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I watched in amazement at his flurry of reactions, listening to his jumbled words, and suddenly a thought came to my mind: He couldn't be the one who he thought I was, right?

Chapter Seventy-Nine: Promise: Sorrow with Foresight

That's right...... Didn't Lin Yuan dislike him? According to my previous guess, he and Lin Yuan were in love with the same woman—the woman the butler said, right?

His crazy look was reminiscent of what the butler said he was crazy about four years ago.

Moreover...... Lin Yuan seems to have said that I have the same face as that woman...... Yes, there are the same faces!

It's not the first time I've been used as a stand-in, and Lin Yuan's various words and deeds towards me have made me more sensitive...... That's right, I'm being used as a stand-in again......

His loss of control reminds me of what the old butler said, four years ago and four years later, only that woman could drive him crazy, right?and Lin Yuan's resentment and words against him all confirmed this idea......

So, all the occasional unwarranted gentleness and thoughtfulness before was for this reason? It was all for that woman? Or was it a premeditation that I had come here? just because he found me with the same face as the woman, and he premeditated all of it?

Oh...... It turns out that everything I got was because of that woman......

My heart suddenly became cold, inexplicably cold, and I couldn't warm up for a long time. I don't know why I found out at the beginning, and even heard Lin Yuan himself say that my heart was so calm when he was thinking about others through me, but at this time, it suddenly became cold.

I don't know why my heart is so sad, so sad that I lose the ability to think...... Is it because I feel like I'm being used as a stand-in and my self-esteem is insulted? But this is not the first time.

Perhaps, do I still care so much about his tenderness? The thought in my heart shook me, and I stared blankly at the man in front of me who was crouching on the ground and muttering in pain. Dumb, dumb......

Then an even more terrible thought naturally came into my mind: Jiang Kuo is crazy! He is crazy! I don't know if he used to be like this, but in short, he is like this now......

A flash of fear crossed my heart, and then another thought came to my mind: what about being used as a stand-in? I want to save him, I can't let him go crazy.

I squatted down in a panic and hugged him in a comforting and protective posture, his body stiffened for a moment, and then obediently leaned into my arms, like a child seeking protection, desperately arching his head into my arms, and muttering, "Yu'er, Yu'er......"

I hugged him back as much as I could, comforting him, "Good, good......"

He suddenly looked up at me, his eyes were a little misty, "Yu'er, don't leave me......"

I felt a pain in my heart, and kissed his forehead gently, but my heart was bitter, "Yu'er won't leave you......"

He was shocked, as if he was suddenly awake, and as if he was not awake, a bright color appeared in his eyes, and then he suddenly picked up my face and kissed it gently and passionately.

"Yu'er, you're mine, you're ......mine," a low murmur permeated the air. I sat still and endured it, for fear of accidentally irritating him again.

Just when I thought he was going to get more and more intense, he suddenly removed his lips and buried his face deep in my shoulder blades, gasping for breath.

After a long time, he suddenly picked me up with his backhand and gently held me in his arms, his eyes were as gentle and clear as spring water, looking at me seriously, eager to get an affirmation, and his voice was hoarse, "Yu'er, you said you won't leave me." ”

I'm embarrassed, don't look away, he's sober!

If it weren't for his low voice and slightly helpless expression, I would have almost thought he was pretending.

"I don't care, you said it!" His expression suddenly became nervous again, the light in his eyes was fierce and dangerous, and he stubbornly, "Are you lying to me?!"

I was startled, afraid that he would return to the same way he was just now, so I hurriedly replied, "I didn't lie to you!"

"Really?!" he smiled at once, like a naughty child, and leaned over to look me in the eyes, unexpectedly, there was no expected embarrassment in his heart, and even because of his smiling face, there was a hint of joy, and he pecked me lightly on the lips, like a child to hook me.

I was a little stunned, but I still answered and reached out to hook up with him.

At this time, I didn't know if I was facing a man six years older than me, or a stubborn boy.

What I didn't know was that I had somehow agreed to his request, and I could do it? Can I break my oath? Can a white lie be forgiven? How can I explain it to myself? I was so flustered that I didn't have time to think it all through.

He gently lifted me up, held me steady, and then carefully cleaned what was on my face, picked up the ripped veil and put it on for me - he hugged me gently and ** when he did all these movements, tightly, not letting go of a single step, like a real lover.

Lover? Lover!

I suddenly panicked again in my heart, regret, fear, I wanted to push him away, but his strength was stubborn and strong, he pulled me into his arms, and muttered happily and longingly, "Yu'er, from today on, you are the person I love the most." Yu'er, I want to be with you forever, Yu'er, do you love me?"

I didn't speak, then he paused and continued, "I know you're sad when we receive gifts today, Yu'er, can I let you be the eldest lady?"

That quote was really moving," ...... If you want to have one heart, he can't give it to you, I can give it to you......"

I stared blankly at his extremely serious face, and I couldn't tell whether this was a real illusion, and that he was talking to that woman......?

"Rain?"

"No need. "I came back to my senses, and I didn't look over it in a perfunctory way.

"Why?" he suddenly smacked my head seriously and earnestly, "don't you like it?"

I said with some difficulty, "Where are you going to get rid of them?" ”

"You don't have to worry about that. He said happily.

“……”

"Yu'er, I will be your husband in the future, you are my wife, you are not allowed to always think about whether others know or not?"

“……”

"Yu'er, I will be your husband in the future. I know you can't forget him for a while, it's okay, let's work together, you're going to fall in love with me. ”

"......" I looked up at him, who was he talking to at this time? Yu'er? Could that be the name...... Could it be that same person? Could it be that as soon as I entered the door, or earlier, I was taken advantage of?

It's horrible, no, no, it won't. I consoled myself that this was just my own idea, unproven. But the next sentence makes people more sober......

"Yu'er, I've been looking for you for so many years, and we can finally be together. Yu'er, I am the happiest person in the world. He lowered his head and kissed me tenderly.

I've only been twelve years old and I've never seen him...... Where did you come from looking for me for so many years?

I hesitated, a heart alternating between fiery and cold.

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Running naked again... Fortunately, this time it wasn't like last time. There wasn't much hope, so there wasn't much disappointment. Lost, there is still a little bit of it.

Shui Shui recently fell in love with a book written by a man named Su Hei. Self-love, she said, doesn't have to wait. Not only does love not have to wait, but other things don't need to be too persistent. We just have to make an effort, and whether we succeed or not may not be very important. Sometimes what we hold on to in our hearts is not love, not attachment, but obsession.

Just let go and be kind to yourself. You're still you, and you can laugh at the same breeze.

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