Chapter 150: If I Were Still Me
She remembered what she had done that day, and could no longer say any more, and concluded: "He must have died of happiness!
"I made him lose face in front of his people, and he made my parents lose their lives! He killed my parents to avenge himself, and married like a beautiful flower! He must have felt very happy!"
Speaking of this, he gritted his teeth again: "I won't let him go!
Lin Yuan listened to what she said, and his heart flickered hot and cold. Pen | fun | pavilion www. biquge。 info
When I heard her tone when she talked about Jiang Kuo's marriage, the apology and guilt in my heart turned into happiness.
He did the right thing!
He should!
She is not ruthless to Jiang Kuo, and her temperament is too indisputable, if she doesn't let the hatred in her heart accumulate to a certain extent, she may or may not be shaken.
So he did the right thing.
It's just that one day, when the truth is revealed, will she gain her forgiveness?
He hugged her tighter quietly, and said softly: "Hanyu, when you get revenge, I'll take you away." ”
Take her away?
Han Yu was stunned for a moment, she didn't expect what revenge would look like.
What would she be like then?
She hadn't thought that far ahead.
"Huh?" Lin Yuan asked her again.
She thought for a moment, then replied, "If I were still mine." ”
Lin Yuan was stunned.
What a brilliant answer.
If, I'm still me.
The mentality has changed, the personality has changed, and I know more things...... Anything that makes a person not what they are.
Who can guarantee that they will always be the same?
Therefore, the uneasiness in his heart did not decrease but increased.
However, Lin Yuan, there is no turning back from the bow, what can you do?
The only way to hold the person in your arms is tighter and cherish the warmth you have now.
……
The journey for many days was physically and mentally exhausting, and Han Yu slept soundly this night.
When he woke up, there was no one in Linyuan. Only the breakfast placed on the table, all of which were the varieties she was used to, was placed next to a note:
"Eat breakfast obediently, I'll go out and get some cash. ”
Her heart warmed. There was a sour feeling in his nose, for so many days, what he ate was Linyuan's silver, and he never complained.
But she naturally never remembered, food, clothing, housing and transportation, and almost never worried.
Who gave her this presumptuous right?
Just because I'm used to treating her well.
yes, he's always been nice to her.
Considerate and subtle care, confidant-like understanding, brother-like support......
Such good. More than anyone else around me...... Even blog posts.
But how could she repay him for this kindness?
Even if you know that he is good because of his sister - but that shouldn't be a reason to ask for it unreasonably, can it?
After all, my sister has never had any clear relationship with him, and she even ...... Failed him. ( Pingnan)
What will she repay him?
She suddenly remembered what he had said yesterday. "Hanyu, when this is over, I'll take you away. ”
Maybe it's just a stand-in......
But the object is such a kind man, she and her sister are ashamed, maybe it's not unacceptable, right?
Anyway, she is not anyone's who, she doesn't love anyone, and no one loves her.
She doesn't have to defend anyone. So...... If you go with Lin Yuan, you can at least repay your sister's love debt, which is good, isn't it?
It's just that......
Lin Yuan, who knows what will become of me at that time?
Who knows what hatred, a strange and terrible thing, will turn me into?
Who knows?
Then. Can I still live as breezy and smile as before?
Maybe...... At that time, was I still alive?
She knew too well how terrible Jiang Kuo was, except for the parts he revealed in front of her eyes, the forces she had heard from him or others. What a terrible existence.
If she wants revenge, can she get away with it?
Yes, she still has Lin Yuan to support her, Lin Yuan must be a capable person, but ......
Dear fathers and mothers, and my infatuated young lady, it is my duty to avenge your hatred!
I'm going to kill him with my own hands!
It's a long battle.
She foresaw its cruelty and hardship, but she couldn't back down, she couldn't even fail...... Yes, she can only succeed!
"Squeak-"
The closed door was suddenly pushed open, and Lin Yuan appeared at the door with a smile on his face, and the heavy snow fell on his shoulder.
As he took off his coat, he asked her, "Are you up, are you sleeping well?"
She smiled back, walked over to take the coat for him, and asked instead of answering, "In such a good mood?"
Lin Yuan hooked his lips and smiled: "You really know me better and better, and there are really things to be happy about." ”
"What's the matter?"
"Guess. ”
He looked at her, and there was a hint of cunning in his eyes that had always been warm and clear.
Han Yu was stunned and guessed, "The city gate is open?"
Lin Yuan smiled but didn't answer, and walked to the table in her expectant gaze before slowly speaking, "Otherwise, how can you say that you are smart?"
They were so lucky!
According to Xiao Er, this city gate has been closed for more than ten days since the infection, and it seems that it will take several months to open again.
And now, when they came, the gates of the city were opened!
Who says it's not a lot of luck?!
Although the gates were closed for many days and opened, they were still deserted.
The people inside are still not allowed to come out, and the people outside have heard about this Rausch disease, who dares to go further?
Even if there is a big business, either give up or take a long detour, and no one dares to take Zhenjiang again.
All the way unimpeded.
After entering Zhenjiang, she knew what it meant to be miserable.
The city was unrecognizable, the houses were in ruins, and everywhere there were ashes from the fire, and occasionally there was still a residual temperature, and there was green smoke and the smell of burnt meat.
There were people who were dead in twos and threes, and their conditions had not yet reached the standard of being burned by the government, and they were unkempt and fell on both sides of the road moaning mournfully.
As he walked past those people from a distance, Hanyu smelled a foul odor. It's like a dead pig that has died of illness and discarded, and after many days of mosquito bites, it has grown maggots and worms, and then emits that foul smell.
When I think of this. She couldn't help but choke up with her mouth covered.
My throat was choked, and I didn't know if I wanted to vomit or cry.
She knew it was disgusting, she knew it was cruel, but she still couldn't help but walk towards a body struggling on the ground.
Then her eyes widened, as if she had seen a ghost, and she stayed where she was for a moment.
The man was unkempt and could not see her face clearly, but from her feeble moans, she could tell that she was a middle-aged woman.
Her face was covered in black and yellow dirt. There are traces of ulceration on both sides of the mouth, stained with some milky white unknown dirt, which makes people sick to their stomachs.
To make matters worse, however, her body - the neck that leaked from under her dirty clothes - was completely festering.
The rotten flesh that had been turned out was scarlet and yellow pus. Bleeding and bleeding, the wounds were large, not like they were wounded by sharp objects, but like something that had eaten away little by little.
She covered her mouth and moved a little closer...... Outcome......
Maggots! maggots!
She saw the white, fat strips of worms around the woman's neck, dragging her ass in and out of her flesh......
There are also dense small holes in those places where maggots are not visible, and there is a faint wriggling under the ulceration of the surface, one time, one time. Arch inward, unyielding......
And then the feet, the hands, everywhere you can see, there are similar ulcers!
It seemed that the maggot had bitten badly, and the woman scratched it with her hand. His hands were immediately stained with red and yellow blood pus and white maggots.
She didn't care about another touch, touching the two that tried to climb up the corners of her mouth!
Crushed in the hand, it was immediately a pinch of white meat! And then - fed to the mouth!
"Ahh......hh
Hanyu suddenly took two steps back and screamed loudly.
Her voice was so miserable, so terrified. And with endless despair and desolation.
Tears flowed from her eyes, so turbulent, completely uncontrollable.
Lin Yuan, who rushed to hear the sound, grabbed her, blindfolded her, and pulled her into his arms, "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid!"
But the screams couldn't be stopped, and she kept a stiff posture in his arms, screaming ahhh......h
At first it screamed, then it grew quieter, and it became an indictment of unheard fear.
Lin Yuan's heart contracted, and he began to hate himself, hate himself for bringing her, hate his plan, hate himself...... Hate what you do!
How cruel.
Only then did she realize more clearly how cruel all this was to her!
But...... If he hadn't done all this, how could he have met her?
If he doesn't continue all this, how can he have a reason to accompany and take her away?!
I'm sorry, Hanyu.
He secretly said in his heart, I will use my future, with the rest of my life, to make up for you, I will be good to you for many years.
I have spent my whole life resisting the fright like this, and the things I have done that are not as good as the beasts.
Okay?
If the original plan was for revenge, he no longer knows what is the most important thing now.
Will you succeed in avenging Xiang'er, or will you succeed in implementing the plan and take Hanyu away?
He didn't dare to think about it, he told himself that no matter what he wanted, he needed to complete the plan first and ruin the man!
That's right!
Ruined him!
So all the plans must be carried out!
With Hanyu's situation, there is obviously no way to continue on the road.
The city was in chaos, and there was nowhere to go.
Hanyu couldn't do anything, she could only shrink into Lin Yuan's arms, everything was dirty, everything was smelly, all places were flowing red and white blood pus, wriggling fat and white creatures, floating the painful moans of dying people......
She couldn't see, she couldn't think, otherwise she would involuntarily think of her parents who had also been so painfully prostrate on the ground, lingering and being bitten by maggots...... In the end, the body was destroyed by a fire.
When she thinks of this, she will collapse, she will go crazy, and she will have the urge to destroy the world!
Jiang Kuo, you damn it!
Even if I break you into thousands of pieces, I can't solve the hatred in my heart!
In the chaos, someone seemed to greet them, and then they got into a carriage, and finally lived in a courtyard.
ps:
This chapter is a bit disgusting...... Eating dear, hehehe...