I begged the foreman of the nightclub to tell me Zhang Qihua's address, and from the foreman's stammering and various preferential treatment to this man every time, I knew that the foreman must know his identity.

The foreman was reluctant at first, but he couldn't help my begging, and I gave her all the money Zhang Qihua gave me during this time, and I have been reluctant to use the money myself, and later, although the foreman did not tell me the address, but after all, he gave me a phone number.

I found a pay phone, dialed it with trepidation, and when I heard his voice coming through the receiver, I was so excited that I wanted to cry.

But he didn't even hear me, and he didn't even remember my name.

I told him my name, and he was only slightly stunned before telling me that he didn't know me.

My mood sank and sank because of his answer, all the way to the endless abyss.

Later, I told him the name of the nightclub and reminded him that I was the girl who was with him every time.

He was silent for a long time this time, and he finally remembered, but his voice was as cold as winter, and he asked me, "What are you looking for me?"

If it weren't for the child in my belly, I might not have the strength to pick up the phone again, and I would definitely not be able to bear such coldness for a second, lose the phone, and then hide and cry alone.

However, I am no longer qualified to do that, and my children must have a father.

Maybe you will say, I can beat the child, forget this man and start a new life, no, I will never do this, because I was abandoned by my parents since I was a child, they left me alone in that poor and white mountain village, I have long sworn to myself, if one day I have a child, I will not abandon him, I want him to have a father and a mother to grow up happily.

So I told him directly.

"I'm pregnant!"

After saying that, I noticed that my whole body was shaking.

During the time I was waiting for him to answer, I was actually mentally prepared, I imagined how he would answer, maybe he would ask me to knock it out, maybe he would question whether the child was his, but, what I didn't expect was that after I finished speaking, after a while of silence on the receiver's side, the phone was hung up directly, and he didn't leave a word.

Listening to the sound of "beep" in the receiver, I looked at the phone and was stunned for a while, and then I hung up the phone and dialed it again, but this time it was not connected to the sound of "beep", I was unwilling, hung up and redial again and again.

I can't remember how many times I dialed that day, at least dozens of times, and I kept dialing the same number like crazy, but I never answered again until the owner of the public phone booth refused to call me again (there were no cell phones at the time).

I have never experienced it so deeply in those days, and there have been countless times when I think of death, when I see cars on the road, I want to rush over, I see the river, I want to jump, and even when I use a knife when chopping vegetables, I want to cut it directly on my wrist.

However, every time I am impulsive, whenever I think of the child in my belly, I calm down, and I have no way for him to give up on him without even seeing him in this world.

I don't know how I spent those three days, if I still have a glimmer of hope in the past month, although I couldn't find him in the previous month, the three days after calling him may have been so profound that I don't even want to remember it now.

I'm talking about only three days, and after three days of the most painful and dark, I finally saw the light of day in my life.