Ling Chen Xiaoxi said that after a heart-pounding ambiguous period with his Indonesian girlfriend, he first found himself falling into a strange circle.

There were days when the girl said she was too busy to have a long talk with him; For the next few days, the girl blamed him for neglecting his care, and hardly talked to her much.

He was deeply terrified of the "feeling" of the opposite sex.

Further back, some "facts" happened.

She didn't know anything about the Indonesian tsunami when it spread around the world, so he knew that she never cared about the news, and was more familiar with scandals. She failed the first time she took the language test for studying abroad, and the second time she lied about the military situation. He could only think that she was not as smart as she said, at least not as motivated as she was. Therefore, he still does not know whether it is true that he works part-time in computer affairs for the army.

Her moodiness, her love of complaining, her rhetoric, her casualness...... Gradually resurfaced. He began to secretly blame himself for his frivolity and decided to put an end to this online relationship with too much imagination.

However, there was really no way to do it in a flash, so he decided to fly to Bali in person and break up in person. He also bought her a laptop as compensation for the breakup.

He couldn't say what the logic was, he just felt that it was worthy of his heart.

After meeting, after experiencing in person that the girl was indeed stupid and emotionally out of control, he was very glad that she had not passed the language test. Otherwise, if the girl went to the United States for him, how could he get rid of it. Play it N times repeatedly He won't come to Indonesia to live and the girl can't go to the United States on her own, since she can't cross the space, that's the end of it, don't waste any more time.

After a day's rest, he returned the way he came.

This time I was lucky, the connection was smooth and took almost 30 hours.

After listening to the "bad part", Zhu Beini felt much better.

Seeing Zhu Beini regain her familiar smile, Chen Xiaoxi glanced at the quiet room and moved carefully.

"I propose, celebrate." He blocked the possibility of her twisting face with his hand, and stepped forward, the tip of his nose touching the tip of his nose, breathing in unison, pecking at her lips like a dragonfly. If you want to welcome or refuse, you want to advance and retreat.

Zhu Beni's face burned, not because of the scheming kiss, but because of the restless hand......

A burst of itching, with the chest held by the hand as a dot, spreads like an electric current through the sympathetic nervous system of the whole body. Blood vessels constrict, the heart beats faster, pupils dilate, and adrenaline rushes......

"Ahh

Who forgot to scream.

Almost at the same time, two people at the same time realized that there was one more person in the room.

Zhu Beini woke up from a dream and pushed Chen Xiaoxi. Chen Xiaoxi pretended that everything was normal, reached out to hide her messy clothes, and looked up to say hello to the grains at the door.

"Hmm."

With a red face, she put down the hand covering her mouth, and stood cramped and uneasy, her eyes hanging low on the ground, not daring to look around. A grapefruit on the ground rolled to the center of the living room.

"You go first." Zhu Beini pretended to be calm and pushed Chen Xiaoxi out.

Chen Xiaoxi looked at the grains with cold eyes, and finally couldn't bear to ask, and saw that Zhu Beini was resolute and didn't look like she would leave the grains and go with him, so she left obediently.

Zhu Beini closed the door, walked inside, walked past Grain, and lightly picked up the grapefruit on the ground. Then he turned around and went to the kitchen to get a small fruit knife.

Peel the grapefruit on the table and hand a petal to the still helpless grains.

"I like to eat grapefruit the most, are you afraid that I will be lonely at home, so I rushed back from your little uncle's house early?"

Liang Li nodded busily, saw Sister Dabei's expression as usual, slowly relaxed, and began to sit on the dining chair and eat grapefruit.

Zhu Beini silently ate a slice and said slowly: "To be honest, you scared me just now. The first time I encountered something embarrassing like being bumped into, I really couldn't tell whether we should apologize to you or you should apologize to us. ”

The grains were so surprised that they forgot to chew the grapefruit grains they put in their mouths. She was bleeding to her head just now, and she screamed "ah" in a fierce reaction, obviously because she felt that her eyes were insulted, and the old wounds were aroused. How could I apologize to them?

To tell the truth, she has a three-word word, which starts with "no" and ends with "face", just because it is Sister Dabei, whom she has always liked, she couldn't help but blurt it out.

Zhu Beini didn't speak, and laughed out loud first: "You may think that I was very shameless with him just now, but it was actually a very healthy relationship." He is not married, I am not married, the two of us are in love openly, we are seriously cultivating love, and working towards a loving marriage. Kisses, caresses, and even sex are all inseparable parts of love. So, I wasn't doing anything unsavory with him...... Well, it's better not to be seen, so I should reflect on it.

I assure you, I promise you that this will not happen again in this suite during my stay with you. ”

She lowered her head and didn't speak, her joints turned white with a hand holding half a grapefruit, and the grapefruit water dripped down her fist. At the same time, there were tears.

With a swallowing sound that disturbed the silence, Grains spoke, and her voice was full of difficulty and grievance: "When I was young—not too small, not too big, ignorant of intimacy, but already knew what shame was—I, by accident, bumped into my parents, who were ...... I stood at the door of their bedroom, not realizing what I was seeing, my mother's face turned red, and she yelled, extremely ugly, 'Y' scolded.

I stood dumbfounded in the doorway. What really scared me was my mother's reaction.

Amid the incessant curses filled with hatred, I tried to run away, but the foot didn't seem to be mine. Not only did I cry, but I peed my pants. When my mother saw that I was still stunned, she was so angry that she threw something at me when she caught something in her hand, and I was hit on the forehead by an agarwood fan, magically leaving a pit that is still there today.

Later, I was especially afraid. Until now, I'm still afraid of seeing men and women together, and boys who show affection for me.

Don't you know when I don't? I know! I'm not normal!

However, I can only cling to my innocence, even if it is no longer suitable for my age. Because, I'm more afraid of being labeled, and I'm more afraid of being proven to be a and a.

For so many years, I was silently scared and tormented silently...... Until, until you just told me, I didn't bump into filth, and it didn't mean that I was YDang.

They owe me a fair one.

They ruined my mental health with their own hands.

I hate them! ”

Zhu Beini walked around the table and stroked her back with her hand, which became more and more sobbing as she spoke.

"Maybe your mother is just annoyed and angry, and she doesn't know what to do with her embarrassment, so in a hurry, she will be angry with you."

"But I'm a kid." Grains cried recklessly.