The relationship between her and Mochen was started by her, and it stands to reason that she should end it herself.

But so far, she still hasn't really finished.

No matter what the reason, so far, between her and Mo Chen, it is still the same as before, the same embarrassment, the same, and it can't be broken.

"Mochen, I know, I know it's me who can't stand you...... This time, too, it's that I can't stand you..... but that's not the reason why our relationship can change in any way...... I....I've really, really always looked at you as my best friend......"

"Friends?"

Mo Chen laughed, and the handkerchief that wrapped his eyes finally fell off, and it fell lightly onto the quilt, looking very lonely.

"Xia Qing, you regard me as a friend, but I have never regarded you as a friend, I have always regarded you as a woman. ”

"I know you're using me as a stand-in for Ji Ya...... I've heard of her before......."

Xia Qing simply didn't pretend to be stupid, and said everything she knew, "Ji Ya, is my half-sister, she is a princess who grew up in my father's palm, and I am a beggar who was abandoned by my father when I was a child, whether I live or die...... Even so, do you still think that I am like her?"

"Before, I may have used you as her stand-in,"

Mo Chen's eyes were closed, looking peaceful and beautiful, "However, it won't be like this soon." I myself am confused. Obviously, I just miss the same aura on your body as Ji Ya, obviously, I just want to take you as evidence of her existence in this world, but you are becoming more and more distinct, and you make me feel more and more that you are you, you and Ji Ya are not the same at all......"

"Strange Dust ......"

"Do you remember that time, in the desert inn, outside my room, you saw that scene?"

Xia Qing was startled, it turned out that that time, he knew that she was outside.

"Then why did you tell your men that...... You know I'm at the door......."

"Because I want to die. ”

Mochen's voice sounded full of self-deprecation, "I want to stop liking you so much." At that time, I was persuading myself, I was telling myself, you are the one who stands on Qu Ziyan's side, you are, you will not let go of him, I want to force myself, force myself to let you go completely......"

"Strange Dust ......"

"Don't say anything to comfort me, I won't be happy. ”

Mochen's mouth pulled out a weak smile, looking very desolate,

"But later, you let him go, you let go. You made me think that I still had a chance..... you gave me hope, and you made me even more reluctant to let go of you...... But obviously, obviously you have chosen to let go, why did you choose him in the end? You already know that you are impossible, why are you still .......?"

"Because I like it!"

In Xia Qing's eyes, tears suddenly slid down.

She didn't want to recall these things, but today she was mentioned again by Mo Chen, so that all of her sad memories poured out all of a sudden, so that the last trace of the so-called strong defense line in her heart completely collapsed.

"You should know, the kind of person you like, you like it very much, but you have to pretend not to like it, pretend not to care, pretend not to see it...... Do you know how much it hurts in your heart...... It really hurts. I know that I have no future with him, I know that he is not a good person, and I left him for this reason, but do you know how uncomfortable my heart is at the moment of leaving him......"

Xia Qing covered her face, and her tears flowed even more.

"I originally thought that this time, without him, I could forget him for the rest of my life, and I would no longer have any entanglement with him..... but this is all fake! This is impossible! I can't leave him at all, I can't leave him, I can't leave all his ........"

"Xia Qing, don't cry. ”

Mochen seemed a little caught off guard.

He didn't expect Xia Qing to suddenly collapse, "Don't cry......."

He hurriedly got up, wanting to wipe Xia Qing's tears, but because of a hurry, he forgot that his foot had just been injured, and his eyes couldn't see anything, and he almost tripped over himself.

"Mochen, be careful!"

Xia Qingben was still crying there, but when she saw Mo Chen's sadness like this, she was gone, and she was in a hurry.

"You lie back! Can't you see that you've forgotten!"

"You promise me, promise me not to cry......"

Mo Chen was only wearing a thin undershirt, kneeling on the bed, his eyes already open.

His eyes were still the same as before, without a trace of light, lifeless.

"I see, I don't cry anymore...... I didn't hold my nerve all of a sudden.....I'm sorry....."

Xia Qing took Mochen's arm and hurriedly helped him back to lie down.

"So you, stop talking about that, don't irritate me anymore...... I'm too easily stimulated....."

She didn't want to do that either, but as long as she thought of that guy who loved to wear red, she easily lost her mind.

"Hurry up, hurry up and lie down......"

Mo Chen nodded lightly, and obediently followed Xia Qing's hand to lie back in place.

Xia Qing carefully folded the quilt for Mo Chen, and raised his pillow again, "It may be more comfortable to talk like this......"

"Why do you seem to be very experienced in taking care of patients.......

Mo Chen leaned on the pillow, and the soft touch from the back of his head made him smile, "The pillow is high enough like this, there is no need to adjust it anymore." ”

"No....if you're too high, you'll be very tired, and you'll fall stiff. ”

Xia Qing seriously tinkered with the pillow for Mochen for a while, and when the pillow looked neither high nor low, and it was comfortable, she let go.

"I used to take care of my sick grandfather for a while, so I know some things to pay attention to when taking care of patients...... He used to be much more serious than you, and there were only two of us in the house, and no one could take care of him except me, and he had to learn to ...... if he didn't learn."

There was still some crying in Xia Qing's voice, but at least, it didn't sound so bad,

"I don't know what evil star I have in my life, as long as the people around me can't escape the ...... of getting sick and injured."

"What a star doesn't do a star. You're fine, don't think so about yourself. ”

Mo Chen, who was still listening to it, suddenly became serious when he heard Xia Qing's word Evil Star,

"Those are just accidents, how can they blame you? Birth, old age, sickness and death are normal forms of human beings, what does it have to do with you. ”

"But as long as it's by my side, there are even more, and people who were okay will ....... when they come to my side."

"Xia Qing, at least, I have never regretted knowing you. You are the most important person in my life, please remember this. ”

"Strange Dust ......"