Chapter 11.5: Gloom
When the first snow came, Yukina Kogi fell out of love. In fact, she never thought about this, and she didn't consider even the slightest possibility, although the boy was indeed a little sluggish, although he did like to think about some strange things sometimes, but, after all, it was the confession of Yukina Kogi!
However, it was still rejected, and even, when Yukina lowered her posture and released a signal of forgiveness to the other party for the second time, she was still rejected.
Rejected Xiaomu Yukina twice in a row,Even if it was put two months ago,This is enough to stay in the headlines of the gossip circle of the total martial arts high school for a month,However,The election a month ago,The aura of the goddess of the school garden has faded a lot.,It didn't take long for this news to become a topic of conversation among the crowd.。
After that, Yukina never contacted Kazuya again - at least for now, Yukina Kogi still has her own self-esteem, and she will fight for it, but she will not back down unprincipledly. Kazuya naturally won't contact himself.,If everything continues like this.,The intersection of the two may end here.。
She would still occasionally watch Kazuya's behavior, and wouldn't try to look for it, but when she found something related to him, she would naturally try to inquire about what the boy was doing.
In addition, the people who refuse to confess to themselves as always-Recently, there seem to be more fools who feel like they can take advantage of their fallout because they have heard that they are out of love.,As always, they seem to be serious but are actually somewhat absent-mindedly studying.,As always, maintain a basic amiable relationship with the people around you.。
It was at this time that the rumor arose.
That rumor about "Yukina Kogi and Haruki Kitahara may be dating".
The do-gooder once swore that "this couple who were close during the light music club used to go on a date together in the second music room", Yukina recalled for a long time that it was what happened when she promised another member of the Kitahara Gang to make up lessons together, Fuyuma and Sa, but even this incident, she was a little unhappy after agreeing to help twice, and she didn't participate in this event after that.
As for other bad and even vulgar remarks such as "Kitahara Haruki knows the XX secret of Kogi Yukina", "Actually, Kogi Yu is very fragile, Kitahara just comforted her a little and threw herself into her arms", and even some vulgar remarks, she also listened to them.
The classmates in the class are always firmly on Yukina's side, and they don't mention those vile rumors, but they still ask Yukina what she thinks of Haruki - Haruki Kitahara is a very reliable boy, at least much better than the unknown first-grader, which seems to be the unanimous opinion of the "friends" around him.
If there was some cautious temptation at first, later, these discussions even became a little unscrupulous, and words such as "Yukina is actually already with Kitahara", "Sure enough, compared to the second grade of secondary school, Kitahara is a more reliable target" and other things that I don't know if they are jokes or speculations have also begun to spread.
It's as if the original person was worthless.
I don't know his efforts, I don't know what he thinks, but I still feel as if he is worthless. And also very powerful.,Although it's awkward.,But trying to help everyone.,Just because the behavior shown is a little strange.,It's looked down upon.,It's ridiculed.,It's ridiculous, right?
Now, if it were you, when you meet my confession, you will probably agree incoherently, and then touch your head and giggle inexplicably - refuse, which means that he thinks more, he needs to carry more, and is more like a senior than you who are carefree and laughing at him now!
- But why do you think so much? Why do you have to carry so much? There is no need to think too much about the so-called rational, the so-called collective, the so-called higher ideas, etc.? Even if it is just in front of me, if you can be like these stupid people, dizzy, incoherent, touching your head and smirking and agreeing, there is nothing wrong with it?
It's not as good as these idiots - that idiots!
Dark, obscure feelings flowed out.
"Now, Yukina actually thinks Kitahara is very good, right?"
"Well, na, Kitahara-san is a very reliable person. She replied nonchalantly. Her impression of Haruki Kitahara is probably still stuck in the category of "this person is really a hard worker", and she has the impression that he seems to care about herself a few times in club activities, and when he was rejected by Kazuya for the first time, he seems to have said a few words of comfort to himself when he tutored with him for Fuyuma and Sasa, so so what? Kitahara Haruki's comfort is not more clever than others, why do you think that his comfort will have an effect on you?
Sure enough, is it because this person's image is better, well, Kitahara has done a lot of things that are helpful to everyone, so everyone likes him? But, what Kazuya does that other people just don't know, right? Just because he doesn't know, he makes such an evaluation without authorization-
"To be honest, if it's Kitahara, it's going to make people think, 'That's true, but there's really no way!' or something, so if Yukina really wants to be with Kitahara, everyone will support it!"
"yes, it's obviously a lot better than the first grade secondary 2 stupid before, right?"
- Ah, here it is again, such words of encouragement, words of striking the image of Kazuya. Yukina became a little unpleasant, and she could understand how excited these people were for this rumor, but it would be unpleasant for her to only slander, only to slander that person, and to do it again and again.
However, she couldn't tear her face directly with the other party, so she turned her head a little irritated and looked at the window.
Then she saw the shadow that flashed by.
Is that boy coming? Is he looking for himself?
Ah, that's right—scared? jealous? Is it because of this feeling, that's why you came to see the situation? However, because of her own sensitive identity, she couldn't rush in directly to find her.
But did he hear the conversation in the classroom? He knew it was being discussed, right? If he heard—
Yukina turned her head, frowned slightly, and showed a just right smile: "Kitahara-san, have you explained it too? ”
The boy on the other side was visibly a little excited by the fact that he seemed to be more patient in answering his question, and his face showed a hint of redness, and he continued to explain endlessly, as if to show off that his sources were very reliable: "But Yukina, it's already surprising that you joined that club, right? There are so many clubs that have invited you before, and you have turned them down, why do you want to join the Light Music Club at the busiest time of the third grade? And I heard that the club was about to disband before you joined, right?" ”
"Well, there are all sorts of reasons for that. ”
With her hands crossed under her chin, she turned away a little deliberately—in case the other person realized that she had seen him, and she looked serious about answering the question.
"But Kitahara invited you at that time, right? Although he refused at first, he finally agreed, and was still moved by his perseverance in his pursuit?"
It seems that because Yukina has finally begun to answer questions seriously, the discussion scene has become hot, and the goddess of the school garden, or at least the current class goddess, has finally begun to be interested in this question, which makes the nerves of all those who think they know something inside, or all those who think that they can take this opportunity to get closer to Yukina.
"Well, Kitahara-san hasn't given up is indeed a reason-"
"-Oooh, oh, I got the handle, and I was really moved, right?"
"So, that's just one of the reasons!"
"Well, what can Yukina say about other more important reasons?"
"That, the keyboardist girl is very powerful, and she is very handsome, and she wants to work hard with her or something?"
"But you don't want to believe that, do you?"
- yes, I don't want to believe it myself, because the reason for joining that club is the same as the reason for doing it now!
Showing an even somewhat bewitching, but thrillingly beautiful smile, Yukina Kogi was still sitting firmly in her place.
"I'm telling the truth! I'm going to be troubled if I deny it like that!"
- And if you don't act, I'm going to be a little bothered!
But then, she heard a commotion at the door of the classroom.
As long as I am called, I will go out, and then, whether it is a hysterical complaint or a somewhat unfounded apology, I will understand. Continuing to turn her back to him, she pretended not to know anything.
However, she never waited for the shouts of the people next to her.
When she turned around, she met his gaze - what kind of eyes should she use to look at him? she was shocked when she had discovered her mistake - but she was not wrong? she was ecstatic to see him again - but wouldn't she lower her status by doing so? she was sad that she couldn't get in touch with him, but didn't he come over? why pretend to be sad?
In the end, she just looked at him with a calm look.
However, as if frightened by himself, the boy took a few steps back with a grimace on his face, and then left the classroom somewhat decadently.
"That first-grader is embarrassed to be like this? came to the door aggressively, but left before he even reached the last level!"
The loud voices beside him rang out again.
"yes, I'm leaving!"
"yes, if it's Kitahara-"
"—What if it was Kitahara-san?" she looked up and stared straight at the classmate who wanted to continue making fun.
At that moment, she might have looked terrible.
"Well, if it's Kitahara—" Perhaps frightened by his own eyes, the other party didn't know how to react for a while.
"You don't have to compare Kitahara-san with Kazuya every time. She withdrew her gaze and said softly.
"Uh-huh, uh-huh, yes. ”
"Class is almost over, and I think it's time to study!" she said, with the usual polite but not unpleasant smile - as if the rich expression she had just had just now was completely absent.
"Na, ah, yes. ”
- Did you go too far?before, or after?Did he really misunderstand me about Kitahara-san, or did he just hold back?What was Kazuya's idea? So, he came to me, right?
After everyone dispersed, Yukina opened the book and pretended to read it, but every word of the book was as if she had never learned the foreign alphabet, which made her feel particularly troubled.
She turned on her phone a little confused, but she didn't know what to say.
"Let's meet after school!"
Finally, she wrote, and collapsed on the table.
Really, what kind of tone is this!
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Sure enough, you don't need to write the perspective of the protagonist of the second disease, the whole style of writing is much more natural.,Learn Maruto.,The emotional description still has to be more intense.,Of course, the mood of Yukina is definitely different from that in the forgotten song idol.,The forgotten song idol is actually a little sick.,Or the current Yukina is good (laughs)