Every cold night, she always huddled in that corner alone, shivering with cold, but there was no way, just survived one night after another.

No one knew the grief in her heart.

What a difficult time it was, she had forgotten what supported her through that period of time, and what kind of courage did she have to survive at that time?

Everything has been buried in memories, forgotten to forget, remembered is nothing more than that, there is always nothing to be good enough to recall.

She never had anything to remember in the past, only the summer when she stood in the scorching sun and watched the children, and at that time, her heart seemed to have great strength to support herself to live.

She felt that as long as she lived, one day she would stop going through these things, and one day, she would be free.

One day, she won't have to suffer from these tortures anymore.

So, with the support of some kind of force, she actually survived the entire dark years.

At that time, she always heard the old phoenix mother-in-law say that in this life, there is a person who will wait for you there, he will care for you, and he will always guard you, so you have to wait.

Lin Qi felt like there were ten thousand rays of sunshine shining in her heart at that time, and there was a wireless reverie, which was enough to illuminate that dark years, but the latter two, when she experienced it, she realized that some things were far from being so beautiful, it was a fact, no one in this world can accompany you forever, and only yourself can really accompany you to the end.

Sometimes, Lin Qi felt that maybe it was the death of the old phoenix mother-in-law who took away everything that should have been beautiful.

Maybe there is beauty, but it doesn't belong to her.

She was destined to be a lowly life, unable to get those good things.

There are some things that are just for imagination.

She's leaving, she's going to go on her own.

No one was able to help her.

However, sometimes, Lin Qi suddenly wanted to cry.

She felt that she was far from being as brave as she thought.

In fact, she really wanted to find a place to rely on, and she just wanted to spend the rest of her years quietly.

She never wanted to fight and kill, she didn't feel that she was an extraordinary destiny, nor did she feel that she was a person who wanted to achieve great things, what she wanted was always just a safe and pure land.

However, God couldn't satisfy her even this little wish, and Lin Qi sometimes wondered why she needed to search for things that others could easily get, but she needed to search for so long.

She also wanted to cry in the arms of her parents when she was young, and she also wanted to stand by the lake and play with the children in the hot summer months, but it was very difficult.

How hard was it? so hard that she couldn't get it for the rest of her life.

Shen Duo, after all, is not her beloved, and Shen Duo can't enter her world after all.

But Lin Qi still couldn't help but miss him, miss him smiling at himself, and miss him hugging her to heal her.

But she didn't understand him very much, why did she care about her so much, but in the end, he never came to her?

Therefore, after countless fantasies, Lin Qi decided to forget.

Maybe it's really just her own wishful thinking, so since there is no result, it is better to forget about it!

Countless times, she remembered her childhood.

At that time, she was still a little phoenix with no wings, always nesting in that dark corner, and then counting the sunlight that came in from the high window, no one spoke, no one greeted, and some were just their own loneliness.

Gu Ying self-pity, when she heard people talk about this idiom when she was a child, Lin Qi didn't know what it meant, and later she learned that the original idiom was talking about herself, people like her, who nested in a small corner all day long, no one spoke, she could only look at her own shadow and be a companion with the shadow, isn't it Gu Ying self-pity?

However, she didn't want to be so lonely, she wanted someone to talk to her, but there was no way, she was the only one in such a big cell, and the prisoners who had seen her didn't like her.

Because she can live alone in such a large cell, and they have to live in groups of three or five in a small cage.

And when she found out the reason, she smiled wryly, they were jealous of this, but, she thought, they would never know the price.

That's endless loneliness.

However, in this world, many times, those things only know what it feels like when they have experienced them, and they have not experienced them, they always use their heads to imagine everything to be extremely beautiful, until those things let him experience them, they will not be bitter and unspeakable.

It's all just my imagination.

Later, after meeting a little girl, Lin Qi was no longer so lonely, she didn't know if those people were sympathetic to her or how, anyway, one day, a little girl came to the prison, and she was in the same cell, but they were separated.

She still remembers that since birth, after being conscious, she seemed to have been isolated, isolated from anyone, and not allowed to approach anyone, as if she were a seriously ill patient, for fear of infecting others.

Until that day, they put in a person for the first time, a little girl.

She was so happy that day, lying on the railing, looking at the little girl, and then for the first time chattering and talking so much to a stranger.

At first, the little girl was so afraid of her that she did not dare to approach her or talk to her, but just shrank in the corner, just like she used to be.

It wasn't until later that Lin Qi kept saying this, and kept saying it, that the little girl couldn't bear it anymore and talked to her.

Later, they talked all night, and they leaned on the railing and looked at each other.

The little girl was arrested, she had been to many places before, Lin Qi was very curious after knowing it, and kept looking at her with those dripping eyes, without a sense of fatigue at all.

Until the end, the little girl was too sleepy, so she lay there and slept, leaving Lin Qi alone against the railing, unable to sleep, with infinite reverie in her heart.