Kim Kwang-so certainly has his own reasons...... That day, he got very clear and unambiguous news from his subordinates, he knew that Jin Zhongming went to find Eunjing, and then took the other party out for a trip. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 And when she comes back in the evening, it's no secret that she has an extra signed autobiography.

Not to mention the things that followed, they vanished, and things were reversed and ended like stars.

In this case, Kim Kwang-so is of course willing to believe that everything is because of Eun Jing, everything is due to Eun Jing, and even he was able to buy CCM with the support of Kim Jong Ming and become self-reliant because of Eun Jing.

And to say more, he was already very fond of Enjing.

So from this point of view, this seems to be a kind of wishful thinking of information asymmetry, and it can't be blamed entirely on Kim Kwang-so.

But Kim Jong Ming also has his own reasons, he is not only angry because he was involved, although his emotions were indeed detonated by this, but more because he was disappointed in Kim Kwang-so again and again.

Jin Zhongming is not an angry youth, he is not an idealist, he is not a person who takes the world as his own responsibility, and even the only conscience depends on the object.

He knows that the so-called injustice in these years is widespread in the whole society, and there are many people who engage in specialization, and even many people around him.

MC's dream of evading military service was ruined, and Yin Zhiyuan abstained from military service under the banner of 'mental illness'? Lee Jae-hyun's son is even more neat, and he was found to have a hereditary disease as soon as he went for a physical examination as soon as he became an adult, and he can find an excuse for the entire Li family's underage children to evade military service! I haven't seen a single blind media who hates words, right?

To put it mildly, these days, even the prosecutors who represent the most fair image of South Korea have to look at their origins and connections when they are promoted!

What's more, CCM is a standard private enterprise, and Kim Kwang-so covers the sky single-handedly, and the entertainment circle in which everyone is located is essentially a down-and-out vanity fair with no justice at all, and he really has no reason to be angry about it.

However, then again, from the perspective of a superior person, at least in Jin Zhongming's view, this kind of thing must ensure that it does not harm the most basic right to life of other people!

It's not an iron law, of course, but you have to understand that if you do, it's likely to cause backlash and imbalance, and in that case, you will lose far more than you get unjustly. That will outweigh the losses, and it will be a loss-making transaction!

So, to put it in a utilitarian way, since everyone outside now thinks of you Kim Kwang-so as my person, then what you do will be directly pressed on my head. And more importantly, my reputation is worth more than your entire company. Now that you have done this, from a personal point of view, not only has it made it morally difficult for me to face the close relationship Park So-yeon, but also made me gain notoriety in the circle!

Won't Quan Baolan tell her parents? Won't her father complain to his peers when he drinks?

This is where Kim Kwang-so is really brain-dead! He thought he had slapped the horse's ass, but not only did he shoot it on the horse's hooves, but Nima also slapped it with a hammer!

Kim Jong-ming was disappointed in Kim Kwang-so.

On the bridge, after the initial shock, Kim Kwang-so has regained his composure, fortunately, this person at least knows how to communicate with people, and knows what to do at this time - he didn't say a word, just waited for Kim Jong-ming to regain his composure before explaining.

"President Kim Kwang-so. Jin Zhongming did regain his composure, however, all the words and reasons in his heart, just like the time when he was in the café in Tara, he really didn't bother to say more. "This is the end of the matter, Sister Zhaoyan and Baolan also have to take care of it, and Enjing shouldn't be so excessive, some things have to be affected after all, no matter what, you can't let one part of the resources take away all the resources and let the two members be empty, right?"

Kim Kwang-so looked puzzled, as if he was thinking about something.

"Moreover, the relationship between me and Eun Jing is not as complicated as you think!" Jin Zhongming continued weakly.

Kim Kwang-so's face was abrupt, and this time he seemed to have really woken up, first nodded again and again, and then said that he would let all the members of Tara be treated fairly...... But Jin Zhongming was really too lazy to care about the other party, he stretched out his hand and patted the railing of the bridge next to him, as if he approved the other party's plan.

That's what Kim Kwang-so thinks...... So, he said goodbye at the urging of Jin Zhongming and left, but he was so relaxed and relieved, and then he was ready to continue his CCM death.

In other words, it was definitely not an accident that Tara came to such a bad thing before!

In this way, seeing the other party leave, Jin Zhongming immediately picked up the two remaining fruit bento boxes on the ground, then patted the railing of the bridge, turned around and left in the opposite direction. After all, unlike Kim Kwang-so, who went straight to Naeguk-dong in Gangnam, he still needed to go back to Hongdae first to drive his dilapidated modern car.

And finally, at eleven o'clock in the evening, Jin Zhongming returned home.

Zheng Ermao, a senior high school candidate, has not slept yet, or is about to sleep, Zheng's mother is also taking care of her daughter here, and she is sitting on a stool next to the coffee table and reading a magazine. After seeing Jin Zhongming come back, the former immediately ran over with a little excitement and took two bentos, but after smelling it, Krystal had no intention of opening it.

"Two bentos, one for Chu Long and one for you, it's too late, I'll bring them back. It is said that there is a mango pizza in it. Jin Zhongming, who was changing shoes, comforted. "That's why I thought I'd buy you ......"

Krystal half-incredulously opened one of the boxes, then unceremoniously closed it, opened the second one, and closed it again.

"What's wrong?" asked Jin Zhongming inexplicably.

"There's a fruit pizza in there, yes, but it's all raspberry-flavored, and it's all half-......," Krystal replied frowning. "Wood, have you been deceived?"

"Nope. Jin Zhongming thought about it carefully, and then shook his head without hesitation. "But I know what's going on, it's Sailun...... Kim Sae Ron"

"What's wrong with the bear kid?" Krystal didn't know.

"I took her out to dinner, and she should have known that I bought this and came back for the mango pizza inside, so I picked this one and ate it all on the way......" Kim Jong-ming said as he threw off his coat and sat on the sofa, then tilted his head and collapsed on it. "She's deliberately teasing you!"

Krystal was so angry that she couldn't wait to find the bear child in the middle of the night and tear the other person's face, but when she turned her head and saw that her brother looked unenergetic, she actually pressed the anger again.

"What's wrong Wood?" asked Krystal as he put down the lunch box and climbed onto the couch. "Didn't you go out to eat, why are you unhappy?"

"I haven't had a few days lately. Jin Zhongming replied weakly. "Everybody is looking for something for me......"

"I didn't get you in trouble. Krystal replied unceremoniously. "You said in front of all Koreans in "Golden Fishery" that if I couldn't get into any university, I would be asked to quit the group, I didn't say anything......"

"That's just as well. Jin Zhongming nodded, and then patted the other party's head. "In any case, our Ermao classmates are still very well-behaved......"

Krystal nodded.

"So. Jin Zhongming took advantage of the situation and pointed to the two boxes of bento on the table. "Since you are so well-behaved, forget about the matter of not having mangoes, and if you want to settle accounts with Sailun, you will talk about it later. Bento help me put it in the refrigerator first, and I'll bring it to Chu Long tomorrow. As for yourself, go to bed early......"

Krystal pouted speechlessly, and turned her head to look at Zheng's mother who was sitting on the side and reading a magazine without saying a word, but after getting no response, she finally did what she said honestly.

"Mom has something to tell me?" Seeing Krystal enter his room, even the lights went out, Jin Zhongming looked at the person waiting for him.

"Wood, I don't even know if I should tell you about you. Ms. Lee put down the fashion magazine as usual, and then paused, as if hesitating.

However, Jin Zhongming knew very well in his heart that since the words had been spoken, the other party was not hesitating to say it, but should be raising words. For many years, the other party understands themselves and understands each other. So, he sat quietly in place, waiting for the other party to speak.

Maomao didn't know where to go crazy. Mother Zheng frowned slightly. "You've been taking care of her lately......"

"Maybe in the dormitory?" Jin Zhongming raised his eyebrows slightly. "Or maybe it's at Uri on the other side? ”

"No. Mother Zheng shook her head seriously. "Don't kid yourself, she should just go out to play. Wood, you've been ...... lately Why don't you seem to be willing to discipline her?"

"It's not that you don't want to be disciplined. Jin Zhongming replied a little helplessly. "The reasons are varied, her age is there, and it's been so long since her debut, it's always too restrictive and boring. Besides, didn't you say that she was just playing crazy, and she didn't do anything excessive. Of course, the most important point is ......"

"What is it?"

"It's me now...... I'm a little uncertain about myself. Facing Zheng's mother, who brought him up, Jin Zhongming finally confessed his heart. "From an outsider's point of view, I made great strides in the first half of this year, especially in my career, I have a sense of omnipotence, and people in the circle even call me the emperor of Korean movies in private. But actually?"

"Actually, what?" asked Zheng's mother with a worried face, Sika was worried, and Jin Zhongming was equally concerned.

"Actually, these are the plans I have been preparing for many years, with plenty of money and a clear purpose, and even a strong opponent like Lee Jae-hyun has already been driven into the quagmire by himself. His own sister can take the initiative to turn upside down, which shows how bad his situation is...... So, these things are not something to boast about. Even on the contrary, I moved blindly on this issue too early because of some other people and things, which made some actions not keep up with the general situation, and there was a certain sense of incompatibility. And most importantly, my own mentality has not kept up with ......"

"Specifically?" Hearing that it was not a substantive question, Zheng's mother was inevitably relieved.

"It's good to explain that the situation hasn't kept up. Jin Zhongming replied helplessly. "The money came in too quickly, which caused the property to shrink too much, Facebook's side did not stabilize and failed to meet the psychological expectations, and the actions that should have echoed the progress of the lady were carried out too early, making many things more effective...... In fact, to tell you the truth, there are already people who have reservations about me because of this. My doll mother's senior sister said that she had to be comprehensive after all, and she had just cooperated, so it was normal to think that I was normal. But what about Samsung? I stabbed Lee Jae-hyun in the waist for them, but I haven't said anything until now! And that Choi Tae-won, I don't know what he thinks, and he can shirk good things......

Zheng's mother didn't interject, she knew that she couldn't intervene in these questions, and she also knew that Jin Zhongming wanted to find someone to talk to.

As for the mentality that can't keep up, this problem can only be said to be unable to keep up, and there is no way to explain it concretely. Kim took a breath and continued to preach. "If I have to say it, it is that the status in front of me is too high after all, far more exaggerated than what won the actor or became the boss before, and for a while I couldn't deal with this change calmly. I forcibly went to Busan to shoot a TV series for two months, although I wanted to use this to calm down, but in fact, I still wanted to take the opportunity to calm down. But in the end, I was still spoiled by some unexpected things, and one after another...... Because I have found that this level of elevation of status has triggered changes not only in me personally, but also in the people and things around me as a result! People close to you expect more from you, people who are opposed to you are more wary of you, people who are close to you want to climb and grow, and people from afar are more strict with you...... The list goes on!"

Zheng's mother lowered her head, and seemed to be quite touched. After all, they can all be aware of this problem, let alone Jin Zhongming himself?

"Mom, lately, I've been really upset by some people and things. In this case, I don't know what I can do, what I should do, and how hard I ......" At this point, Kim Jongming paused, and then finally returned to the specific question. "Now my doll mom you let me take care of Maomao's affairs, it's not that I don't want to take care of it, but I'm worried that if I exert too much force or go in the wrong direction, something will happen! ”

Mother Zheng sighed lightly: "Then wait a little longer, you just know in your heart." ”

"I'll make people look at her. Jin Zhongming comforted. "Don't worry, it won't be a problem for her......"

"That's good. Zheng's mother got up and was about to rest, but she couldn't help but say a few more words before leaving. "Actually...... Wood, you've done quite well, and you feel that your mentality can't keep up, not necessarily because you can't really keep up, but more because you're too demanding of yourself...... In this world, there are no perfect people and things, and it is enough to continue to move forward. ”

Jin Zhongming nodded, but did not say anything, and Zheng's mother had no choice but to say more...... As Jin Zhongming said, the change in status is not only the change in himself, but the change in the attitude of the people around him is the most helpless, and now even Zheng's mother, who raised him, is more graceful to him, let alone other people?

In this way, seeing Zheng's mother leaving, Jin Zhongming still collapsed on the sofa without moving. After a long time, he raised his hand to look at his watch, only to find that it was already 12 o'clock in the evening. And after a little hesitation, he tried to dial someone's phone anyway.

"Representative?" Zhang Chengwen on the other end of the phone was a little surprised.

"Ask you something. Jin Zhongming said slightly tiredly. "Do you know what Sika has been up to lately?"

"She's playing. Zhang Chengwen replied frankly. "Everybody knows that. When she was young, she was very popular, but solo was not seen for a long time, so she played crazy...... But frankly, she's not the only one who's crazy now, and I feel like the whole girlhood has been slackened. In fact, it's not just them, our security company is responsible for the security of most of the domestic activities of K-pop artists, and we have long been aware of some trends, and I feel that when Kara is busy with this return and Tara survives this gap period, these people should become the same...... There's no more momentum, and there's money ......"

"Specifically?" Kim interrupted weakly, he couldn't care about Kara and the others right now. "I'm just talking about Sika. ”

"Specifically...... Just like Miss Pani's obsession with nightclubs, Miss Sika has recently enjoyed going out to more upscale occasions and socializing with so-called celebrities, but sometimes she accepts invitations from friends or teammates to go to other occasions......"

"Is that all?" Jin Zhongming frowned slightly. "Any specific information?"

"It's hard to say. Zhang Chengwen replied helplessly. "It's not good for the driver and assistant to follow her all day, at least we don't know what exactly she says and talks about...... Delegates, although it is a bit unprofessional to say this, I suggest that you ask Miss Sika directly. ”

"I just didn't want to ask her directly. Jin Zhongming replied helplessly. "Help me take care of her more, don't let her go wrong, she's been playing too crazy lately, and the family is not very relieved......"

"No problem. Zhang Chengwen on the other end of the phone suddenly spoke. "However, since you said that you were worried that she was playing too crazy, there is something that is not very serious, and I think I can tell you about it......"

"You speak. ”

"Recently, probably because of you, many people's attitude towards her has become more and more direct and crisp, and the flattery has become more and more excessive. As you know, in that kind of occasion, except for a few real people, most of them are actually nouveau riche and money-seeking bankrupts...... Therefore, Miss Sika will inevitably be targeted, and she will inevitably be a little fluttering......"

"Doesn't she know?" Jin Zhongming felt a little anxious and angry. "Those people actually just treat her as an upstart!"

"But after all, nothing substantive happened...... Zhang Chengwen didn't know what to say. "Maybe she hasn't realized where you really are now, and she hasn't adjusted to your new identity. ”

"Forget it. Jin Zhongming could only close his eyes weakly. "Thank you for me for her assistant and driver, a job, responsible for three directions at the same time, is also hard, and will not treat them badly in the future......"

"Got it, I'll make them a little more dutiful. ”

The phone then hangs up.

The light in the living room is still eye-catching, but Jin Zhongming never opened his eyes, he lay there with his head up, and began to recall the events of these days in his heart like a marquee:

The giant ship that sets sail from Busan Saha Port, GD's sarcasm of his attitude towards music, Yang Hyun-suk's complacent ambition and later helplessness, Han Sung-so's money dilemma and asking for help again and again, the TV series that drives low and goes high and the popularity of Eundi, Kang Ho-dong for the return of his son and family, the divorce that Yin Ji-won couldn't escape in the end, the huge difference in the level of Lee Seung-gi's father and son, Jun Ji-hyun, who climbed into a wealthy family but had to make a comeback to support his family, Hong Seung-sung's strange interaction with Choi Jin-ho under a suspected terminal illness, The self-speculation of the company's people in the blind state, and the ridiculous conjecture and flattery of Kim Kwang-so...... Of course, there is also the irritability that I have forced in the bottom of my heart and the self-confidence that I am gradually losing.

All kinds of incidents, but when you think about it, it seems that something is hidden underneath them, allowing these people to follow the established route. And in this one, he seems to be proud of the spring breeze, but in fact, because that kind of thing can't be used at all, he has to be careful to tie his hands and feet!

But what is it?

In a daze, I don't know how long it took, Kim Jongming suddenly found that he seemed to be back on the Mapo Bridge, and was walking back towards Hongdae to pick up the car, and the next thing seemed to be logical, nothing more than walking all the way to the bridge and following the ridicule all the way, but every word on the billboard seemed to be able to cut into the depths of his heart, making people more and more impetuous.

This should be a dream, as if he was asleep and woke up, Jin Zhongming had the most intuitive and rational subconscious judgment, so he began to correct this dream by forcing himself to give up halfway to pick up the car, and instead prepared to go directly back to the south bank. But when he turned around, something even more terrible happened, and he found that he was lost—the bridge was so long, but he couldn't seem to get off the bridge!

It's all too common to get lost in dreams, everyone always has a similar dream when they encounter a dilemma in their lives, home is not far away, school and office are ahead, but you just can't get there...... However, the most terrifying thing here is that every few steps on the bridge, a harmless billboard will jump out and ask you:

"You're in a bad mood today, aren't you?"

"Would you like to call your family for help?"

"I know you're in trouble, but can you be stronger?"

……

Kim Jong-ming always felt that the bridge was tempting him to jump into the Han River—the only thing he could keep awake about, so he resolutely refused to look at it, because he knew that in his dream, he might be able to easily jump off and wake up by jumping off a hundred times.

But it was an escape and a fall, and he didn't allow himself to do that! he had to see what the bridge was, and he had to find the best way to cross it, or the best way to cross it!

"Wood?"

Early the next morning, Sika, who carefully opened the door and went home, was shocked to find that Jin Zhongming was sitting in the living room, and he had all the trousers, shirts and ties...... This look, how to look like sitting here all night waiting for yourself. And the untimely lights above my head were still on, which further confirmed my conjecture...... The other party really seems to have stayed up all night.

There was no time to change her shoes, Sika walked over cautiously, and when she got closer, she found that the other party's spirit was unexpectedly very good, because at this time, Jin Zhongming was chewing something with his head up, and there was an open box of yellow peach mille-feuille bento and a cup of hot coffee on the coffee table in front of him...... This doesn't seem to have anything to do with waiting for me.

"Huh?" Jin Zhongming sat up straight as if he had just heard the voice, his eyes were bloodshot, and he really looked like he hadn't slept all night.

"Are you thinking about something?" asked Sika, a little cautious. "Missed the night?"

"Hmm. Jin Zhongming nodded, then lowered his head and took a sip from his coffee cup. "Thinking about things. ”

"So what are you thinking?" Sika immediately breathed a sigh of relief, and then sat down next to the other party.

"I was thinking about a book I read the other day, "Panic" by Portuguese writer Fernando Pessoa. Jin Zhongming replied calmly. "There's a sentence in it that fits my feelings lately......"

Sika didn't actually have the heart to praise her, but she couldn't help but help the other party with a little weakness, hoping that the other party would not pay attention to herself: "What are the specific words?"

"I am only a bridge between what I do not have and what I want. Jin Zhongming read it out calmly. That's a good, philosophical analogy...... Everyone has to do what I want in my own way, cross the bridge, break away from myself, and go straight to the other side. However, the bridge itself is a part of yourself, and if you are not careful, you will be bound by yourself......"

Miss Zhengsika's brain is like paste...... Anyway, she played with Xiaoyuan last night until the middle of the night, drank a lot, and when she came back, she didn't dare to come in directly because she was worried about meeting her doll mother, so she ran to Yu Li and slept until now. And now she wants to sneak in quietly, because she is going to avoid everyone, and then go to sleep again in the morning. I didn't think about it, but I met a Jin Zhongming who hadn't slept all night in the living room and told himself what bridge, the other side, life, and philosophy...... Is there anything worse than that?

"So, if you want to get rid of the shackles of the ego and gain a firm foothold on the other side, there is only one way. Jin Zhongming didn't care about Sika's reaction, but continued to talk on his own. "Blow up this bridge!"

Sika, who had already stood up and was about to go to the entrance to change his shoes first, was completely sleepy: "What are you going to do, Wood?"

"I'm going to blow up this bridge. Kim Jong Ming looked up at Sika, his bloodshot eyes revealing a hint of calm, and those who knew him well knew that this was the sign of his true determination.

"Which bridge to blow up?" Sika was still a little confused.

"Mapo Bridge!" Kim replied calmly, even reaching out and tapping his left chest. "This bridge has become my inner demon, I can't do anything without blowing it up!

Sika, who was confused, opened her mouth, and finally said: "Wood, it's illegal to blow up the bridge!"

Jin Zhongming lowered his head and took a piece of yellow peach mille-feuille cake, took two sips of coffee, and then, as before, chewed the cake while staring up at the ceiling......

Anyway, he ignored her.

ps: Tell me something...... The book has been noticeably shaky lately, both in terms of updates and standards...... It's obvious.

Let's talk about a few objective reasons first, that is, the object of the blame.

One everyone also knows,That kind of thing suddenly happened some time ago.,Han Yuwen was hit by a huge blow.,What stopped all the recommendations and the like.,At that time, there was indeed the idea of quickly finishing the book (unfinished?),All that time forcibly accelerated the completion of some lines.,Although it's stable now.,But the rhythm is unbalanced but it's also a reality.。

There is another thing, which is the fact that the chapter was pulled out a few days ago...... I can't help it, in May, the Internet is so sensitive, and I write too much political drama. But then again, a lot of the drama in my book revolves around political lines, and if I don't let me write it, I am destined to feel at a loss for a while...... Yesterday Kavin was here, and there was originally a detailed outline, but it couldn't be written, and it couldn't be used...... I just don't know how to make the transition.

The last one is things at home and at work, as I get older, there are so many things to think about, and the steady time of sitting in front of the computer every night is actually shrinking...... It's a pit.

Of course, I also have a lot of responsibility, and that is that I personally slacked off...... After writing 4 million words, even if there are no major environmental problems, the finished book is destined to be put on the agenda, in this case, the idea of being a monk for a day and hitting the clock for a day is becoming more and more obvious...... The so-called inertia!

Saying these words, I still want to struggle for a while, just like Jin Zhongming wants to give himself an explanation by blowing up the bridge, and I also want to get out of this embarrassing situation and treat the end of the book with a better mental outlook.

Don't say anything perfect, at least it's an ending that you did your best.

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