Chapter: Chapter 30.5: Between the scenes, Yukina Kogi is also doubting herself

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While Kazuya was walking aimlessly in the corridor of the third year of Sobu High School, Yukina Kogi was also wandering aimlessly through the streets with some irritability.

And just as Kazuya unconsciously walked to the third-grade classroom that he wanted to go to the most, Yukina also unconsciously found that she had come to the door of the usual karaoke.

"What? I've already come here!" Yukina thought with a wry smile, "Although it's normal to say that I haven't been here for a few days, but after that conversation last time, this situation can't help but make people feel like they're deliberately evading! Kazuya is really a little rude to his seniors!"

Remembering the joking "confession" of Yubihama and Ya at the time, Yukina was also a little crying and laughing, from the beginning, she could see from Kazuya's eyes that the "confession" was not that kind of serious feeling, maybe Kazuya's heart did have a certain good impression of himself, but this kind of good feeling, should be more or less existed in every boy who has a deep relationship with him.

This judgment comes from Yukina's little vanity and self-confidence, because, although she has always maintained a relatively humble and low-key attitude, from the bottom of her heart, Yukina Kogi, who has an enviable appearance and a beautiful voice, still has her own proud capital.

It's just that Tonghe is also deliberately hiding and deliberately denying her talents, and Xiaomu Yukina is also trying not to cause trouble to others, even if she is unintentional, she is not willing to let herself hurt others, just like the situation in the middle of the country.

Therefore, it is not particularly rare for Yukina to be able to quickly understand Kazuya's somewhat middle two thoughts, because, in a sense, Yukina Kogi and Yubihama Kazuya have the same past.

"So, did you come too early?" Looking at the counter of the karaoke that she was somewhat familiar with, and a little unfamiliar, Yukina showed an expression that she didn't know whether to be disappointed or happy, although before Kazuya appeared here to work part-time, Yukina had come to this karaoke I don't know how many times.

However, since the first time Kazuya appeared here, the first time I talked to myself, the first time the two of them met and had a relaxed conversation, in a sense, this karaoke was given a meaning that went beyond a simple entertainment place by Yukina, and it was given a meaning for her to interact with other people and people she trusted, so when she found out that Kazuya didn't even appear, Yukina even suddenly felt a sense of discomfort.

"Well, Yukina, are you here again?" greeted Yukina Inoue, a salesperson at the counter he knew.

"Well, yes," Yukina looked at Inoue, looked around, and asked, "So, Yubihama-san didn't come to work today?"

Then, she suddenly remembered the last time she and Kazuya jokingly asked Kazuya to "run away from work", and her heart suddenly became nervous again, and she asked a little anxiously: "Didn't you dismiss him?" Regarding the last time, it was my fault, and I asked him to spend a little more time talking to me, so I said-"

"Oh, Yubihama, his part-time job hasn't come yet!" Inoue said with a smile, "But Yukina, you really care about him! ”

"Well, it reminds me of my brother more or less, so I'll take care of him more!" Yukina smiled and said, "That's right, now that I think about it, Kazuya still has club activities, and he can't come to work so early, I really thought too much just now." ”

"Yubihama is still very serious and responsible in the face of you!" Inoue shook his head and said, "It should be difficult for an employee like him to be fired! But then again, even if he is suspected of being lazy in the face of you, the more reason should be you, a guest who likes to chat with him! He has complained to me many times, 'Kogi Senpai is sometimes just a chatter, and he can't stop talking'!"

"Eh, that's what he said about me!" Yukina's eyes widened, and she said angrily, "I didn't expect this guy to evaluate me like this, it seems that next time I have to give him a little bit of the majesty of the senior sister!

"Well, as long as you don't tell him that I'm leaking, I feel like that guy shouldn't take into account my senior's thoughts when he's angry!"

"Of course I know this, so I'm going to trouble Auntie, can you help me?"

Inoue said helplessly, "But now room 21 is indeed empty, and you are familiar with it, but don't expect me to prepare everything for you like Yubihama, after all, I'm alone now, and I can't leave the counter!"

"No problem, Auntie, I'll do these things myself!" Yukina shook her hair a little easily, took the key, and walked towards the box she was familiar with.

"Alaala, it's good to be young!" Looking at Yukina's somewhat jumping back, the not so young Inoue salesman couldn't help but sigh.

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Xiaomu Yukina's social circle is definitely not small, so Yukina has never lacked friends, and even if the standard of "friends" is set a little stricter, the kind of friends who know each other are not non-existent, so, this is also the reason why Yukina is difficult to shirk when her friends encourage her to participate in the selection of Miss Zongwu Gao, of course, this also makes Yukina need to work harder and be more in line with the image of "Kaolin Flower".

Be close to everyone.,Treat everyone equally.,But at the same time,Keep a certain distance from everyone.,For boys who have a good impression of themselves.,Politely maintain an attitude that the other party can feel that they don't have that kind of idea.,For girls who have a good relationship with themselves.,Try not to let the other party feel like they're looking down on each other condescendingly.。

Of course, it is not this mode of getting along with other people that Yukina desires in the depths of her heart, although in the process of constantly solidifying herself with this image, she even has a vague feeling of her own positioning.

Xiaomu Yukina doesn't like the title of Kaolin Flower, if she can, she wants to leave her usual image of the girl next door to everyone, but, after winning the first election in the first year of high school, the establishment of her image of the campus goddess is a kind of self-image that she can't get rid of, and Xiaomu Yukina's high school life is inseparable from this image.

Therefore, if you want to deny your image of Kaolin Flower, it is equivalent to denying your entire high school life, which is something that Yukina can't do, so, although there is always a negative voice in her heart, Yukina still continues to play the image of the "campus goddess" in the eyes of everyone.

And, more importantly, if the image of Kuni Middle School is shown to everyone, it will inevitably expose her to the risk of social network instability, and this unconscious harm to others is something that Yukina does not want to see.

So,Yukina once had a kind of luck,Thinking that Kazuya has the ability to act as a savior of her self-positioning to a certain extent,For the first time,Those unknown secrets since I went to high school,Exposed in front of a person from the same school as myself,This is a release of the tension of the self.,Although this release came somewhat late.,But there is such a person who knows the other side of himself.,Can let yourself show the existence of other aspects of the person.,It's also a thing that makes me feel very happy. 。

Moreover, this person has no contact with his normal social circle, although Yukina has not clearly expressed this meaning, but Kazuya still consciously keeps a certain distance from Yukina's usual social circle, and Yukina has not intervened in Kazuya's social network. The two maintain a way of interacting outside the normal social circle, which makes it possible for both parties to know each other's social networks more or less, but also to avoid interfering with each other.

However, this kind of interaction with Kazuya can completely solve Yukina's deep doubts about herself. Because, in the process of getting along with Kazuya, the gap between the identity of the seniors and the juniors has always been an unshakable fact, and Kazuya's behavior of asking for Yukina in many times will also make Yukina realize: These two people are not an equal group in a sense.

Although there is no lack of interaction between peers, but more often, Yukina is still a senior, solving the problem for Kazuya, who is now a little confused, the kind that Yukina said before, "treat Kazuya like her younger brother Takahiro", although this is a casual sentence, but, many times, this also represents a real mode of getting along between the two.

However, this lack of equal interaction in the relationship, to a certain extent, makes Yukina more at ease with the harmony, and likes this pure "seniors and juniors" relationship even more.

However, Kazuya's previous joking "confession" made Yukina's mood change a little, of course, she didn't feel that Kazuya really liked herself, she just suddenly realized that even if she wanted to treat Kazuya as a person like Takahiro, but Kazuya was also a little different from Takahiro. The relationship between "pure seniors and juniors" is absolutely non-existent.

Yubihama Kazuya, even if he behaves like a younger brother in front of himself, a junior, he is first and foremost a boy of his own age, so this is also destined to be Yukina in the process of getting along with Kazuya, in some aspects, it is absolutely impossible to cross the line.

Can't cross the line, this is the creed that Yukina gave herself, so when Yukina hurriedly reminded Kazuya of the so-called "precautions for love", she was admonishing Kazuya as a senior, but at the same time, she was also warning herself with her previous experience.

However, when the current Yukina remembered what she said at that time, she was more or less remorseful: "Although those words are correct, shouldn't I say them more tactfully?

Holding the microphone casually, although she looked at the screen displaying the lyrics a little blankly, Yukina's singing voice seemed a little weak and even intermittent, and it was obvious that even singing now couldn't calm her mood.

In other words, in the past period of time, I have been in a good mood at school, but I have become more and more irritable because I came to karaoke to find peace and did not see each other.

"Oops!" Throwing the microphone on the couch in frustration, Yukina stared blankly at the actions of her favorite singer, Yuki Morikawa, on the screen, but even the melody of her favorite "whitealbum" couldn't calm her down.

"Okay, let's go to the first grade tomorrow and find Kazuya!Explain to him the meaning of what he said at the time, and tell him that I'm not accusing him, I'm just casually talking to him about what I thought at the time, that's it, all in all, just let him stop running away from me!" slammed the whole person on the sofa, and Yukina secretly made up her mind.

"However, then it may be the only end of today, this is very depressing! I came out in less than an hour after singing for the first time, which is really a waste of money!" Frustratedly walking out of karaoke, not having time to pay attention to Inoue's somewhat depressed eyes, Yukina stomped her foot in some annoyance.

"Isn't it just a junior? Why does it make me feel like this? It's been a long time since I've been completely relaxed with someone other than my family, so I'm so worried about losing, right?"

Every time before, when Yukina came out of the karaoke, the sky was already dark, so she was not very accustomed to some dazzling sunlight, and raised her hand to block the wisps of the evening sunset that were not strong, but there were some unpleasant rays, and Xiaomu Yukina's mood rarely appeared a fluctuation that she couldn't understand.

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This chapter is written very hard.,Especially in the second half.,The logic is a mess.,The style is very similar to the way the heroine's psychological thinking is written.,But it's trying to innovate.,The result is that it's not like four.。 In short, this chapter is a test product of a chapter that transforms perspectives, and the result is a big failure, above.