"Perhaps, this is already my limit...... Probably, I really ...... Unhappy. "Thoughts keep popping up in my head.

Mai Fukagawa, this Nogizaka 46, has been loved by the members around her since the establishment of the group, and both the members of the lower and upper groups like this girl who can be warm at any time and infect others with her smile. Not hated by anyone, always thinking about others, this girl is always like that.

Today's second singles selection made this gentle girl like water begin to doubt herself for the first time. A single defeat,She's very dissatisfied with her performance.,But that's just for herself.,It's not that she's not satisfied with the election of other members.,She's the second oldest person in the group.,Today it was announced that the oldest Iwase Yumiko entered the selection.,I'm obviously working hard.,Really worked hard.,But the result is always like this.。 If this continues, she herself feels that she will no longer be able to do a good job like that big sister in front of those members of the junior group who have been selected. Actually, she just wants to enter a selection, and idols are also her dreams. Coming to participate in the selection of Nogizaka at his age, he doesn't have the same age advantage as Ikuta Erika and them, and if he can't seize the opportunity, he may become more and more unable to realize his dream.

"Maybe it's a good choice to graduate. After Mai Fukagawa returned, she locked herself in her room, thinking about the meaning of her continued legacy in the group Nogizaka 46.

"Knock knock. The sound of knocking on the door remembered, and Mai Fukagawa adjusted her mood and prepared to open the door.

"Nana Min?" appeared at the door, it was Nanami Hashimoto holding a tray, and Mai Fukagawa was a little surprised.

"I haven't eaten yet, so I've made some food for you. Nana Hashimoto entered the room, put the tray on the table, and said with a smile.

"Thank you, Nanamin. Mai Fukagawa replied with a smile on her face.

"Eat it, eat it while it's hot, Mai Mai. Nana Hashimoto did not urge Mai Fukagawa to eat quickly, and at the same time saw the red and swollen eyes and tears on Mai Fukagawa's face clearly.

"Uh-huh......" Mai Fukagawa beckoned Nanami Hashimoto to sit down, carefully picked up the rice bowl, and ate slowly.

"Is it alright?" asked Nanami Hashimoto in a whisper.

"Uh-huh, it's delicious. Mai Fukagawa smiled and nodded, and Nanami Hashimoto nodded equally relaxedly.

"Yourself, really, can you make up your mind to leave?" while eating the special dishes that Nanami Hashimoto made for herself, there were all kinds of entanglements in my heart. With every bite of food in her stomach, Mai Fukagawa's determination that she had just made up her mind gradually wavered.

"I, can't I bear everyone in Nogizaka......" I felt the full love of Nanami Hashimoto in the meal, and raised my head to see Nanami Hashimoto who was also watching me eat, and there was a very gentle look in the other party's eyes, and Mai Fukagawa really felt it, and her eyes began to become moist.

"Mai Mai?" Observing Mai Fukagawa's strange appearance, Nana Hashimoto did not exhale lightly, and at the same time handed over the tissue that was placed on the bed.

"Hmm...... I'm sorry. Nana Min. Mai Fukagawa put down the dishes and chopsticks, took the tissue, and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

"Because of today's selection, right?" said Nanami Hashimoto slowly.

"Nanamin, do I still have to stay?" After hesitating for a while, Mai Fukagawa said something that shocked Nana Hashimoto, a sentence that did not look like Mai Fukagawa would say, and it was also a sentence that Nanami Hashimoto was most afraid of hearing.

Mai Fukagawa, this girl's psychology is not like Asuka Saito, who is still very young and immature. If Mai Fukagawa really said such a thing, it may have been the result of her own after careful consideration.

"Why do you think so, there are a lot of people who will need you. Nana Hashimoto comforted.

"I've worked hard at my age, if I continue like this, if idols are just a virtual dream for me, shouldn't I wake up sooner?" Mai Fukagawa said seriously, wiping the tears that slipped from her face with a tissue.

"Why do you have to give up before you make it to the end?" asked Nanami Hashimoto.

"I don't have time to waste...... "Mai Fukagawa cried.

"Didn't you see that Iwase-san also made it to the audition, why don't you believe in yourself?" asked Nana Hashimoto a little angrily. In her opinion, Mai Fukagawa's immature performance should not appear, such thoughts and remarks, negating her own efforts.

"If it's just because of this, you're going to give up on your dreams. I'm going to go to Konno-san tomorrow, I'm going to quit the selection team, and then I'm going to make a suggestion to them to let Mai Mai you go to the selection team, and I'll find a proper reason, and it doesn't matter if I quit Nogizaka. Nana Hashimoto said lightly, but her tone was very calm.

"No, no, no, Nanamin, you must not do this, then I really don't have the face to continue to be with everyone again, you can't do this!" Mai Fukagawa hurriedly refused, she knew that Nanami Hashimoto would do it if she could say it. This girl, from the very beginning, was such a character, and from the beginning, the thinking of the other members who joined Nogizaka was completely different.

"Sometimes, I really feel guilty. Nana Hashimoto smiled self-deprecatingly, and then continued: "Obviously, I just want to have a stable job and go to work in a mixed mood, but I was selected into the selection group twice in a row, and I also entered the god of fortune. Every time I look at the tears of remorse and unwillingness of those non-members of the selection team, I always feel a deep sense of guilt. Maybe the person who shouldn't have existed in the first place is me. ”

"No, no......" Mai Fukagawa said quickly.

"A gentle person like you Mai Mai is more suitable for such a position than me. Nanami Hashimoto smiled, stood up, and prepared to leave the room.

"Don't go!" Mai Fukagawa grabbed Nanami Hashimoto, not wanting her to leave.

"No, Nanami is not like that. Mai Fukagawa shouted loudly.

Feeling the power of Mai Fukagawa at his wrist, the cold expression on Nanami Hashimoto's face also moved, sighed softly, turned to Mai Fukagawa and said, "I'm not leaving, Mai Mai, can you let go of my hand first, it hurts a little......"

"Ah, I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" Mai Fukagawa quickly let go of her hand and apologized vigorously.

"It's fine. Nanami Hashimoto rubbed her wrist and said with a smile.

"Nanamin, we're friends, aren't we, good friends?" asked Mai Fukagawa tentatively.

"Of course, Mai Mai was the first good friend I met in Nogizaka 46!" Nanami Hashimoto nodded in confirmation.

"Then can you promise me one thing, please don't leave Nogizaka 46, please don't leave everyone, I don't want you to leave us. Mai Fukagawa said.

"Yes, but you have to promise me that if you don't leave, I won't leave. Nana Hashimoto nodded seriously.

"Well, you have to stay here until I'm gone, or I won't forgive you as a good friend. In this way, the two of them made a pact with each other.

"I haven't finished my meal yet. Mai Fukagawa smiled and pulled Nanami Hashimoto to sit down again, while she continued to eat the meal she hadn't finished just now. Eating it now, although it is not as delicious as just now, Mai Fukagawa is obviously happier to eat.

"Do you want to hear my story? Nanami Hashimoto, who was sitting on the side, said suddenly.

"Can you talk about it?" Mai Fukagawa was obviously aroused by her curiosity, Nanami Hashimoto's unique personality must have experienced something to be like this, so he wanted to know what his good friend had experienced in the past and would become so mature and calm.

"I have a younger brother, and my family is not very wealthy, in Asahikawa, Hokkaido, that kind of small place......" Nanami Hashimoto began to tell slowly.

Mai Fukagawa had finished eating the food that Nanami Hashimoto had brought, gently put down the dishes and chopsticks, and listened carefully to Nanami Hashimoto telling about her past.

“...... Although it is no longer possible, from the very beginning of the determination, there is still step by step to get here, it may really be because of himself that he can make so many decisions. Nana Hashimoto spoke calmly, and when she said this, there was a noticeable pause.

"Is that the Miyano-san you just mentioned?" asked Mai Fukagawa.

"Well, it's him. Nana Hashimoto didn't answer.

"Nanamin, idol, can't ......" Mai Fukagawa reminded her in a low voice.

"I understand Mai Mai, so I also said that it is impossible, whether I am an idol or not now, it is no longer possible. Nana Hashimoto replied by brushing her hair with her hand.

"Hmm...... Miyano-san, do you still remember him, isn't he a very handsome person?" Mai Fukagawa was a little curious.

"Not a very handsome boy, but very reliable, and the school basketball club is also an ace-like existence. Nanami Hashimoto said.

"Well, such a person can be worthy of Nanamin. Mai Fukagawa said with a smile, Nanami Hashimoto also smiled, and then continued to tell.

“...... The six months I have been in Tokyo have been the most difficult and difficult half a year in my current life, and it is also the most fulfilling half a year for me......" Nanami Hashimoto recounted the days from the time she first came to Tokyo to the days before she became an idol, and Mai Fukagawa's tears gradually flowed uncontrollably.

"I always feel that Nanamin, you are very strong. Stronger than everyone else. Sure enough, I'm still too immature compared to you, and I'm sorry for today's events, Nanamin. After listening to Nanami Hashimoto's past, Mai Fukagawa wiped away the tears on her face and said softly to Nanami Hashimoto.

"I didn't think I was anything, but it wasn't until I joined Nogizaka 46 that I discovered Ikuma-chan and I knew what it meant to be really strong. Nanami Hashimoto shook her head and said.

"Ekuma-chan......" Mai Fukagawa thought for a moment after hearing it, then nodded and understood the meaning of Nanami Hashimoto's words.

"So don't give up on yourself. This kind of truth that the lower group knows, as the upper group of the year, we should work harder. Nana Hashimoto concluded.

"Okay, it's getting late, Mai Mai, you go to bed early. Looking at the clock on the wall showing that it was already 2:40 in the evening, Nana Hashimoto stood up and packed up the tray and prepared to leave.

"I'll clean it up. Mai Fukagawa hurriedly stopped it.

"Rest well, Maimai. In the end, Nanami Hashimoto insisted on cleaning up by herself, and before leaving, she asked Mai Fukagawa a few words before leaving the room.

After "Nana Min ......" sent off Nanami Hashimoto, Mai Fukagawa thought silently for a long time and remade up her mind.

"Mai is already cleaned up. ...... Well, this is the snack packaging that Sha Youli and the others eat. After washing the dishes and chopsticks and putting them back in their place, Nanami Hashimoto found the packaging bags left by a few foodies in the activity room and secretly cleaned them again.

Stretching, Nana Hashimoto returned to her room and closed the door.

"Alas......" After the door of Nanami Hashimoto closed, an unknown sigh came from Mai Shiraishi's room diagonally opposite.

Mai Shiraishi in the room walked softly to the door and silently closed the hidden door.