Chapter 33: The Meaning of Suffering

Sayaka took a leave of absence, and Madoka looked at the other party's empty seat, her face full of worry.

On the roof of the school, Xiao Meiyan and Xiaoyuan stood against the wall.

"Horo-chan, you already know all this, right?" Madoka asked, "Why didn't you tell everyone about it at the beginning?"

Xiao Meiyan was silent for a moment: "Because even if I say it, you won't believe it." This is not perfunctory, in the time backtracking, she learned the truth about Kewpie's conspiracy and contract, and also had the experience of telling it to Madoka and others. But without exception, instead of making everyone stand in solidarity with the enemy, she was deeply suspicious and isolated.

Children are always stubborn about believing what they want to believe and opposing what they want to oppose. If you believe that Kewpie is a liar, aren't they all fools?

Being a fool is very painful, so they subconsciously deny the truth.

In contrast, they prefer to live in a beautiful lie, which is the biggest reason for Kewpie's success.

"Kewpie, why do you want to do such an excessive thing?" Madoka continued.

"Because it doesn't feel like it's excessive. Xiao Meiyan replied, "It does not understand human values at all, and it only sees everything as a legitimate price to pay for the fulfillment of wishes." ”

"It's not a legitimate price!" Madoka said with grief, "I'm obviously willing to give my life to fight for my wishes, and I've been transformed into a body like that...... Sayaka just wants her sweetheart to heal!"

"So you think it's unacceptable, just because the effort is not proportional to the return?" asked Yingluo as he walked up to the rooftop and asked Madoka.

Madoka hurriedly shook her head: "No, no! Since our wish has been fulfilled, we are willing to pay the corresponding price." But it would be too much for Kewpie to conceal part of it, and this is no different from fraud!"

"Makes sense. Yingluo nodded: "But what if it's the other way around? If Kewpie is hiding this, will you deliberately give up the 'welfare' of pain relief for the sake of so-called fairness and truth, and insist on suffering real pain to fight?"

"This ......," Madoka was speechless for a while.

Yingluo smiled: "To be honest, even if you say you are willing, I don't believe it." The answer is of course yes to whether there is anyone who can endure pain with will, but it will definitely not be you fourteen-year-old junior high school girls. Kewpie is right in saying that you are not as strong as you imagined, and even most of them can be called fragile and vulnerable, and it is precisely because of this contrast that Sayaka will collapse. ”

"No, it's not. Madoka tried hard to justify: "Sayaka is very strong, she has always been ......"

"Righteous partner?" Ying Luo shook his head, "That's the biggest problem. It's okay to be a partner of justice, and no one can deny the nobility of Sayaka's idea. But what she doesn't understand is that justice is never the same, and there are a thousand opinions for a thousand people. The justice in her eyes may just be nonsense and vexatiousness in the eyes of others, and she is not aware of this at all, and she has never been prepared for it. The righteous partner in her eyes is probably like in the movies and comics, chic, handsome, and admired...... But in reality, on the contrary, the righteous partner is lonely and helpless, and not yet understood. When imagination does not match the facts, vacillation naturally arises, self-doubt and self-denial can easily knock her down, and the person who deceives her is never Kewpie, but herself!"

"Why is this ......" Madoka hugged her body in pain: "Could it be that the things we have been insisting on are all wrong?"

"It's not wrong, it's idealistic. Yingluo said: "Efforts will be rewarded, hard work will be rewarded, just like the contract of the magical girl, it also hides the crucial truth." ”

"What?"

"If you pay and bear the pain, you will be rewarded, and if you work hard and taste the pain, you can get the reward." Yingluo smiled and said: "Pain is not meaningless, when you can accept them with peace of mind, and learn from them to gain strength, you will be considered to have really grown up!"

"Do you suffer the pain?" Madoka asked suspiciously, "Adults, are they all like this?"

"yes. Yingluo shrugged his shoulders: "That's why you drink." ”

"That Yingluo's classmate always drinks, and he also feels pain?"

"Of course, you can't imagine my pain. Yingluo glanced at Xiao Meiyan, sighed and said, "Because of a certain bear child who does not distinguish between severity and severity, I can't go back to my home, is there anything more painful than this?"

The corners of Xiao Meiyan's mouth twitched: "Maybe that kid didn't mean it at all." ”

"Whether it was intentional or not has caused serious consequences, trying to get away with 'not intentional', Yan-chan, you are more naΓ―ve than you seem. ”

"Hmm......" Xiao Meiyan's face trembled, and she was silent.

"I probably know how to do it!" Madoka suddenly spoke, "Although I don't understand it too well, it is pointless to feel sorry for myself." Sayaka is my friend, and she needs my help the most at the moment, so I can't be depressed anymore. I will accompany her all the way and do my best to help her and accompany her!"

Yingluo nodded: "Although it is still not very mature, it is already a great progress." ”

Madoka smiled shyly, then bowed to Xiaomei Yan and Yingluo, "Thank you for talking to me, I learned a lot." I won't give up, I'll help Sayaka cheer up, don't worry!" With that, she ran away.

Yingluo looked at Madoka's back and said with emotion: "Although sometimes I make stupid mistakes, it is undeniable that Madoka is really a good boy." ”

Xiao Meiyan walked up to Ying Luo with a cold face, and didn't speak, just looked at her directly.

"Wow, what a terrible look, if you dare to beat me, I'll fight back. ”

Xiao Meiyan gritted her teeth and said, "What you just said will make Madoka continue to be entangled in this matter!"

"So you're a bear kid who doesn't know anything. Yingluo shrugged his shoulders: "Time is a very mysterious thing, since the first time you went back, Madoka has been inseparable from this matter. You keep repeating and repeating and repeating for a month, and although the experience is slightly different, the end result is always the same, don't you realize the problem?"

Xiao Meiyan frowned: "What?"

"The past is immutable, only the future can be changed. Yingluo said: "No matter what effort you make, if you lose the courage to move forward, it is meaningless. Sometimes, moving time forward for a second can make a difference. ”

"What the hell are you trying to say?"

"You don't understand, do you? It doesn't matter, all you have to do is make the present. Ying Luo put her arm around Xiao Meiyan's shoulders, pointed to Madoka's back and said, "Look, after my nudge, has Madoka matured a lot?" Ah, now I feel like watching the young eagle spread its wings, full of a sense of accomplishment." ”

"What kind of nonsense are you talking about...... Don't stick so close, let me go. ”

"Hey, it's not cute at all. ”

Xiao Meiyan smoothed the wrinkles on her face, glared at Yingluo, and turned her head away. She came up to be alone with Madoka, and now that Madoka is gone, she doesn't want to stay on the rooftop to blow the wind stupidly.

Yingluo didn't mind, looked at the white clouds in the sky, and muttered: "Puzzle, only the last piece is left......"