If I could, I would like to go back to Diancangshan, even if I only live to be twenty years old.

Everyone thought it was a miracle that I was still alive. But I knew that he saved my life, that foolish man, stupid enough to love me with his life.

It would be nice to do it all over again, but I know that time doesn't want to, even if I wanted to.

(a)

My name is Zhu Shenyue, the little girl of all families in the capital. I don't like women, I prefer men's clothing, I am not proficient in piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, deviant, and I don't know how to do it.

What's more, I also have a sister who is the first beauty in the capital. Zhu agarwood, as the name suggests, with a strange fragrance, hibiscus face, willow waist, hooked lips and a smile can be said to be indescribable, I don't know how many young people's hearts have been poured out.

With such an excellent sister, envy and jealousy are certain, and I once thought that if I wore the hard-to-find hibiscus snow satin pleated skirt on Zhu Agarwood, probably, it could only be nondescript.

Frankly, I hate her. I hate Zhu Agarwood, obviously there are so many handsome sons waiting for her to favor, but she can't look down on anyone, so she has to rob Jin Zifeng from me.

The saddest thing is that I tried my best to only treat me as a sister, and I was easily hooked by her with a flattering look.

What did Jin Zifeng say to me at that time? Let me think about it, on the night of the Lantern Festival, he suddenly handed me a letter and asked me to get together in Fuyuan Building.

I was so happy that I even changed into women's clothes, which was a very plain skirt, with a white background and small blue flowers, which looked fresh and elegant. I never bothered to rub grease and powder, and begged Xiao Tao to dress me up.

The girl covered her mouth and laughed while curling my hair, "Second Miss looks like going to see a lover." ”

"Go, go, dead girl is talking nonsense. I gave her a chestnut, but my heart blossomed. To be honest, I quite like this name, after all, I have liked Jin Zifeng for more than a year.

In the Fuyuan Building, when I went, Jin Zifeng had already ordered the wine and food. I originally wanted to step directly down the stairs as usual, and then suddenly remembered that if Zhu Agarwood was to say, girls must be more ladylike. Subconsciously slowed down, the lotus step moved lightly, slowly moved over, and the usual journey of less than a minute was stunned by me for seven or eight minutes to arrive.

Jin Zifeng leaned against the window, he was dressed in white, and his posture was long, like a straight green bamboo. I secretly looked at his side face, looking forward to giving Jin Zifeng a surprise, the little girl who had always dressed in men's clothes suddenly turned into a delicate beauty.

It's a pity that there is surprise, but there doesn't seem to be joy.

I patted him on the shoulder and whispered to Brother Zifeng in a soft voice that was deliberately pinched.

"Xiang'er?" Jin Zifeng withdrew his gaze from the window, and when he saw me, Junyi's face showed a look of surprise, but it was only for a moment that he took it back.

"Oh, it's Xiaoyue, why did you suddenly change back into women's clothes? Didn't you say that wearing a skirt was too cumbersome?" Before I could figure out why Jin Zifeng suddenly called out my sister's maiden name, Jin Zifeng's hand on my head interrupted my thoughts. I looked up at him, his eyebrows were as soft as ever, his eyes as black as stars were full of gentle ripples, and even his peach-pink lips looked like a mess. It's just, it's not like it, it's not like Xiao Tianxue's stupid person, although Xiao Tianxue often looks at me so gently, but ...... I bit my lip, trying to suppress the churning pain in my heart.

Jin Zifeng laughed and pulled me to sit down at the table, "Xiaoyue's women's clothes are still very good-looking, Xiang'er often complains to me that my sister is like a wild boy, where is this wild boy, it is clearly a fairy in the Heavenly Palace." ”

My head was groggy, and I just stared at his pale pink lips opening and closing. Then, as if in a flash of inspiration, I suddenly grasped the point, "Xiang, Xiang'er!?" I clutched Jin Zifeng's shirt tightly until I grabbed a wrinkle.

Jin Zifeng was also taken aback by me, raised his hand and put the back of his hand on my forehead, and muttered after a while, "I don't have a fever, why are you talking nonsense." ”

I swallowed the saliva that was stuck in my throat with difficulty, tried to find my voice, and asked him word by word, "You, recognize, know, all, sink, incense." It's not an interrogative sentence, it's a statement of fact. Actually, I probably already know the results. Not only did I know each other, but Jin Zifeng never spoke to me in such a doting tone. That kind of look, I often see in Xiao Tianxue's eyes......

Jin Zifeng straightened my shoulders, his eyes stared at me tightly, and he paused for a long time before replying to me, "Xiaoyue, your sister and I are ...... It is the relationship of lovers, and the two love each other. We didn't mean to hide it from you, it's just that Xiang'er said that you ...... I'm afraid you won't be able to accept it for a while. You know, Xiang'er only has a sister like you, and she loves you the most. This time, I also took it upon myself to ask you out. ”

"That's enough, don't say it!" I interrupted him with red eyes and roared hoarsely, "What hurts me the most, Zhu Agarwood, she doesn't deserve to be my sister at all! She just can't see me happy! She is the most selfish person in the world! I hate her! I hate her!"

"I wish you all happiness. I said this insincerely, trying to hold back the tears back in my eyes. His body flashed, avoiding Jin Zifeng's outstretched hand, and he retreated step by step, until he retreated to the window, and then jumped down from the window.

I carried the light work, like a gust of wind, swept through the bustling crowd, and the corners of my eyes were blurred. This is the second time I have shed tears, but unfortunately the person who made me cry for the first time is no longer there.

I curled myself up in a ball and shrunk on the locust tree next to the Mochizuki Pavilion, the branches were so thick and white that if I didn't look closely, I wouldn't have noticed that there was another person on it.

Xiao Tianxue, why do you say that people are always so cheap?

I gently rubbed the wooden sign on the branch, the pear blossom wood, and the words were engraved on it one by one, hoping that Ah Yue would always be happy and happy. At that time, I was pulled by Xiao Tianxue to see this thing, and when I met his treasure-like eyes, I just pouted disdainfully and mocked him coldly.

The memory involuntarily drifted away again......

"Xiao Tianxue, you are so disgusting! I can't imagine that the famous poison doctor would have such dirty thoughts about his apprentice. "My lips were touched like a dragonfly, very light, but enough to cherish. I opened my eyes and stared fiercely at the familiar figure beside the bed, who had no time to hide.

He seemed a little embarrassed, his eyes were full of shame, and his hands clenched his belt tightly. "Ah Yue, I ......"

"Get out of here! don't touch me!" I slapped his hand away, wiped the corner of my lip with my sleeve, and then got up and left without looking back.

Xiao Tianxue's sigh-like tone came from behind him, "I like you, Ah Yue." ”

Thinking of his liking, I suddenly felt a dull pain in my heart, and I couldn't help but clutch my clothes. Why, didn't let me understand earlier? In this way, is it not that Xiao Tianxue that fool will not die. If it weren't for me, he would have lived well, and it was me who should have died.

(b)

I am Zhu Shenyue, the only disciple of poison doctor Xiao Tianxue.

People in the capital thought that I had gone to Qianfo Mountain to recuperate in the six years I had been missing. Even my father thought I had gone to the White Horse Temple to study Buddhism with Master Konghui, even though I came back like a female hooligan.

When I was born, my body was weak, my mother's name was Bai Zhi, a gentle and gentle Jiangnan person, with a soft temperament, and a soft voice, really like a budding white lotus. Anyway, that's how my father described it, he often said that my mother was the most beautiful woman in the world. Maybe it's in the eyes of a lover, I turned the portrait over and over and looked at it dozens of times, and I only felt that it was a beautiful woman, far from the upside-down beings I thought.

If you really talk about appearance, Luo Zhen, that is, the mother of Zhu Shenyu, and the lord of Huiluo is a real beauty, swaying, with enchanting eyebrows and eyes. However, I don't like that woman, she is pretentious, she changes her ways to make me stumble, and she likes to pretend to be pitiful, as if there is no one in the world who is more innocent than her. It's just a pity that I don't care about my face like the woman next to me, even if the fish dies and the net is broken, I won't let the person who provokes me feel better. Luo Zhen is often so angry that his face is red and his neck is thick, and the most exaggerated time is that he fainted by me, and fell straight to the ground, and the maids and servants next to him were so anxious that they jumped up and down one by one. I was only over nine years old at the time, but I already knew a lot, and even vaguely felt that my mother's death was not as simple as a difficult birth, maybe it was related to Luo Zhen, an evil woman.

Day by day, Luo Zhen gradually began to be unable to suppress me, so he pretended to say to his father that since I am weak, it is better to send it to Qianfoshan for recuperation, and follow Master Kuhui to get involved in Buddha nature, and I can also converge and converge my temperament.

I lay outside the window of the study, holding a loose dog's tail grass in my mouth, listening word by word, my eyes full of disdain. Heh, it's impatient to send me away.

As expected, although my father loved me, he was also worried about my body and bones, and over the years, he found many famous doctors and used countless precious medicinal materials. The old monk who told my fortune still shook his head and sighed, saying that I was born with sick bones and could live to twenty at most.

I didn't want to go, even if I only live to be twenty years old, there are still ten years left, I definitely want to take revenge for my mother, and it is best to make Luo Zhen's vicious woman angry. Besides, in a place like Thousand Buddha Mountain, the temple of the nunnery, just listening to it makes me feel very cold. Facing a group of monks with scars on their heads and slippery heads all day long, if they have nothing to do, they will say "Amitabha" to you with their hands together, even if you are not sick, you have to hold back your illness. But at the sight of my father's loving gaze, I shamefully softened my heart. Forget it, isn't it just six years, and there will be time to come back to respond to Luo Zhen.

"Cheng, I'll go. I pursed my lips and spit the dog's tail grass in my mouth into Luo Zhen's face with delicate makeup, and Hang Erlang responded. Without waiting for her to get angry, she ran away in a puff of smoke.

"Little...... Master, look at this girl!" Luo Zhen wiped the grass clippings off his face with a pale face, and stomped his feet unrelentingly. She was going to say that she was a little scumbag, but in front of my father, if she said this, she would have scolded my father together.

"Okay, Zhen'er, Yueyue is young, and her mother went early. You are such a big person, how can you deal with her little girl. Let her be a little more on weekdays. Hearing this, Luo Zhen had no choice but to swallow the grievances in his stomach, and glared at me fiercely with red eyes.

I stuck out my tongue at her and grimaced, secretly happy in my heart, you deserve to be disciplined, or how to say it's your own father. In addition to marrying the woman Luo Zhen, there is also a sister Zhu Agarwood who is two years older than me, and everywhere else, my father is too good to say anything to me.

The carriage was shaky, and I heard Uncle Zhong who drove the car say that this was the closest way to Qianfoshan, but it was a little tortuous.

I was bored in the carriage alone, so I opened the curtain and chatted with Uncle Zhong. Uncle Zhong is a middle-aged man in his forties, honest and honest, running south and north, and knows many strange things in many places. He didn't look down on him like other young ladies, and he didn't even have any distinction of dignity or inferiority, so he simply smiled and told me several interesting stories. Especially the poison doctor mentioned several times in his words, he has a strange and murderous temperament, and he is superbly poisonous with one hand, which makes me both frightened and inexplicably yearning.

Seeing that my eyelids trembled when I was so sleepy, Uncle Zhong smiled heartily, stopped, and closed the curtain for me. In my drowsiness, a rough voice like a broken gong suddenly exploded, and it was easy to drive out the sleepy worm in my head.

"Leave your money and you'll get by. I, Hu Lao Er, only seek money, not kill people. ”

I was curious, and I looked out of the car window, and through the carved wooden window, I could easily see the face of a middle-aged man. In fact, if you look closely, you should have looked pretty good when you were young, but unfortunately a scar at the corner of the right eye ruined the beauty, from the eyebrow bone to the ear, and the pink and white flesh turned out.

Hu Lao Er seems to be a small leader of the stockade, and a group of bandits with knives and sticks poured out from behind him. It's a pity that there are only a dozen or so people with me, and they are not opponents at all, so I can only watch them loot the entanglement that my father prepared for me.

Hu Lao Er waved his hand and asked his junior brother to make way for us, it seemed that he was ready to let us go as promised before. Uncle Zhong carefully escorted me to the carriage step by step.

"Second brother, the boss said don't let the little girl go first. A thin young man with a chicken nest head ran over and leaned into Hu Laoer's ear and whispered.

I only vaguely heard a few words, "Zhujia", "Luo Zhen", and "Thousand Taels of Silver", but it was enough for me to piece together the truth. Luo Zhen, that vicious woman, really didn't give up.

I had a wooden face, and I was taken to the lair by them. It seems that someone is going to marry in the village, and festive red silk lanterns are hung everywhere, wafting with the smell of meat and wine. Even I, the meat ticket, was allowed to participate in this wedding.

I don't know if to cry or laugh about what happened next. The bride tied up by the owner of Youlongzhai seems to be a ruthless character, and without even frowning, she broke the necks of several people. A good wedding suddenly became purgatory.

"You're not afraid of me?" the bride was wearing a red wedding dress, obviously covered in blood, and her ice-carved face still looked like a mess. In the moonlight, it looks like a fairy who came out of a painting, even though there are more than a dozen corpses lying at her feet.

I looked at her fixedly and shook my head. Master Kuhui once said that I have a cold temperament. At this time, I really knew what those four words meant, cold as thin, and regarded human life like a mustard, except for the disgust of smelling blood at the beginning, I didn't feel the slightest touch in my heart.

(c)

Until he was brought back to Diancang Mountain by Xiao Tianxue, the man did not shy away from undressing in front of me, revealing a flat chest. I only knew that the glamorous bride was a real man, but the poor infatuation of the owner of Youlongzhai actually paid a person of the same sex by mistake, and I was afraid that he would have to vomit a few liters of blood under the yellow spring.

The teenage girl is the time to become a nymphomaniac, not to mention, Xiao Tianxue's appearance meets the appearance of all women's dream lovers. The eyebrows are picturesque, delicate and not feminine, as if the heavens are holding a carving knife and slowly tracing them with all their might. A pair of eyes, obviously bewitching peach blossom eyes, but as clear as washing, with an indescribable cold temperament, the light lip color is like slowly smearing with crystal clear snowflakes.

But I'm not moved by his beauty at all. I'm just attracted by his reputation as a poison doctor, and what I want to do is to be better than the blue, and then go back and be a poisonous fan.

A smart person like Xiao Tianxue, he probably knew my purpose, but he still accepted me as a disciple. I don't know if he doesn't care about these at all or is too confident in himself, or maybe even he didn't expect that he would be planted in the hands of a little girl like me.

Xiao Tianxue is a good master, although he has a strange temperament and often elusive, but he does treat me as an apprentice and teaches me dutifully. Fortunately, although I am not good at piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, which are things that women should know, I am very talented in making drugs. Even Xiao Tianxue has changed from treating me with a cold face at the beginning to paying more attention to me.

But at that time, we were just masters and apprentices. When was the turning point? It seems to be because of a strange poison in Xiao Tianxue's body.

It's only been two years since I arrived in Diancangshan, and I learned about the poison of "hook kiss" from a few ancient books that Xiao Tianxue threw at me, or it can be said to be Gu. The book only used a short pen and ink of less than a sentence to record it, "The king of Gu, limited to ten years, there is no cure." Just the word "king" knows how powerful this Gu is, not to mention the latter sentence "incurable"...... I don't know why a cold-hearted person like Xiao Tianxue has a love Gu on him, I can't even imagine what the person who gave him Gu will be like, there is a ninety percent chance that it will be a woman. However, none of that has anything to do with me, I only have one thought in my heart, I want to save him, I must save him.

For the next three years, I was like a demon, frantically plunging into a pile of ancient books, and I began to study the medicinal properties of various unknown poisons, and I drank them myself without suitable animal tests. I fainted several times, the worst of which was when I vomited black blood and coughed for days on end, and my lungs were almost coughing out. Fortunately, Xiao Tianxue rescued me in time every time I was dying, at that time he just looked at me with a strange look, and asked expressionlessly, even in an extremely cold tone, "Why do you do this? ”

"No reason, you are my master. "What's more, I have less than ten years to live, it's just a matter of time. Naturally, I didn't say the last sentence, I just turned my head and said it slowly in a very serious tone. I didn't dare to look at Xiao Tianxue's eyes, I was afraid that I would be ruthless. I know that he will be touched, like a hand reaching out from the light in the dark, or a piece of driftwood handed over by a torrent, and a person who has been lonely for too long only needs a little warmth to shake it.

Xiao Tianxue is getting better and better for me, and even the Houshan Bamboo House, which was not allowed to be near me before, has lifted the ban, and I have begun to learn more and more subtle poison techniques. Xiao Tianxue no longer shows up once in ten days and a half months, and he is quietly reading a book while I am grinding poison powder. I was often distracted by his excessively hot gaze, and Xiao Tianxue didn't whip me with a bamboo branch like before, but reminded me to be attentive in a flat tone, and even occasionally showed a very shallow smile at the corner of my mouth.

What really hit the heart is the seven-star begonia, the most important introduction in the antidote to "hook kiss". I took a slingshot to shoot down the white dove, secretly intercepted the letter, and knew from it that Xiao Tianxue was looking for something, and now, that thing grew on the highest peak of the Nine Turns Peak.

It took me less than three minutes to make up my mind, pack my bags, and slip down the mountain in the night. I know that Xiao Tianxue is not asleep, how can I hide from him with my little means, it is just a little inferior incense. He was awake but wanted to pretend to be asleep, I knew it, but I didn't want to demolish him.

Nine turn peaks, there are nine in total, the size is different, a mountain is surrounded by a mountain, it seems to be divided and combined, and it is extremely steep. Rao is that you have to climb up step by step with your feet on the ground, just because the Nine Turns Peak snows all year round, the mountain wall is frozen, and there is no shortcut at all.

I stood at the foot of the mountain, looking at the piles of bones below, grinning heartily. If you're dead, you're dead, and I'm the one who's been put to hell anyway.

Maybe it's my obsession, or maybe God can't bear to embarrass a dying person like me. Three days later, I became one of the few people who had climbed the Nine Turns Peak.

I sat on the top of the highest main peak and spread my hands, my usually white and delicate palms already blurred with flesh and blood. Does it hurt? Probably so. I shook my right hand nonchalantly, and a few red beads of blood rolled down and quickly sank into the thick layer of snow. Not far away, my trophy, the seven-star begonia, was shining in the sun. I curled the corners of my mouth and laughed, reached out and tossed it into the special box, and then fell down with a thud as if relieved, sinking myself into the snow.

When I woke up again, it was because of the strong smell of Chinese medicine floating in my nose, and when I opened my eyes, the first thing that appeared in my blurred vision was a handsome man dressed in white, concentrating on watching the fire. His eyebrows and eyes were particularly soft in the mist, the corners of his mouth were hooked with a vague arc, and even the cold chin of the past seemed to have lost its edges.

I stared at him a little distractedly. Xiao Tianxue, a peerless person, not to mention poison, even the skin is good. Over the years that I have been with him, I have seen many women who are crazy about him, including a daughter and a heroine. It seems a pity if Xiao Tianxue dies...... Thinking about something again, I shook my head, shook off the mess, and struggled to get up, but slammed back to the bed.

I watched Xiao Tianxue walk towards me step by step, her steps were very light, as if she was floating. I heard that if you practice light skills to a certain level, you can stay on the ground, and it is obvious that Xiao Tianxue is such a master.

"Does your hand still hurt?" was the first thing Xiao Tianxue said to me after waking up from me. I thought he would be like when he saw me trying the medicine before, and he asked me why coldly, and his throat couldn't help but choke. Seeing that I didn't speak, Xiao Tianxue sat on the edge of the bed, brushed my forehead for me, and repeated it good-naturedly, "Ah Yue, does your hand still hurt?"

I was stunned for a few seconds, shook my head, and before I could sort out the strange feelings, I saw Xiao Tianxue reach out and probe my forehead again, the back of his jade white hand was close at hand, and I could even see the pale cyan blood vessels on it.

"What a stupid look. Xiao Tianxue's body leaned forward a little more, her dark eyes were full of gentle ripples, and I couldn't help but feel a little itchy in my throat. The curvature of the corners of his mouth filled with sunlight, melting the thick layer of snow on his body in one fell swoop. I've never seen him smile so heartily, and I thought that a person as cold as him wouldn't laugh, and even if he did, it was just an almost invisible arc. But this will completely subvert my previous views.

Xiao Tianxue put a wooden pillow behind me, I half sat up, listened to his "ah", and opened my mouth in a trance to take a sip of medicinal soup. Xiao Tianxue sat in front of me, with a wooden spoon in his hand that was extremely incompatible with him, and he was feeding me medicine, his movements were rusty but with careful gentleness. The corners of my eyes couldn't help but feel a little astringent, and I turned my head sideways to try not to look at the look in his eyes, I was afraid, afraid that I couldn't help but fall into it.

(iv)

I know that I bet right, from now on, my Zhu Shenyue will be the person he Xiao Tianxue can no longer let go.

All I want is to be the person he puts in my heart, and then learn a higher level of poison. But when Xiao Tianxue handed me the "Book of Ten Thousand Poisons", my outstretched hand couldn't help but retract. No, no, everything is obviously developing according to my expectations, I found the Seven Star Begonia for Xiao Tianxue, and he gave me the "Ten Thousand Poisons Sutra......

I remember that Xiao Tianxue once said that my heart is not pure, and I only blindly think about revenge, so I can't calm down, and I am not qualified to learn the "Ten Thousand Poisons Sutra". At that time, Xiao Tianxue's face was cold, and the corners of her mouth were clearly sarcastic and disdainful. I looked back at him with more arrogant eyes, and I said, so what, one day I will be better than you, and the name of the poison doctor should have been changed a long time ago.

Now, it's probably going to happen.

It was night, and the bamboo forest outside the house was pitch black, with occasional pale green fireflies. I sat at the window, staring absentmindedly at the crescent moon, the book I had been looking forward to for a long time and tossing it aside. Obviously, all this is what I want, but why is there a sudden pain in my heart, and my eyes are sour. I reached out and watched the moonlight flow between my fingers.

Everything that followed seemed to be logical, but it caught me off guard. Xiao Tianxue fell in love with me, such a person who should be ruthless and desireless, I never knew that he would have such a gentle and petty behavior. He would bring me all kinds of gadgets from the market at the bottom of the mountain, he would carefully and attentively cook medicinal food for me, and he would go over the mountains and mountains to find the herbs I casually mentioned. 166 Reading Network