?" My sister, who was a little out of breath, chased after me with a worried expression.
"No problem! just let the minister take care of my 'little girlfriend'!" I shrugged helplessly, trying not to care.
"Now, sure enough, Xiaohe still cares about Koharu-chan very much! So, if I can, I think I can pass this opportunity-"
I never thought about taking this opportunity to do something or something. Or rather, I care about Koharu, just because her opponent is Minister Yukishita, and if it's someone like Isshiki, even if she wins, she knows how to control herself. ”
"Indeed! Xiaoxue's approach is sometimes too neat, but it will seem a little unkind!" Sister nodded and said, "But it's okay, it's not like I have a sister and I'm by Xiaoxue's side, and Xiaoqi is also there, if Xiaoxue's problem becomes too serious, we can suggest stopping her!"
"But you haven't stopped everything that Xue Nai has done so far, right? If I don't give her a shot or something beforehand, the consequences will be very serious!"
"Eh,Xiaohe, you can't say that.,It's just because what Xiaoxue did before didn't go too far.,She did her best when I commissioned it.,When Xiaocai was too.,That's what Xiaocai herself promised——"
"Don't think that you can get away with it without deliberately lifting the wood seat!"
"But, if you say that," my sister said with a hesitant and then somewhat unbearable expression, "Well, isn't the final situation of the timber seat also very good?"
"That's just because the character of the timber is a rare shaker, okay?"
"All in all, Xiaohe, you don't have to worry about Xiaochun-chan's problem, this time if Xiaoxue speaks too seriously, I will definitely help, hum, after all, this is Xiaohe's rare opportunity to expose his feelings since he was in high school!
However, it gave me a strange feeling, a sense of disobedience, that was strange, that was somewhat inconsistent with my previous thinking.
"Sister Yui, what do you mean by 'a few rare opportunities to expose your feelings', and what does this sentence mean?"
"Eh, didn't Xiaohe feel it? I realized it very clearly," my sister tilted her neck and looked at me with some concern, "Although Xiaohe still cares about me at home, I always feel that Xiaohe is a different person at school, and he is not as active as he was in middle school." ”
"But being active isn't necessarily a good thing!"
"That's right," my sister held her chin, blinked, and said while thinking, "But, yes, I just have a feeling that I feel very strange, that is, Xiaohe has always been cold, and he won't show his partiality to other people, and it always seems that he is always in a state of trying to put himself outdoors! ”
This state that my sister said is a state of self-restraint that I have been in since high school, so I can also understand that this kind of introspection, few can realize its benefits, but I am proud of it to a certain extent, although there are some problems in the short term, but after adapting, I can make fewer mistakes, and the history of mankind, as long as I don't make mistakes, is enough to keep myself going.
"So," my sister looked at me and continued, "I was very happy when Kowa proposed to fight for the Ministry of Service before! Although Kowa said it was for me, I could see that at that time, Kowa wanted to challenge Hayato as a member of the Ministry of Service, right? Although we won't talk about the final result, but at that time, Kowa was at least very emotional, and fell to our Ministry of Service, haha!"
"So, you mean, the kind of attention I have for Koharu now is actually similar to the previous challenge to Hayama because of the Ministry of Service. ”
"Yes, that's it, that's good, so my sister will definitely cheer for you!"
- No, it's not right, it's right, but it's not right.
My concern for Koharu is because I have substituted for Koharu's perspective, and my dissatisfaction with Hayama is because I have substituted for the perspective of the Ministry of Service, which is similar, and my sister's judgment is right.
However, this is not right in itself, and if I take the perspective of the ministry to solve the problem and exert influence, the obvious result will be the collapse of Hayama and the football club. If I substitute Sugiura Koharu's attitude without authorization, then although I can't see any other influence other than helping Koharu for the time being, the unintentional impact is even more terrible and irreparable.
So, my feelings for Koharu dominate my approach, but this emotional prejudice shouldn't be a reason for me to pay extra attention to her.
So at this time, what I need to do is to be absolutely neutral.
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I feel like I still have to read Chapter 0 of this volume to understand the reason why the behavior of the protagonist in this chapter is so inconsistent. The protagonist who continues to rise in the second qi feels like it's going to be less likable again.,Sure enough, I can't write a likable protagonist?TAT。
And,At the end of the chapter, I gave a push book that dragged on for two days.,The "Sakura Picture Book" of the Gendarmerie Captain, ISBN 3629934, the captain of the Winter Horse Party who can reach a consensus with me as the Yukina Party must be an excellent person, and I have always felt that people who are not willing to stir up party strife after determining their own party must be rational, and I like the book written by rational people, so you can take a look, well, that's it, the link is at the end.
Finally, about the old book, which is still in the process of appealing, it has been three business days, and we will wait until I get back to consider moving. If you can't wait, a chapter of old book updates has been placed in the book group, and occasionally I will continue to put old book updates in the book group from time to time. [bookid=3629934,bookname="Sakura Picture Book"]