She cherishes it when she loses, and when this sentence is revalidated on herself, she is already a little numb to it. However, she still couldn't help but feel sad, because the meaning of this time was different for her.

She didn't lose Kazuya Yubihama, from the time she made up her mind, Sugiura Koharu knew clearly that she had lost him, the person she had lost, and there was no need to talk about losing again.

What she has lost is her junior, who has always followed her, looking at her with longing eyes, supporting her with an unwavering expression, and admiring her junior.

Habitually felt that such a junior would not betray her, and habitually felt that such a junior would definitely stand on her side, so when she saw that child standing with Kazuya, she would feel so helpless. She would have been so annoyed by the child's flustered words—all because she felt, at least she, would not betray her.

- But all this is a delusion, the result of my own overconfidence.

Koharu Sugiura has always been overconfident. This is the case when I first meet Yubihama Kazuya and want to track down the criminal record of the head of the soccer department who is all over the world, this is the same when I stand in front of Yubihama again, ready to make him look at himself again, and then, when I look at my juniors who want to help him out of tune, but don't stop her.

It's not that she can't predict that Kaimi Sonoda, who is still obsessed with giving up, will probably go to Yubihama Kazuya, in fact, she should have done something similar before - when the head of the football department slandered the student union. Probably because of the experience at that time, she believed that Sonoda would not have any problems in the end—or, greedily, she thought that maybe the child, the child who was more desperate than she was now, would bring her an unexpected surprise.

As a result, it did bring an accident, but it didn't bring a surprise - but, in fact, it wasn't an accident, because I wanted to help that guy, so I was a little inexplicably addicted to it, which is a normal thing, and I explained to Sonoda the reason why I liked that person at the time, but she didn't expect that this kind of thing would be fulfilled in Sonoda so quickly.

Sonoda Haimi is not good at lying, and when the student union sometimes goes out to play together, she can't even play the basic game of drawing ghost cards, which she knows very well - so, those words, she is telling the truth, of course, too coherent, there may be something wrong with this, but she can say these words naturally, which shows that she accepts the basic facts identified by these words.

It doesn't really matter whether the junior you trust robbed the ex-boyfriend you still like, or your ex-boyfriend snatched the junior who is important to you. Importantly, when she thought she had been defeated and had nothing to lose, she found that her last retreat had been lost when she was inadvertently – under her own gambler's mentality.

Only now, she really has nothing to lose!

It's not that she doesn't pay attention to Haiwei, she still clearly remembers how she looked when she first saw that child, a newcomer who had just joined the archery department, and was temporarily sent by the head of the archery department to the student union office to submit documents. Although she was a little shy, she was very well organized in doing things and talking, so, almost without hesitation, she sent an invitation to the child to join the student council.

At first, she didn't expect that, and few first-year students were willing to combine club and student council activities, which was too much pressure for them – but the next day, the kid came to the student council office to report. Later, she learned that while she liked Sonoda, Sonoda also had a deep impression of this excellent senior.

Sometimes, when chatting with Haiwei, she would joke: If it weren't for the fact that we were both girls, could this be regarded as "love at first sight"? At this time, the shy junior would immediately blush and seriously correct his mistakes: The friendship between girls should be clearly divided, such as me and my childhood sweetheart and other bala balaba-

Sonoda has childhood sweethearts.,Two girls who have a good relationship with her.,It's said that they will join the student union and work with her in the future.。 In this sense, she is actually more affordable than Koharu to fail, because when there is no way to retreat, there are childhood sweethearts who will support her - this kind of relationship is easier for people to realize than the relationship between seniors and juniors that she has neglected.

Sugiura Koharu values Sonoda Haiwei very much—at least at the work level, and when it was confirmed that she was the next president, although the job transition went smoothly, she still wanted to take care of her if she had the opportunity, which is why she came to the student union office today to look for the child - if there was something she didn't understand, she hoped that she could help her in the last few months. And it is precisely because of this that she was able to realize that, in fact, in some places that she did not realize, she had to pay more attention to the girls who had always respectfully called herself her predecessors than she imagined.

After she was a little stupid and revealed her heart to herself, she couldn't control her emotions and hit the child. However, Sonoda just stood there silently, silently bearing her own accusations - she felt sorry for herself.

But why does she feel sorry for herself? Is it a mistake to like a boy? Is it not allowed to like someone who is liked by her predecessors? What's more, what position does she have to beat her? She has obviously given up Yubihama Kazuya - if she must say it, it is because of her jealousy, she is jealous, if she is not as good as Yukina Kogi, then why, she can't even compare to her juniors.

So, she didn't justifiably do it, but just because she was jealous, she attacked the juniors who had been trying to help her. In all fairness, Sonoda certainly has the capital to be liked.,Long dark blue hair and impeccable facial features.,Although serious, sometimes a little panicked character.,In front of a stronger boy like Yubihama Kazuya.,She may show more of her weak side.。 These are all reasons why Kazuya may agree to be with Haiwei.

— and, even if she couldn't find these reasons, and didn't deny the fact, that was enough. She had cut off contact with him for too long, and she didn't know why he had suddenly given up on Kogi Senpai-if - if so, then she might have made up her mind too early, however, the problem was still with herself.

Her juniors, who like her and admire her, have no problems.

- And yet, she attacked her, for no reason. And the juniors silently endured.

Thinking of the frightened expression she had seen when she left, she also felt panic in her heart - perhaps, before she did this, the child did not imagine that her actions would bring such a big psychological reaction to herself, which would make the child feel frightened.

In turn, it may cause a rift in the fragile relationship that the couple has just established.

Perhaps, this is the result she wants?

- No, she firmly denied it, she didn't want to do the result of this theft anymore.

She had to get rid of her own struggles, and she couldn't feel sorry for herself.

If possible, she also wants to continue to like the juniors who like her the most, and she also wants to continue to cherish the precious bond she has made with that girl.

So, what she should do, it is already clear.

- If you can sincerely bless them, it will be a relief for everyone, right?" she thought.

But is it really okay to just be a blessing? If it's just a blessing, will the potential crack caused by herself open wider and wider, and finally reach a point where it can't be bridged, and she can't regret it?

It is not enough to bless.

As if in response to his thoughts, the phone's ringtone.

On the other end of the phone, came the crying, cautious, but sincere voice of his junior: "Senior, Sugiura senior-"

However, she interrupted the apologies that the juniors were about to begin that were destined to make her feel more embarrassed and remorseful.

"It's nothing, Haiwei, you didn't do anything wrong, I should apologize to you. She replied sincerely.

- But after her own performance, she won't believe it, right?

"No, senior, it's my fault, I-"

"—So, what do you think is wrong with you? With a boy I've already given up, and why should I stop you if you like him?"

"Hmm-" came the junior's vague, muffled voice from the other side.

"I only have one question to ask. She asked softly, solemnly into the other end of the headset.

"What's the problem?"

"Hai Wei, are you real, like him, so you are with him?"

There was silence on the other end of the line.

She suddenly began to feel agitated, and even she didn't know what kind of answer she expected Hai Wei to give her. What if the kid gives some answer that surprises her—what if, as she said at the beginning, she just wanted to tie up the boy and that's why she's with him?

- That is, what if, she still has hope?

In Sugiura Koharu's heart, in the lowest and darkest corners, she reluctantly concealed it, but she couldn't help but look forward to it.

"Well, I really like Yubihama-senpai, I really like him. However, the answer on the other side still smashed her secret thoughts.

yes—what was she still thinking about until this point? Didn't it already be clear to the child when she first spoke to her? Didn't she already know it completely? Didn't she already show that she had completely, completely, completely and completely not at all - there was - to keep - the land and felt that she didn't care?

She gritted her teeth, forcing herself to think so.

So why report such unrealistic fantasies?

"Senior?" came a panicked, wavering voice on the other end of the phone.

That's right, she can't be shaken here, if she shakes, then Haiwei will be shaken, if Hai is not shaken, then she really has to become the kind of person she hates the most, hates the most, and breaks up other couples.

Therefore, she must not waver in front of her juniors - face each other with a smile, just as she used to guide her with a smile on how to work countless times when she was in the student council.

"Now, Haiwei?" she said softly, "don't worry, because, now, the person who knows your boyfriend best in the world will be standing behind you thoroughly, and I will help you, let you capture that fool's heart—I will let you, not repeat my mistakes." ”

The sound of inhalation was heard, followed by unbridled cries.

"Don't cry, stupid," she said with a calm she couldn't imagine, smiling and comforting, "and don't ask me such stupid questions, because I'm your senior!"

A long time ago, Kazuya once jokingly asked her: Those who drowned, knowing that they can't swim, why do they still flutter and struggle?

It's an instinctive reaction, isn't it? It's boring to that question, she replied.

So, it means that everyone has to have a symbolic struggle before the final despair?

She now understands that she has to fight to the end before the final despair.

As for what the struggle is for—isn't the answer already there? just to meet the final despair, that's all.

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I always feel like Koharu might come out of the book and kill me at some point—and besides, Lily Dafa is good!