Since leaving the Correspondence Department, Mo Yan has been restless, often stunned by a certain object, and even when discussing state affairs with courtiers, he will frequently wander.

Seeing off the ministers who came to see him, Moon Shadow saw that Mo Yan was wandering again, so he shouted: "Niangniang!"

"Huh?" Mo Yan looked up at her in a daze, "Is there something wrong?"

"What else is Niangniang asking me? I want to ask you, what happened to you in the past two days, did you encounter any difficulties?" Moon Shadow approached her, cleaning up the mess on the table for her.

"I'm fine! Now there are no major events in the court, everything is developing in a good direction, I can encounter any difficulties, I am very good, don't worry about it. Mo Yan's eyes flickered with denial, and he said in disguise: "Maybe I was tired some time ago, just rest for a few days." ”

Moon Shadow thought that she was busy with the imperial examination these days, so she believed her words, "Since you are tired, take advantage of these few days to be free, and you can have a good rest." Thinking of something again, he continued: "Yes, I'll go to the Imperial Diet Division to stew some bird's nest later, and make up for you, it's only been two days, why do you look like you're a lot haggard!"

"Really?" Mo Yan raised his right hand and touched the half of his face, "Why don't I feel it! It looks like I really have to make it up, so you can get it later!"

"No!" Moon Shadow replied.

Mo Yan looked at Moon Shadow's busy figure, hesitated for a moment and asked her: "Moon Shadow, you said that if there is a person who is very bad to you and almost kills you, and you hate him very much, so you gave him some punishment, but one day, you found out that there is one thing, this incident may prove that he is not very bad, and he may even have saved you, if it were you, would you find out about this matter?" Mo Yan looked at her after asking, and his heart was pounding.

"Of course, I have to find out, if it's true, isn't he my savior? Moon Shadow said without thinking, "What kind of question is this, Niangniang, how can you ask such a strange question?" ”

"It's nothing, just ask. Mo Yan smiled dryly and sloppily eyes, and then continued to ask: "I also said just now, because you hate him very much, so you gave him a small punishment, if this punishment accidentally kills him, will you still investigate this matter?" After asking, her heart beat even harder, and her palms were slightly sweaty, but she still smiled lightly on her face, as if it was really just a hypothesis, and asked casually.

This time, Moon Shadow thought silently for a moment before replying, "I'll still find out the truth." ”

"Why? If it's true, and he really saved your life, aren't you killing your own savior?" Mo Yan asked.

"Even if it's true and I killed him by mistake, I'll find out. It's not the best, I don't have to kill him, if he really saved my life, I killed him by mistake, I will be annoyed, I will blame myself, I will regret it, I will not go in my conscience for the rest of my life, but I at least live a clear life, so I will investigate. Moon Shadow rolled her eyes after speaking, "You don't want to test me, do you? ”

"You've found out. Mo Yan admitted with a smile, "Don't you think that it will be difficult to make a choice if you encounter such a situation in life?" ”

"What's so hard about that? Compared to self-deception, I will definitely choose to live a clear life. Moon Shadow said unconcernedly.

"That's right, you're an understanding person. Mo Yan sighed.

"That's, I'll just treat you as a compliment on me!" Moon Shadow said a little smugly, and deliberately squeezed her eyes playfully.

"I really can't stand the praise, and I'm complacent after just saying two words!" Mo Yan quipped, "Okay, let's not talk about this, didn't you say you were going to stew bird's nest?

Moon Shadow smiled and said, "No, I'm going to the Imperial Diet, don't be too tired, Niangniang, you've been tired for the past two days." After speaking, he squatted down and saluted and went out.

Mo Yan saw her leave, the smile on her face faded again, how could she not know that she was a little abnormal? There were some things she just didn't dare to think about, but she couldn't help but not think about it, such a capricious appearance was also tossing herself, but she still hesitated.

The letter was almost crushed by her over and over again, and now it was all a problem for her, thinking that she took out the somewhat crumpled letter and put it on the table.

This letter was not sent by Bai Lan, and there was no record in the letter office, the letter was sent by Li Fu, Li Fu was Duan Li's confidant, and there would be Duan Li's instructions behind everything he did.

She didn't understand why the antidote to the Burning Blood Gu was found by Duan Li, why didn't he give it to her directly to improve their already stiff relationship at that time, but instead sent the antidote in the name of Bai Lan, and soon after that, he did something that made her hate, and the relationship was completely broken, and there was no room for reversal.

She didn't know, she had a vague suspicion in her heart, but she didn't dare to think about what she would do if this suspicion was true, and she thought of what Zhao Xiujin said in the dungeon, before she thought that he had ulterior motives to sow discord, and now she couldn't help but doubt that there was a bit of truth in his words, if all of them were true, then the one qiē she had done before for revenge was like a farce.

So she couldn't help but think that it was already like this, and what was the point of pursuing it now, but she couldn't control her thoughts, and as long as she relaxed a little, the question popped up in her mind again.

She was afraid of the answer to this question in her heart, yes, she was afraid, she was afraid, so she resisted to find the answer, so after coming out of the letter office, she had no further action, obviously it would be clear if she called Li Fu to ask, but she kept dragging it out.

"Self-deception?" Thinking of what Moon Shadow had just said, she couldn't help but ask herself softly, how to smile sarcastically, isn't it self-deception, because of cowardice, because she is afraid to face the truth, so she has to keep deceiving herself like this, turning a blind eye to the doubts in front of her?

But how long can she deceive herself like this? One day she will deceive herself and will not be able to deceive herself, and she must face the facts.

As Moon Shadow said, no matter what the truth is, people must always live to understand, even if the truth is cruel to her and will make her miserable, she must know it.

Having made a decision in her heart, she took back the letter on the table and walked out of the palace of diligence.