CHAPTER XXXI

Fifteen years old, the same age as flowers, He Xiaowan at that time still had long hair, combed a high ponytail, and was also the red and arrogant girl in the class, she thought that most people were superficial, whether subjective or objective. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

At that time, He Xiaowan had a boy she liked, of course, there were more of a large group of suitors, her life was actually as good as an ordinary rich daughter, and her father loved her so much.

However, the nightmare shattered this peace.

After school one day, He Xiaowan did not go home. Her parents searched all the places she might have been, but found no trace of her. It wasn't until later that the He family received a call from the kidnappers. claimed that their baby daughter was kidnapped, and exchanged 2 million for others, otherwise the ticket was torn up.

Mother He missed her daughter in her heart, but she had no choice, so she went to the agreed place to pay the money, and secretly called the police, and then her daughter came back, and the kidnappers also caught her. At that time, He Xiaowan was hiding in the corner of the police car shivering, her long hair covering her face and her expression. The kidnapper leader smiled mockingly at her as he got out of the car, and then looked indifferent. He Xiaowan was crazy for a while, grabbed the baton on the policeman at hand and knocked it over.

When the police responded, they were still a step slower. The head of the kidnapper was bloodied by her fierce blows, but she still didn't stop, her mind was full of the man's lewd and laughing face, and she really wanted to kill him! The police seized her, took away the bloody batons, and she tried desperately to break free, punching and kicking him.

Although, after the man fell to the ground, he never got up.

In view of her actions, she was taken to the hospital for a psychological examination, and later had to be sedated in order to calm her mood.

They didn't even think about how she felt. The feeling of being abused by a man.

After He Xiaowan woke up, she was stunned for many days, and her mother told her that the person was dead, and died the day after being admitted to prison because of blood congestion in the brain that blocked blood flow. It was her masterpiece. She sat on the hospital bed and laughed, then said softly, "Mom, shall we go home?"

When she got home, she put a lot of water in the bathtub, and then the whole person soaked in it, constantly rubbing her body, and being kissed all over the body. She rubbed hard, while holding the towel tightly, she didn't care about turning her nails over, she wanted to wash herself, she wanted to get rid of the smell of that person, but it was the same smell, the shower gel had lost its aroma, and she couldn't wipe it clean.

Finally, she slapped the water hard, hugged her knees, buried her face deep in it, and cried loudly. The skin on the body is hot in the hot water, and it hurts faintly.

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After He Xiaowan finished speaking, he quietly looked at Fang Yi, who was silent beside him, and rubbed his hair, which was already up to his chest. Her hand slid down, pinching the tips of her hair and watching. She had just read the letter, and decided to come downstairs and make it clear to him, and she would not feel that she owed him anything after making it clear.

He should have guessed that this would be his reaction.

"Xiao Wan. He looked at her for a long time.

He Xiaowan made a stop gesture in the air with both hands, and smiled disdainfully: "Don't sympathize, don't comfort." ”

Don't make me look so vulnerable.

I've shown you the wound, don't try to touch it, caress it, that will make me more uncomfortable.

Fang Yi took a deep look at her and held her in his arms, tightly, simply, hugging. I don't want to put pressure on you, I don't want to sympathize, I just feel distressed, that's all.

He Xiaowan laughed in his arms, and the sound of the down jacket rubbing hissed, "Fang Yi, you should find a clean girl, a person like me, not to mention that I am married, even if I am not married, I am not worthy of you." Fang Yi closed his eyes, and his eyelashes were foggy and blurry.

Fang Yi didn't say anything when he left, but simply expressed his thoughts - I will protect you. This is a promise, the first promise he Fang Yi made to a girl.

He Xiaowan pursed his lips, his tongue slid over his upper teeth, and he walked up the stairs step by step.

She covered herself with bruises that day, and then, Chen Li silently rubbed the medicine on her without asking too much. He Xiaowan lay in the bedroom for several days before coming out. After coming out, the first thing she did was to go out and cut her hair, when the long hair that had been kept for fifteen years was "clicked" and cut in the hands of the barber, her heart trembled every time, and later, she has always had short hair, and she is still the same lively as before, but there is more of a quiet atmosphere.

Since then, she has been more or less resistant to boys, and even her relatives' brothers and brothers can't touch her.

Later, she was kissed in the bathroom by a very good friend in the class, and the feeling of kissing with the girl was not very disgusting, but she was a little flustered.

"Xiao Wan, I like you. The girl said.

"Aren't we friends?"

"I don't want to be friends with you anymore. ”

He Xiaowan remembered that at that time, she didn't react to what it meant when she heard this sentence, she was really sad, and ran out. Later, the friend had been avoiding her, and she felt embarrassed, so she didn't stay in that school anymore, and after the transfer, she found that sometimes when she saw the girls in her class, she would unconsciously look at their lips, and imagine what kind of lips kissed more comfortably.

Probably, it's crazy.

She didn't want others to look at her strangely. So, she began to try to get in touch with boys again, and in her junior year of high school, she was decadent. Learn to smoke and drink heavily, and learn to wear heavy makeup. However, she will return to her old uniform at school and before going home, and spray perfume to remove the smell of tobacco and alcohol. Started lying, didn't go home, and played outside until the wee hours of the morning.

It wasn't until later that she found out that her period was wrong, and she went to buy a pregnancy test, and she sat on the toilet in despair when she saw two bars. Later, she used her pocket money to find a private clinic and secretly aborted the child.

She still remembered that she was on the verge of collapse when she saw the large and small blood clots coming out of her body, but she still cried hard.

After that, she took good care of her body, quit smoking and drinking, and rarely went out. After a summer vacation, she came to Minghu University despite her parents' opposition, and lived alone in an unfamiliar environment for a year.

It was at that time that I met Song Ze, and the theme post was "Should Girls Be Strong", and Song Ze was the most supported by many comments.

She said that a girl, if she is not strong, is a moth to a fire.

This metaphor is very attractive, a moth to a fire, doesn't it mean self-destruction? If you are not strong, it is not necessarily self-destruction, but if you think about it, if a girl is not strong, a series of butterfly effects caused by this attitude will be abandoned by life in the end, no matter what the result is.

Then, she found Song Ze and found that the two chatted very well, and learned that her volunteer was Minghu University, and even said that she would greet her in person.

It was love at first sight, probably because my heart was beating uncontrollably and my cheeks were hot when I saw it for the first time, but I still wanted to walk over and say hello.

"Hello, I'm He Xiaowan. ”

"Hello, Song Ze. ”

They looked at each other and smiled. He Xiaowan suddenly felt that the boring summer had suddenly become beautiful.