Coming back to my senses, I have stepped into the most prosperous area of the new city, and it is also the location of the new head office of Zhizhiyang. Pen ~ fun ~ Pavilion www.biquge.info a rare cloudy day in summer, the cool breeze caresses me, as if to remind me that the past has passed, yes, the years are not forgiving, since the first provocation letter sent by Lena at the age of thirty, ten years, in the blink of an eye, this is already the fourth letter received, people at this age is often said to be the year of ancient rare, ancient rare, ancient rare......

In the cool breeze that made me feel a little cold, I wandered near the gate of the Banner, thinking of Lena becoming like me...... My hands and feet trembled, I didn't use the right force, my eyes couldn't see clearly, my hair was gradually graying, and the back of my hands was covered with wrinkled lines, like an old tree about to die.

"I can't forget it, and I don't want to forget it, Lena...... You treat me so hard, how can you know that I have never been angry with you in the first place, let alone hated you. ”

Thinking of Lena's provocative behavior like a child's temperament in previous years, I suddenly had the idea of wanting to see her, and I wanted to open my heart and ask her if she was really stupid.

From the first letter to the meeting, she became a mature and responsible shopkeeper, and her father died shortly after. In previous years, although I don't know the specific situation, I probably tried to guess it. I concluded that it would not have been so unacceptable if I had endured for a while, and waited until she became the owner of the shop, and then I could start my dream.

And at the beginning, she had no one to support her to compete for the banner left by her father, and she must have experienced hardship, and I understand that she has become so hard-core and domineering. After that, she probably wanted me to get out of my pain, and asked me to fight me in a duel tone, did she want her hard work and determination to imprint it in my mind, or did she want to let herself enter my sight again.

Whether ancient or modern, or aristocratic commoners, it is a happy thing to have a lover who loves him, however, after experiencing an experience like mine, it is probably not impossible for most of them to get back together under the attack of the other party. Because the other party still loves himself deeply, and he still loves each other deeply, so it does make sense, but I am different, and Lena is not the same. She didn't know that my proud and fragile heart had changed, she cared about me, under the fierce attack, she still retained the point of letting me calmly fight back and think, every time I fought was only a slight half a step forward, and then the general trend was withdrawn, every time I saw this, I couldn't help but laugh in my heart, and then made a ruthless and unaware wooden man on the surface, which made her really grit her teeth angrily, and the duel became really angry and serious.

It's been half a lifetime since I made a living on non-selling exhibits, but until now, I haven't been satisfied, or I haven't fully realized my dream.

I didn't reject her kindness, nor did I want to be with her again, but I ...... Anyway, it's a man's ridiculous self-esteem. What I said back then was also my own sincerity, if I didn't stick to the end, I was sorry for the proud me in her heart, even if she was lonely, it made her worry about being lonely, but I think she probably wouldn't blame me if she knew, otherwise she wouldn't have been "mocking" and "stimulating" me like that, what I did was the me in her heart, stubborn to hopeless.

I've always been a stubborn person, and yes, apart from the superfluous pride and arrogance of my youth, I've always been an unloved person, let alone my countenance.

But that's how I am, I was redeemed, maybe without Lena, I would have been in this world early, pain, insecurity, guilt are my luck, my luxury.

On second thought, if I hadn't been such a stubborn and unpopular person, I might not have met Lena. Thankfully, no, I'm glad I like people like me.

I don't know, and I can't imagine if something better will happen if I make a change early, because I'm such a stubborn person, and change is unimaginable for me alone.

So, why does Lena like me, stubborn, ugly, arrogant, vulnerable, it's not that she denies and loathes herself, but she feels a little guilty and guilty, this kind of self has burdened her all her life, if she says sorry or something like that, even I look down on myself.

So is there any way to change all this, after thinking about it, it seems that there is no second way to choose other than to choose the way to end yourself before meeting Lena.

Am I glad I didn't do it back then, even if I had suicidal thoughts, I would have been afraid that I didn't do it. But seriously, if there is a second life after death, it will be a good choice. As for me, who hasn't met Lena, I can probably believe that suicide is a favor.

In fact, I also like to live alone, every injury, setback, a lifetime of imprinting in the rest of my life, discovering my weakness, my own weakness, my own ridiculousness, and those lost, precious and rare. And then I realized countless times that I was stupid.

admonish, warn yourself, repeat the mistakes of the past, but unfortunately have little effect.

I'll get it straight.

I had a chance to become famous, but I was buried by myself.

Because I'm a stubborn, proud person, and it's already my limit to selling my brainchild, none of my designs are the same, plus months of hard work. I sold a few treasures to other dukes and nobles, and they appreciated me, and some of them wanted me to make a few more pieces of the same style for my lover and family, and then I refused. As a result, I was blacklisted by most of the nobles, and most of the fabric stores and clothing stores blacked me out. I was so stupid to cut off my path.

Although it was a pity that I was one step away from my dream afterwards, I did not regret it, and instead of letting my reticle change, I was still willing to die alone in that remote shop.

Until now, I still stay in my small shop, nothing has changed, but if I persist in a single round, I can probably be considered successful, and I can't imagine that the persistence of people who have persisted for half a lifetime is not considered successful, and how terrible it must be to persist.

At the same time, this is me after Gu Xi, I had a dream at the beginning and a little too much expectation for the future of the future, with the current situation is pitiful, I don't think I can refute anything. Thinking about this, I can't help but apologize to me back then, even though I don't feel burdened psychologically, and I don't feel ashamed.

The so-called dream has lasted for half my life, and the stubborn guy who has found his own path from a guy who can't be called a human being, this is the face that I have never changed.

Thinking about it this way, I am really awkward, from that day on, I have been doing things that make her awkward, she is doing things that make her awkward in her heart, and I am doing things that make me awkward so as to conform to the awkward me in her heart, so that we are really a good match. If I had gone back to the beginning, I think I would have made the same decision and said the same thing, because I am that kind of person, maybe this should be something to be proud of, or maybe that kind of me is the reason why she likes me.

After thinking about it so much, so many years have passed like this, this is already the end, so let me be awkwardly stubborn for the last time.

This kind of thought makes me a little sad and a little happy, sad that my dream is still a step short after all, happy that I finally ended my perseverance, of course, if possible, I want to be awkward for the next ten years.

I laughed so brazenly myself, and like that, I entered the banner of the flag.

......

"So, uncle, this is your final duel?!"

"That's right. ”

That guy from Regram actually questioned my design, and he was let go for the sake of being the wearer of my last piece.

"So...... That's why you let me wear women's clothes?!"

When he said this, I really had to compliment me on the viciousness of my eyes as always, and turned my head to look at Regram, who was looking around at the clothes he was wearing.

The whole is white, mixed with a little azure blue, black, gold, the three-color stripe spreads with the neckline down the chest, then to the lower abdomen, and then to the skirt folds, the upper body is similar to a military uniform, the right shoulder is a touch of red, tied with a red scarf around the left shoulder, and then the right shoulder behind the back hangs down, the sleeves braided at the cuffs are inlaid with golden-red buttons, which are consistent with the bayonet buttons on the blue-gold belt used for waist decoration.

"I've said it several times, it's men's clothing, isn't there a white trench coat? ”

"And what's going on with these suspenders?"

"Can't be considered a woman's suspenders just down to the calves, well, yes, you have to trust an old man. ”

"What about this dress!"

"There are pants in it, and it can't be considered a women's skirt. ”

"Are there any dresses for men?"

"Of course. I then said silently in my heart. "That's not what you have. ”

"But I always felt ...... Something is wrong. ”

"Okay, anyway, you agreed, and you don't want the reward?" When I saw that Regram regretted a little, I hurriedly remedied, I even took out my old capital as a reward for this duel.

“...... All right. "I was relieved to see that he no longer thought about whether it was a question of women's clothing.

The theme of this duel is, "Differences".

In the beginning, I simply started to choose size, color, and style. But then I thought that it was not only the clothes themselves that were important, but also the people who wore them, so I began to imagine that it would be nice for adults to wear children's clothes, teenagers to wear adult clothes, and women to wear men's clothes, but I couldn't find a woman willing to be my shelf, so I couldn't help but think of men wearing women's clothes, which was a very surprising idea for me.

But the results at the beginning were not ideal, the effect was too disgusting, and it was not appropriate for a big man to wear weak women's clothes, it was not a matter of difference, it was a fundamental reason, so I thought I could try it on with a neutral man or a thin man.

But for a short time there was no one at all, until I returned to the store, and inadvertently saw the legendary murderous executioner next door, with a slender body, waist-length black hair, and skin that was not as rough as other men, but as white as a woman's...... There is no man in the world who is more suitable for women's clothing than him.

But I was afraid of what he was, and even I, an unpopular person, could hear that he didn't do it because the bloodshed of the execution could no longer satisfy him, and so on, all kinds of vicious and terrible rumors.

But it wasn't until some time ago that I coincidentally saw him in various parts of the city leading the way to the old city for outsiders, and taking two young girls to eat with him, that I suspected that the reason for his resignation was that he had had enough of blood, which may have been a possibility that no one else had thought of.

In this way, when the dueling deadline was getting closer and closer, I secretly made the clothes according to his size, and the day after I finished I went to his shop, and the dead horse should be used as a live horse doctor, there was no way.

At the very least, I hope he doesn't like the smell of blood from people like me.

Luckily, I was right.