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I stopped updating for more than a month, and even disbanded the readership, but I actually had the idea of a eunuch, and I did put it into action.

There was no other reason for this, but the results of the book were not satisfactory, and later my practical work began to get busy.

And, with the subsequent update, I went into an endless loop, constantly questioning myself, doubting myself...

At that time, even writing a word seemed to be a kind of torment...

I don't know how many people have experienced that state, and I don't know how to describe it.

As you can see in the end, I really had a broken mentality at that time and didn't resist.

I chose to run away.

After the eunuch's decision, I didn't know how to deal with those lovely readers...

I don't know how to talk to them...

I feel like I've betrayed their support and trust...

During that time, my whole mood and state was a mess...

Later, I was ruthless and disbanded the readership, and then uninstalled all the apps that read books, and uninstalled the writer's assistant...

I want to escape, run away, escape from anything related to fiction...

I don't even plan to read novels again for the rest of my life.

Because just by looking at it, I will remember that I used to be a eunuch, and I will blame myself...

I don't know if this mentality of mine is a disease...

Perhaps, this should be a manifestation of cowardice, right?

......

As for why the update was suddenly restored later ...

Because I'm still pretty cheap...

One day when I was at work, I quietly opened the starting point, quietly opened my book, and then I felt a little bit of it, and finally went to read the comments in the book review area...

There is a person above who made such a statement: I don't want to update it every day, but every week, I just hope that the author will update two chapters when he is bored.

I don't know what others think, but when I saw this sentence, I suddenly blamed myself beyond measure, and all the guilt before welled up in my heart at that moment.

How many readers are still waiting like him?

I think there may be dozens more!

Then, I kept reflecting and asking myself, why did I take the first step in the first place if I couldn't finish it properly?

......

Afterward.

As you can see, I'm back for an update.

The subscription after the update, it's miserable, 43 subscriptions, one of which is my own. Maybe a few of them are pirated sites?

But even so, I never felt more relaxed than I had before, and I no longer had the same emotions as before.

I suddenly felt that my decision was right, and if I really chose to run away, I might have this heart disease for the rest of my life.

But now, there won't be!

By the way, I also created a new readership group, subscribing to the 50 heroes plus group, group number: 184-647-304

......

Finally, taking advantage of the end of the QQ online plot, I plan to take a leave of absence for the next two days.

As you know, I'm very busy at work, and working overtime until 9:10 p.m. is a common occurrence, and this time off is because I want to relax myself a little, and secondly, I want to sort out the follow-up plots, including the most critical foreshadowing of the book I buried in the early stage, and I want to continue. Three, seeing you urging the change, I want to force myself, I want to try to see if I can keep the three chapters of the daily update in July!

You read that right, it's three chapters of the daily update!

At the speed of my hand-wrecked codeword...

This decision is a ruthless one...

But to make it cool for you to watch...

I'll spell it out and give it a try...

Of course, I won't ignore the plot for the sake of the update, so I'll sort it out in the next two days.

Okay, that's all for you!

Thank you for still supporting me.