With the person you loved, if the other party is no longer in love, even if you are still in love, you must keep a suitable distance, which is a kind of respect for the love that has passed, and it is also the best ending for each other......

Xue Zimo naturally understands this, in the face of these passes, he not only has to respect, but also takes them out from time to time to pay tribute, whether it is to warn himself or punish himself, he has experienced the most painful way of parting in the world, from the moment he and Gu Xiyan separated, there was no way for him to enter her life again, but she was everywhere in her life!

Ren Xue walked out of the prenatal examination room and stood in the corridor, there was no Xue Zimo as far as her eyes could see, this was the first time Xue Zimo accompanied her to the hospital for prenatal examination, whether he was responsible or fatherly, in short, he accompanied her!

She had seen how Xue Zimo took care of Gu Xiyan, and she also knew that this man didn't know how to take care of people, but he hadn't reached that relationship with herself, so she looked at the husbands who came and went in the corridor and followed his wife carefully, Xue Zimo, what can you do like this? Although she was envious, although she could see the itchy roots of her teeth, the small flame that she longed for seemed to be getting smaller and smaller......

Sometimes she felt like an oil lamp that was about to burn out, and when the wind blew, even if it was just a moth passing by, the wick would gasp like a dying breath, and that feeling made her just want to run away!

Sure enough, I saw Xue Zimo in the parking lot, his back leaned against the car, and he just hung up the phone

Take out your lighter and light a cigarette......

The man who used to smoke and drink began to move, she knew that Xue Zimo didn't really like the taste of cigarettes, just to pass the boring time, and by the way, to relieve her depressed mood, maybe since she lived on the opposite side of the Triumph Garden, Xue Zimo didn't have a day without being depressed, right?

Ren Xue walked behind Xue Zimo and watched Xue Zimo finish smoking the whole cigarette before speaking: "The inspection is over." ”

Xue Zimo seemed a little caught off guard, threw the cigarette butt on the ground for the first time, stepped on it with his foot, and turned around, "Are you all right?"

In fact, his memory is still stuck in the items that Gu Xiyan did for prenatal check-ups at that time, it was less than 3 months, and at Ren Xue's stage, he didn't know if there would be anything added or what he needed to pay attention to......

"Well, let's go back. Ren Xue passed by Xue Zimo, and a smell of tobacco wafted in, which made her a little distracted, opened the car door, and sat in.

Xue Zimo really wanted to be like other men, asking questions about the child's mother, whether worried or excited or happy, he also wanted to touch the child and listen to his movements...... But he always felt that as soon as he opened his mouth or stretched out his hand, those guilt for Gu Xiyan would rush forward, and the best thing he could do was not to speak!

Ren Xue found a comfortable angle for her back and body, closed her eyes, her belly was getting bigger and bigger, she felt more and more hard, it was not the first time to have a child, according to this kind of tossing, ten ** is still a boy......

Xue Zimo looked at Ren Xue's tired face, pulled out her seat belt sideways, fastened it loosely, and was about to sit upright, when her right hand was pulled by Ren Xue.

"He's moving......" Ren Xue didn't open his eyes, and his voice didn't sound as clear as usual.

Xue Zimo's hand was on Ren Xue's stomach, and sure enough, the little guy was moving! Xue Zimo just showed a smile on his face, everything was quiet again, Ren Xue took his hand and moved, and he felt the exciting beating again......

"It's very naughty, he will tease you, sometimes he doesn't sleep at night, I really want to know what he is playing......" Ren Xue squinted her eyes lazily, and saw Xue Zimo's face with joy, how can you love someone like this? One second you want to tear him apart, but the next second you squat on the ground crying and picking up, not knowing how to put it together.

"It's going to be hard, right?" Xue Zimo finally gave his eyes to Ren Xue, the woman in front of him used to be gentle, elegant, shrewd and capable, but now with puffy eyes and face, she was willing to be hidden by him in a rental house to live, he knew that she must be very hard, this hard work is not only from the body, but also from the heart.

"We ...... Who doesn't work hard?" Ren Xue adjusted her body slightly, "Let's drive, you go to **** road and put me down, I want to walk back by myself." ”

"Then how can I do it? There are still two stops to get home!" Xue Zimo objected as he started the car.

"This morning's time is almost over, you better go back to the club, I'll walk slowly, there is no problem, and I won't know if I am concise. I'll talk to her again, and she'll slow down. Ren Xue dispelled Xue Zimo's last concerns, Jian Jian has never been polite to Xue Zimo, speaking with a gun and a stick, Xue Zimo in her eyes from the tips of her hair to her toes, there is no place that is satisfactory.

"No, it's not entirely because of concise ......" Xue Zimo was a little embarrassed when he heard Ren Xue's explanation, obviously it was his own problem, but he kept letting the women carry it around him.

"I understand everything, Xue Zimo, to me, you have no apologies at all, I have always been very clear about what I want, I can't make people sad, we don't want to retreat, in the end, we are not people who can compromise, if people can use their feelings, they can be free, say that the beginning begins, and the end of the end, no nostalgia, no entanglement, how good would it be......? Ren Xue said and tilted her head to the side of the car window, tears couldn't help but run down her cheeks, but she cried quietly.

In this world, there are people who play on the spot, some people who marry in dew, some people who have no fate, and some people who are not in love at the right time, but what does it matter? Where do so many lifetimes come from?

Xue Zimo shook the steering wheel hard, Ren Xue's sentence "Don't embarrass yourself" made Gu Xiyan jump out again, this sentence Gu Xiyan also said, he was spoiled by women's "generosity", and the result was that he not only embarrassed himself, but also embarrassed them!

"Wipe your tears. Xue Zimo took out a tissue and handed it over, this is the experience that Gu Xiyan left him, Gu Xiyan will also cry like this, silently, sometimes he can't notice it, and when he finds out, Gu Xiyan will already be as calm as ever.

Ren Xue was a little surprised, took the tissue, and quickly sorted out her emotions, "I didn't mean anything else, I just couldn't hold back...... When I came out of the prenatal checkroom just now, I didn't see you, and I thought you were gone again...... Xue Zimo, do we really have to live like this for the rest of our lives? The biggest mistake I have done in my life is to hurt Xixi, you are uncomfortable, I am also uncomfortable, but there are some things that cannot be undone, and nothing can be undone, what should I do? Or after the child is born, I leave, can it make you feel better?"

"I didn't mean that, don't think about it, I know very well that I'm stuck in a bend now, I can't get around, I always can't help but want to call, I want to know if Xixi is okay, when she stayed by my side before, this feeling was not so strong, I don't know what happened to me? Maybe...... I still need some time, and I know that I will eventually be able to get around, but sorry, Ren Xue, I don't know how long. Xue Zimo finally said the kind of entanglement and struggle in his heart, and breathed a sigh of relief, as if he had unloaded a burden.

When Ren Xue heard this, her heart was a little more comfortable, this is much better than Xue Zimo not saying anything, thinking about many things too much, and entangled for a long time, the strength of his heart will be offset by time, which will hinder the natural flow of joy, anger and sorrow in his heart, even if sometimes the things in his heart flow out, unrecognizable, become nothing but something, become something else, just like the cello makes a sound that is not a cello, things are so strange: the more you deliberately pursue, the more you can't reach it, just like Jia Baoyu begging Daiyu to see it in a dream, sincerely, then Daiyu just can't come from a dream！

Feelings are often a gesture, like time, and you can stretch it with your feelings, or you can shorten it......

"I believe that everything will be fine, and Xixi will be fine. She is used to seeing Xue Zimo's calmness, she is very happy that she still has the opportunity to share his panic and helplessness, maybe the thoughts will be the same as the muscles, and if you don't move for a long time, you will slowly disappear into the body, and in the end, you can't even turn it over yourself?

"Can she get better?" Xue Zimo was more like talking to himself, Ling Zhanchi's sentence "It looks good" kept tugging at him, and it was because he knew Gu Xiyan too well that he couldn't put it down.

"Yes, a lot of times women are stronger than men think. It has been said that a wound is where light enters your heart. "Ren Xue understands the current relationship too well, Gu Xiyan is good, Xue Zimo can be good, and he can find a balance, and the nearest way is that he must jump out first!

Xue Zimo is almost at the top now, that kind of struggle and entanglement, she understands, she understands, so she needs to jump out first before it is possible to pull Xue Zimo up.

From the perspective of others, anyone will feel shameless, a third party who is alive and well should be drowned by the spitting stars, but at this time, Ren Xue can't take care of so much, poke the basket by herself, clean up the mess by herself, no matter whether the final result is good or bad, for Xue Zimo, for Gu Xiyan, and for herself!

Although life is a common thing, the key is in the word "boil", when the fire comes, the taste will naturally be there, but she is unwilling to sit and wait, now the three of them are not having an easy time, and they have been indulging in the past or sad or sorry or self-blaming and unable to extricate themselves, it has long been useless, so why didn't she do something?

She would rather choose to regret it later than choose with regret, although this double-edged sword has hurt others and caused today's situation, but she still wants to use it to turn things around......

Even if the person who is happy in the end is not herself, then what's the matter? If they are not happy, what happiness can they have? Not to mention that there are still few holes in her body? She is working hard in the direction of "regret ends here after choosing", many times people can not choose, but she never wants to lose the ability and courage to choose!

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(Tianjin)