Cheng Xingtao stood quietly outside the door, looking through the crack in the door at the persistent and lonely Yi Xiaoxin squatting by the small window in the stairwell.

In the past, she always thought that Yi Xiaoxin was upright and had a stupid sense of justice, but she lacked some vision to see the overall situation and the ability to adapt to changes.

However, at this moment, she realized that it had been six or seven years since she first met Yi Xiaoxin, and Yi Xiaoxin was no longer the one who had an impulsive and enthusiastic heart but lacked a straightforward and stupid mind when she was a student.

The person who has been living in the past and has not grown is himself.

The innocent person is himself.

The person who does not really face this real society is himself.

In the past, Cheng Xingtao always felt that Yi Xiaoxin was a child who needed to be pampered, she needed Cheng Xingtao's care, and she needed Cheng Xingtao to pay attention to her at all times.

It was only at this moment that she realized that the one who was truly pampered was herself.

Yi Xiaoxin, who used to need to be pampered, has grown up, and the self who once thought he was strong is still living in his own self-righteousness and has not grown at all.

Cheng Xingtao walked away quietly, borrowed the hospital's phone, and called Li Yuanxiu.

"You don't have to bother dealing with my affairs, I'll figure it out myself. She said.

After a pause, she said again: "I will deal with Xiao Xin's affairs, and I won't let her mess around." ”

"Cheng Xingtao ......"

Cheng Xingtao hung up the phone before Li Yuanxiu finished speaking, she knew what Li Yuanxiu was going to say, undoubtedly to express his helplessness, and at the same time asked her how she wanted to solve it, or appease her.

She didn't need any of that.

She didn't need an excuse, nor did she want to hear that at this time, the crowd ignored her.

This matter started with her, and then it should be ended by her.

Cheng Xingtao walked up the stairs step by step.

Cheng Xingtao has never liked to trouble others, she has a sense of justice and cannot ignore the plight of others, but in her own affairs, she has never wanted to rely on others.

This is probably when I was young, when I wanted to rely on others, but I didn't have anyone to rely on, so that in order not to be disappointed, I simply stopped relying on others.

However, when Cheng Xingtao is alone, when she is vulnerable, she will also think: Please allow my sadness, when I am embattled, I also long to have shoulders to rely on, and I also hope that there is a strong harbor behind me.

But......

But ......

A tear slipped silently across the smooth but slightly pale face.

Qiao Yue, I still hope that you can come to my side, give me comfort, give me strong shoulders, shelter me from the wind and rain, and give me a better future.

No matter how strong I am, for a moment, I still hope to see you.

However, I finally realized that I really don't matter that much to you.

Our love, for you, really doesn't matter.

Me and your children don't matter to you at all.

How naïve am I to think that this child is a gift from God, even if you can't be with you, you will love this child.

How naïve am I to think that even if we are not together, we can happily be the parents of our children.

How naïve am I to think that you still love me.

No, I'm not naïve, I'm stupid, really stupid!

A stupid and pretentious person who lives in a beautiful world of self!

A baby's cry interrupted Cheng Xingtao's distraction, she came back to her senses and followed the sound.

It was a very small child, wrapped in swaddling clothes, crying loudly and sharply, as if to express dissatisfaction with the world.

Why is the first sound a baby makes when it comes into this world?

Is it because you know that you are going to come into this world and suffer?

Cheng Xingtao stood stunned, seeing the child's father anxiously followed the nurse into the nurse's room, and not long after, she saw the anxious father, covering his face, his shoulders shrugged, and staggered out.

He cried as he walked, a man who was more than 1.8 meters tall and looked strong, but he cried like a child.

Cheng Xingtao saw him sitting outside the delivery room crying, and the tears stopped flowing out, but he restrained himself from making a sound, so as not to let the people in the delivery room hear.

Cheng Xingtao involuntarily walked over, sat down next to the man, and asked, "Didn't your child be born safely? Why are you crying?"

The man was stunned for a moment at first, but then the tears were even more turbulent, he didn't know Cheng Xingtao, but his sadness at the moment urgently needed a window to confide.

He said: "My wife and I had a child who was seven months old in my wife's womb, and it was found that there might be a kidney missing, but at that time it was seven months, and we couldn't make this decision anyway when we thought that a life that had been with me and my wife for seven months would be buried with our own hands." ”

As he spoke, he felt even more pain.

"I heard that even if you have one less kidney, you can live a normal life, not to mention that the hospital is not sure if it is really one kidney, so my wife and I decided to give birth. This is our child, and we love her even if she has any flaws. ”

Cheng Xingtao listened quietly, she saw this stout man covering his face, and tears wet his hands over and over again.

"Just now the doctor examined my daughter and said that one side did not feel any organs. We have to wait a little bit older to check, we have been mentally prepared, but ......"

"But ......"

He choked up, and his hands trembled with the voice.

"However, I am worried about the future of this child, what if other people discriminate against her in the future? What if I bully her? Can I really protect her? I can protect her, I can accompany her for ten or twenty years, but can I protect her all her life?"

The man asked loudly one by one, and asked Cheng Xingtao one by one.

At the moment when she wanted to keep this child, she was full of confidence in the future, and she thought that as long as she loved this child, then there was nothing to care about.

People don't live for others, as long as she and her children live with a clear conscience.

However, the reality is not so beautiful.

Humans are social animals, and once they are in a group, they cannot break away from the group and live alone.

And once you live in this group, you have to abide by the rules of this group, and you have to accept the inhumane but real unspoken rules of survival in this group.

"Then do you regret it now?" asked Cheng Xingtao.

Her voice was far away, as if it was a torture from the heart, ethereal and ethereal, as if it had an invisible power, tightly entangled around the human soul and oppressed the conscience.

"Do you regret it? regret that you left this child in the first place, and regret that you left behind endless disasters. ”