"Madoka ......"

A familiar voice was heard.

"Madoka!"

"Huh?"

When I looked up, I realized that my mother was looking at me worriedly.

"Are you alright? ”

Madoka shook her head: "No, nothing, probably." ”

"Yes, if you have any troubles, you must tell me. "Although Xunzi looks like a strong woman outside, she is still a qualified mother at home.

Madoka showed a smile to reassure her parents, nodded and said, "Well, I will." ”

"Then hurry up and eat, or you'll be late." ”

"Ah, yes!" Madoka frantically stuffed the fried poached egg into her mouth, but from the moment the fluffy texture of the fried egg spread in her mouth, tears flowed like beads of broken thread.

"Sister, what's wrong?" the younger brother asked.

"Isn't it delicious?" asked the gentle father.

“…… No, it's delicious, it's very ...... Delicious......"

It's an ordinary fried egg, but it's delicious. This is a taste that can only be felt by being alive, and it was natural in the past, but now it seems to be full of happiness.

I don't have the slightest memory of how I got home yesterday, all that lingers in my mind are the fragments of yellow clothes and Xiaomei's words, I haven't slept all night, and when I come back to my senses, I am already tasting a happy breakfast.

All that poured into my heart was meaningless apologies and sadness for Sister Mamei.

Me, can't I do anything in the end?

……

"The age of delivery is based on medical evidence, but it is a big mistake to extrapolate backwards from that to predict the date of marriage. In other words, women over the age of 30 also have the opportunity to fall in love and get married. Therefore, instead of using the past perfect tense, the present continuous tense is used to ......"

The English lessons of the homeroom teacher and the child teacher are still bizarre, with messy examples, which not only do not help to understand, but will make people more and more confused the more they listen.

Madoka also wanted to calm down and listen carefully, but found that none of the words on the blackboard could enter her heart, so she could only sit like a puppet until the bell rang for the end of class. As soon as she staggered to her feet, she was taken to the roof by Sayaka.

The two sat down on the bench, looking at the blue sky and white clouds, but they were silent. Cuppy also followed, but as if he was worried about something, he squatted a little farther away and did not come closer.

"Madoka, do you still want to ...... Become a magical girl?" Sayaka asked suddenly.

…… No, I don't want to do it anymore.

…… I'm sorry, but I can't do that.

Without even thinking about it, this answer popped into my head.

However, the agreement with Sister Mamei also appeared, and remembering the ecstatic expression of Sister Mamei when she promised to fight together, Madoka lowered her head in pain and guilt.

But Sayaka seemed to understand this mood, and said with a gentle smile: "...... Is it? There's no way around it. ”

If it is abuse and accusation, Madoka is willing to accept it gladly, but it is all considerate and tolerant, this tenderness seems to be the last straw that crushes the camel, so that Madoka can no longer bear it, leaving tears of self-blame and remorse: "I, I also know that this is very cunning, and I have to regret it now after I promised it, but ...... No, no...... That kind of death...... I...... Just think about it...... I just feel ...... Breathless......"

Sayaka stretched out her hand and hugged Madoka's head and put it on her shoulder, and Madoka cried loudly as if she was venting: "...... I can't stand it anymore, I'm so scared...... I'm really scared......"

There were no words of comfort, Sayaka just gently stroked Madoka's hair.

Then ask Kewpie a question.

"What will become of this city? Without Sister Mamei, who can fight the witch to protect everyone?"

"For a long time, Takihara was under Asami's jurisdiction, but when there was a vacancy, other magical girls would not turn a blind eye, and soon other children came to hunt witches. ”

"But that's just for the seed of lamentation, just like that transfer student. ”

"It's true that a type like Asami is rare, and most magical girls still take the gains and losses very seriously, after all, everyone is eager to give back. ”

"Huh!" Sayaka snorted disdainfully, and Madoka lowered her head in disappointment, the children's world is black and white, only those who don't care about personal gains and losses are qualified to be called heroes, and the others are just selfish speculators.

"But......" Cuppy added calmly, "the only ones who have the right to accuse them are children who have the same mission as magical girls, aren't they?"

In a word, Madoka and Sayaka were speechless.

Yes, they are not even contractors, and those who don't even have the courage to bear the contract, who are in a position to blame those children who are fighting for their lives?

Shame welled up in the hearts of the two, as I said before, the children's hearts are black and white, right is right, wrong is wrong, even they themselves are no exception.

"Well, I probably understand your feelings, and I can't force people to make it difficult. Cuppy said, "I'm sorry, although we haven't been together for a long time, it's time to break up, and I'm going to find a child who is willing to make a contract with me." For example, Yingluo-san, as long as she becomes a magical girl, she will definitely be able to stop all the sadness in this world. ”

"Yingluo...... Is it really that strong?"

"Well, she's gifted like I've never seen before, and even what I see may be just the tip of the iceberg. ”

But she ...... It doesn't seem to be willing. ”

"That's not why I'm giving up. Cupy said: "Proper persuasion, reasonable guidance, there is still the possibility of success, after all, this is for the whole universe." ”

"The whole universe...... Is it?"

"That's it!" Cuppy said, waving his ears, "I'm sorry to get you involved, but I'm comfortable spending time with you, goodbye, Madoka, Sayaka!"

Sayaka bowed her head and was silent, Madoka covered her mouth and couldn't stop saying "I'm sorry", and Kewpie shook her head: "It's okay." Then with a whoosh, it disappeared quietly.

The source of everything is gone, but the seeds of guilt and self-blame are buried in the hearts of the two, and they who have witnessed sadness will spontaneously yearn for the light, which is the beginning of everything.

At the end of school, Madoka and Sayaka stood in front of Yingluo.

"If there's something to do, just say it. Yingluo said: "Look at me directly, it's weird and scary." ”

Xiaoyuan hesitated for a moment before he spoke: "Classmate Yingluo, aren't you sad about Sister Mamei's matter at all?"

"It's a little sad, it's just not as much as you think. Yingluo replied, "And the magical girl was originally fighting the witch, so it's normal to have casualties." The only regret is that Asami did not lose at the hands of an invincible enemy, but because of a tactical error, which is a pity. ”

"Tactics went wrong?"

"yes. Yingluo explained: "That dim sum witch has two forms, but Asami has vented all her firepower to the first form, which is equivalent to completely useless work." Kewpie is also really, obviously introduced the snack witch in detail, and even said that he likes to eat cheese the most, but he left out such an important piece of information, which is really careless. ”

"Now people are ...... What's the use of you talking about this anymore!" said Saya in a fragrant voice.

"Don't be angry at me, I didn't eat Asami. Yingluo spread his hands and said: "I understand your sadness because of Asami's affairs, and I won't make a hippie smile in front of you out of politeness, but you can't force me to be sad because of your sadness." After all, I've only known Asami for a little over a week, and the real communication is only a few 'apprenticeship classes', so I'm going to cry so much, you don't believe it, right? ”

Madoka and Sayaka were speechless for a while.

"And ......," Yingluo continued, "Asami said that she became a magical girl in order to continue her life, and since she has fulfilled her wish, she has to bear the corresponding responsibility." You can be sad or sad, but remember that this is the fate of magical girls, a kind of 'attrition that has been planned for a long time'. ”

"Planned ...... Loss!" Sayaka grabbed Yingluo's collar, gritted her teeth and said, "Is human life like this in your eyes?

"Of course, human life is not like this in my eyes, but from the moment Asami became a magical girl, her fate was already sealed. Yingluo said: "It's useless for you to be angry with me, if you have the ability, you can find a solution fundamentally." Complaining and angry, but not exploring the real problem, is really something that only children do. ”

"You ......"

But Kewpie said. Madoka suddenly spoke: "Kewpie said, as long as Yingluo-san is willing to become a magical girl, she can eliminate all the sorrow in the world!"

"Oh, so that mutant rabbit was playing with this idea. Yingluo raised her eyebrows: "Let's not say that I shouldn't be a magical girl, even if I really become a magical girl, why should I eliminate all the sorrow in the world?"

"Why ......" Madoka was stunned for a moment and asked puzzledly, "Do you want to eliminate sadness...... Isn't it good?"

"Hmm...... This is a very profound question. Yingluo thought seriously for a moment and replied, "From the perspective of the entire universe, sorrow and joy are indispensable, and they are important indicators to drive time. From a human point of view, blind happiness is not perfect, and it will only make people lazy because they do not want to make progress. The simplest example is the Garden of Eden in the West, and I'm sure you've all heard it, so I won't repeat it. Therefore, everything has a value for existence, and wanting to completely destroy a thing for any reason is the greatest malice in itself. ”

"So you're going to sit on the sidelines?" asked Sayaka coldly.

"No, I will try my best to save the sorrow I see, if I can't see it, it means that fate has not arrived, even if I am helpless. ”

"Are you really saving, or are you just talking?"

"I'm really saving, but you can't understand it yet. Yingluo said: "After all, your thoughts are so naïve, although they are full of goodness, but goodness sometimes gives birth to greater evil. ”

"Don't think of us, for children!" said Sayaka through gritted teeth, word by word.

"Really, let's show a little maturity. Yingluo blinked: "Let's say start by loosening my collar first." ”

"Hmph!" Sayaka let go of her hand.

"That's right, everything has nothing to do with me, why do you want to trouble me. Yingluo tidied up his clothes and said to Sayaka: "This is the second time you have pulled my collar, it's only three times, and next time, I'll beat you!"

Sayaka don't overdo it.

"Ying, Yingluo. Madoka suddenly spoke: "Although I don't understand your words, I thought about it carefully and felt that I should eliminate my sadness, I don't want the senior sister's incident to happen again." ”

"Pretty good progress, at least you've learned how to think for yourself and not follow the crowd. Yingluo said: "The next thing to do is to understand what you can do and how to do it. At this stage, listen to everyone's advice, whether it is strict or gentle, harsh or generous, just like tasting happiness and sorrow, only by experiencing different good and bad, and gaining valuable experience from it, you can grow!"

"Don't worry, just take your time, there are always adults who have been through all this silently guarding you, aren't they?"