After returning from the palace, Cheng Yan locked himself in the study alone, and did not seem to feel the slightest pleasure because the dust had settled on Gao Heng's expedition to the northwest. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

During this period, the Zhang family came once, and what was different was that he had just inquired a few words about the Northwest War, and he was impatiently sent out.

In the face of Cheng Yan, who had such an abnormal attitude, although Zhang did not dare to ask more questions in person, he already had a deep doubt in his heart.

She could faintly perceive that Cheng Yan's mentality and stance had changed somewhat compared to the past.

And this kind of change, in fact, has been quietly changing in a subtle way a long time ago.

"Master, master, the little one has something to report. ”

Not long after Zhang's departure, Cheng Yan sat on the red sandalwood circle chair and closed his eyes to recuperate, the tiredness in the corners of his eyes had just subsided, but he suddenly heard a knock on the door.

His eyes opened slightly, and he just wanted to scold him, but he heard the servant outside the door add another sentence.

"It's the third miss, no, it's Princess Yan who is here. ”

Hearing Cheng Jinzhi's sudden arrival, Cheng Yan's eyebrows tightened, and he suddenly straightened up from the back of the chair, feeling a little overwhelmed for a while.

After being stunned for a moment, he barely stabilized his mind and shouted in a low voice: "Come in." ”

As the door was opened, I saw Cheng Jinzhi walking into the house indifferently, with a shallow layer of indifference in his eyes, and he didn't show half of his joy at all because he saw his father, who he hadn't seen for a long time.

Even if he had expected her to have such an attitude, when his eyes came into contact with the undisguised indifference between Cheng Jinzhi's eyebrows, Cheng Yan still felt a faint sense of loss in his heart.

He couldn't remember how long he hadn't seen this daughter, and he couldn't remember the last time she called him "Daddy".

Especially when he heard that Cheng Jinzhi was injured by fire, lost his son, and almost fell ill, he was always worried in his heart, but he never went to Yanwangfu to visit him in person.

Now that she has recovered as before, her complexion is good, and there are no sequelae of pain, I can't help but breathe a sigh of relief in my heart.

He felt guilty about Cheng Jinzhi's daughter after all.

"Jin Zhi, why do you have time to come here today? Speaking of which, you haven't been back for a long time. ”

"yes, it's been a long time. ”

Cheng Jinzhi snorted lightly, looking at Cheng Yan's still kind and gentle face, thinking that he was still acting for the tiger and pushing Gao Heng into danger in order to help the prince, he couldn't persuade himself to smile at him.

Anyway, there has never been a real father-daughter relationship between himself and him, and if he can hide, why should he pretend at this moment?

"Since the last time I set foot here, so many things have happened in between, and I thought that when I came back to this place, many things would be relieved and disappear. But now I find that no matter what I've experienced, the feeling I feel here is still the same cold. ”

"Cold... Really?"

Cheng Yan raised his head and took a deep breath, silent for a moment, and then slowly stared at him.

"Hasn't this home ever given you a little warmth?"

"Yes, but only when my mother was alive. Cheng Jinzhi's tone was still calm, "After my mother passed away, don't you know what kind of life I live?"

"I know, it's my dad who can't stand you. ”

Cheng Yan changed her stern appearance in the past, and her expression and tone were low and weak, which couldn't help but surprise Cheng Jinzhi, who had already made up her mind to question her.

However, after a moment of silence, I felt that the thorn that had been pierced in my heart from childhood to adulthood suddenly hurt, and then I raised the volume impressively.

"What about my mother? Do you feel that you can't stand her at all? What did she do wrong to be treated so unfairly? If you don't like her, why did you marry her, and why did you give birth to me!"

This is the first time that Cheng Jinzhi has mentioned the Qin family, which has been dead for many years, in front of Cheng Yan.

is so straightforward, without any cover-up, as if the hatred that has been pent up in the bottom of my heart for a long time is finally released at this moment, and I no longer have to find any excuse to deceive myself and secretly suppress it.

For many years, there has always been a deep doubt in Cheng Jinzhi's heart, since Cheng Yan was so indifferent to the Qin family in front of everyone, why did he marry her into this prestigious Yasukuni Mansion back then?

The Qin family was not from a famous family, but a Jiangnan woman with an ordinary family background, he was already a powerful minister of the government and the opposition at that time, and there was no reason to marry this woman at all.

"You're... Didn't do anything wrong. ”

Cheng Yan's eyes tightened the corners of his eyebrows heavily, and he moved his lips to stop talking, but he still didn't say what he wanted to say.

turned his feet and turned his back with a solemn expression, as if he was a little afraid to face Cheng Jinzhi.

"I have a lot of reasons and grievances for many things, but not as you see on the surface. I think one day, you'll understand. ”

"Oh, what's going on? I don't want to know what you're up to?"

Cheng Jinzhi smiled coldly when he heard this, and a look of disdain flashed in his sharp eyes.

Even if Cheng Yan really had some last resort as he said, the Qin family's vain death, the coldness and suffering he had suffered for more than ten years, had already left an indelible scar in his heart, which could not be made up by the word "bitterness" alone.

What's more, she didn't believe Cheng Yan's high-sounding words.

"I've never believed only what I see. From beginning to end, you only have the glory and wealth of the Cheng family in your eyes, and the glorious status of your Yasukuni Duke, otherwise how could you ......"

Just when Cheng Jinzhi was about to tell the truth that Cheng Yan and the prince were in cahoots, her heart suddenly turned around, and when she said this, she stopped abruptly, and a deep sense of concern suddenly spread in her heart.

Cheng Yan still doesn't know that the fact that he has supported the prince behind his back over the years has actually been known to Gao Heng and himself.

If you blurt out without scruples at this moment, you will inevitably startle the snake,

But the reason why she set foot here today is not precisely for Gao Heng's business?

"What do you want to say?"

Seeing that Cheng Jinzhi seemed to have something unspeakable, Cheng Yan turned sideways vigilantly, and his eyes flickered faintly with a sharp light shrouded in mist.

In fact, as early as the moment he heard that Cheng Jinzhi had arrived, he knew that it was mostly for Gao Heng's expedition to the northwest.

But just listening to her emotional remarks, the sharp-minded Cheng Yan noticed that everything didn't seem to be so simple.

"Nothing. ”

Cheng Jinzhi's face tightened with a stolen expression, his gaze slowly spread, and the corners of his mouth flashed a slightly sad self-deprecating smile.

"I'm such a fool to run over and say these boring things when I know that in this home, in your eyes, I am a pair of disposable shoes. ”

Looking at the piercing coldness and pain in the depths of Cheng Jinzhi's eyes, Cheng Yan closed his eyes slightly, only to feel a long-lost heart-wrenching pain in a place in his heart that had been hidden for many years.

For a while, the past was in my mind, and after a long silence, I finally said a sentence with great heaviness.

"If I had said that I had always thought that you were not my own daughter, would you still blame me for being mean to you back then?"