Chapter 18: Born Lonely
Wangfujing Night Market has begun to show prosperity, Lin Fan follows behind Meng Ling like a good baby, Lin Fan rarely goes shopping, basically very homely, unlike Meng Ling's elation, he prefers a more relaxed atmosphere.
Following Meng Ling's left and right turns, they finally arrived at a store, the two stepped in, Lin Fan looked at the surrounding environment, and said with some curiosity, "I originally thought that Sister Meng would take me to eat Western food or Japanese food." ”
"Hmph, our Yanjing girls have always been drinking wine and eating meat in large pieces, and skewers are naturally the first choice. Speaking of this, Meng Ling glared at Lin Fan again, "If you dare to make me wait so long today, I must eat you hard for this meal." ”
Lin Fan was surprised, "Sister Meng, didn't I explain to you, did I go to someone to talk to?"
"If I didn't know that you didn't mean it, this girl would have left a long time ago, who would have eaten with you?"
Yes, when he met a tsundere girl, Lin Fan picked up a glass of wine, "Sister Xie Meng appreciates her face, I'll do it first as a respect." ”
The skewers with the aroma of meat and fruit soon came up, and the wooden skewers used in this kebab shop are made of fruit wood, and the meat seems to have an indescribable aroma, and even the quality is much higher-end.
Meng Ling's eating appearance can't be complimented, in fact, Lin Fan has long felt that Meng Ling is a big person in contact with Meng Ling, smart and bold, otherwise Lin Fan would not agree to invite Meng Ling to dinner, he is very picky in making friends.
"Little brother, why are you so powerful, it's the first time I've been in the company for so long and I've met such a young project leader. Meng Ling's eyes flashed, very curious.
Lin Fan shrugged helplessly, "Sister Meng, please wipe the oil on your mouth before worshipping me next time?"
"Ahh
The young man was in a ball quickly, and Meng Ling frowned, "Little brother, you are so powerful, what are you going to do in the future?"
"In the future?" Lin Fan exhaled, "Live the life you want to live, do the work you like, be free and unrestrained." ”
"By the way, have you ever heard Haizi's poem?" Lin Fan said in a leisurely tone, "From tomorrow onwards, be a happy person, feed horses, chop wood, and travel the world." From tomorrow onwards, I will care about food and vegetables, and I will have a house facing the sea, and the spring flowers will bloom. ”
Meng Ling looked yearning, "That kind of life must be very beautiful." However, Meng Ling immediately reacted, "Rao this circle, what you said is all false, you haven't said anything specific." ”
"Make money. ”
"Huh?"
"How can you live the life you want without making money?"
Meng Ling felt that the beautiful feeling in her heart was suddenly destroyed, she simply hated iron and steel, "vulgar! vulgar is unbearable!" and immediately drank a glass of beer.
"You women love to hear lies rather than the truth. Meng Ling's white eyes were too scary, Lin Fan immediately stopped, "Okay, I won't say it, I'll drink with you." ”
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Looking at Meng Ling, who was lying on the table and falling asleep, Lin Fan was a little helpless, didn't he brag that you grew up in a wine vat, and there were two boys in college who wanted to get drunk with you but were poured under the table by you?
"Sister Meng, wake up, where is your home, I'll send you back. ”
"Huh?"
"Where's your house?"
"It seems to be the Nanshan Community of Haidian Street. ”
Lin Fan had no choice but to ask clearly, first find a car and then say, it was already ten o'clock in the evening, got into the taxi, Meng Ling leaned directly on Lin Fan, Yanjing at night was full of flashing neon lights, like a lonely night scene in the previous life, the only sound was the whistle of the vehicles on the road from time to time.
Fortunately, he didn't meet a nagging driver, Lin Fan really didn't have any interest in talking now, he was also a little drunk, but what affected his attention was Meng Ling in his arms, women were dressed very thin in summer, he could feel Meng Ling's figure, and there was not only the smell of wine but also a faint fragrance of daughter in his nose.
After wasting all his strength, he finally carried Meng Ling to the door of her house, took out the key from her pocket, opened the door, and it was full of warm daughter incense, clean and hygienic, Lin Fan put Meng Ling on the bed, helped her take off her shoes, poured a glass of warm water and put it on the head of the bed, Lin Fan slowly withdrew from the room, and didn't seem to notice how tempting Meng Ling's unconscious murmurs and coquettish calls were.
When the door was shut, a pair of sparkling eyes opened in the darkness, "He's such a good man." The words were full of the joy of the daughter's family.
But this has nothing to do with Lin Fan, his brain is a little dizzy now, but he is still a little sober, he knows that it is alcohol, and throws himself into a taxi.
Going home and opening the door, Lin Fan was in a bad mood. He knows that whenever he drinks alcohol, his mood will always be inexplicably low, this is the loneliness in his bones, Lin Fan has not had many friends since he was a child, he was still an extrovert before junior high school, but the more he grew up, the more introverted he became, the family made him precocious, and life made him bored, but he was already used to putting everything in his heart, he liked that sentence: We are born lonely.
Fortunately, unlike other programmers, they are only accompanied by instant noodles and computers, Lin Fan likes guitar, as for the original intention of learning guitar, it seems that he wanted to find a girlfriend, but he has not had the opportunity to practice.
Well, Meng Ling's nephrite fragrance still has an impact on Lin Fan, especially for someone who has never met a woman or even been in love. But Lin Fan didn't even have a favorite person.
I don't know why at this time, Lin Fan suddenly remembered Chu Chu, remembered the hug, and the amazing smile when he was in the supermarket. If there is a bright color that appears in the past and present life, it seems that the only one is this girl. Lin Fan sighed, it seems that he is only suitable for living in memories, people who have been in their forties in their previous lives and present lives are still sentimental, which is really ridiculous.
The first sound of the guitar has sounded, floating in the silent night, sitting on his balcony, Lin Fan sang shallowly:
Just grow old, don't wake up alone,
The departure you longed for,
It's just that there's nowhere to stop.
Just sing, eyes narrowed,
And the collapse of tears,
It's just the existence that hasn't arrived.
Singing and singing and feeling bored, Lin Fan put the guitar aside, entered the room, fell straight on the bed, and scolded in a low voice: You can't fuck drink in the future.
I don't know when, Lin Fan has fallen asleep, it seems that the previous venting was just an illusion, and when he opened his eyes, he woke up again.