Han Shenyan came to the door of the ward and raised his hand to knock on the door.

I just didn't get any response.

He hesitated, then gave it a gentle nudge.

The door was unlocked and slowly pushed open.

It was a single room and seemed a little empty. The smell of disinfectant and alcohol filled the air.

The curtains were half-drawn, and the setting sun shone in, dyeing half of the room a slightly warm golden yellow.

But the other half of the hospital bed is still dark.

Zheng Xiyan was sitting on the hospital bed at this time, her long hair was a little disheveled, her face was pale, and her lips did not have a trace of blood. The white gauze wrapped around his wrist was shocking.

Even if Han Shenyan pushed the door and walked in, she didn't make any movement, just sat there quietly and looked out the window.

As if that was all she had.

What Han Shenyan saw when he walked in was such a picture. His heart suddenly felt a little uncomfortable.

Seeing that she used to get along day and night is now like this, he also feels uncomfortable.

Although he knew that he had done nothing wrong, that guilt still came to his heart irrepressibly. It's as if he was the one who caused all this.

At this moment, he really understood the feeling Lin Mingyue felt.

"Xiyan. He closed the door and gently called her name.

Hearing his voice, Zheng Xiyan turned his head, his eyes were a little hollow, and there was no focus, and after two seconds, he came back to his senses, showed a somewhat reluctant smile, and said, "You're here, I'm really sorry to worry you......"

was only halfway through speaking, and after looking at the pity in Han Shenyan's eyes, she couldn't say any more, and lowered her head, her long hair covering her expression.

Han Shenyan sighed secretly, opened the half of the curtain, and then came to the side of the bed and pulled a chair to sit down, and placed a glass of water on the bedside table.

He didn't say anything else, picked up the water cup and handed it over, "Let's drink some water first." ”

Her voice just now was hoarse, if she just listened to this voice, even Han Shenyan wouldn't be able to tell who it was.

Zheng Xiyan did not refuse, took it obediently, and then drank it.

Han Shenyan did it quietly, and unconsciously, a somewhat greasy fragrance came from the tip of his nose.

It's been a long time since I've asked, but it's still so familiar.

"You say...... Am I stupid?" Zheng Xiyan suddenly asked. She still kept her head down, holding the glass of water in both hands, looking pitiful and helpless.

But Han Shenyan was relieved in his heart, compared to the helplessness now, her forced smile just now made him more worried.

It's better to talk about things than to keep them in your heart.

"Why do you say that?" he asked softly, taking the glass of water from her hand and placing it back in its place.

"Everything is messed up, everything can't be done, it's all my fault. I didn't say anything about it because I almost affected the whole team before, but now it's like this again. It's all because I ......" her shoulders trembled slightly.

Han Shenyan looked at her like this, subconsciously raised his hand, habitually wanting to caress her hair, for a long time, when she was sad and sad, he would comfort her like this.

It was only halfway through the stretch that he suddenly remembered that many things were not the same now, but he didn't take it back when he looked at the gauze on her wrist that was still bloodstained.

"It's not your fault, no one knows it's going to be like this. He whispered comfort, his right hand feeling the slight coolness of her long hair.

"So many people have persuaded me...... Xianyun, Mingyue, and Crystal even quarreled with me...... But I ......" she clutched the snow-white quilt tightly with both hands, her voice was full of self-reproach, and then she raised her head...... I'm doing it myself......"

After finishing speaking, she didn't wait for Han Shenyan's answer, raised her left hand, looked down at the gauze on her hand, and muttered, "It's so stupid, even suicide failed." Team, dreams, love, career, you look at me, it turns out that there is nothing left......"

"Xiyan ......" Her words made Han Shenyan's heart tighten.

"Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything stupid like this again. Zheng Xiyan raised her head and smiled, but this smile didn't make anyone feel better, she curled up her legs, put her head on her knees, and looked sideways out the window.

"At that moment, it suddenly occurred to me that if I died, Crystal, my parents, Mingyue, and Xianyun would all be sad for me. She said quietly.

"And me. This sentence blurted out. If she could have more hope of survival, everything else seemed to be less important.

Zheng Xiyan turned his head, looked at him a little stunned and asked, "What?"

"I mean, I'm going to be sad too. Han Shenyan said seriously.

"Hmm. Zheng Xiyan's eyes fluctuated for the first time, and she suddenly found that he was still caring about herself.

"Can I lean in?" she asked, a little inexplicably.

Han Shenyan did not refuse.

She leaned gently into his arms.

The two did not continue to talk, watching the sunset outside the window set little by little.

"That's good. After some time, she straightened up and whispered. "Thank you, I feel so much better. She turned her head and said, and she could see that she was in much better shape than when he first arrived. Sometimes a smile and a greeting can make people feel warm. One sentence can do what drugs can't.

At least for Zheng Xiyan, that's the case. That sentence and me made her feel warm.

"Shenyan, you know what?"

"What?"

"I love you. "Three words suddenly. Han Shenyan was a little overwhelmed.

"It's probably hard to change that. She sighed, "It's much better to say it, okay, you just pretend you didn't hear it, or you won't know the moon, but you're going to be jealous." ”

There was a brief silence in the room.

After a while, there was a commotion at the door, and a knock followed.

"Please come in. ”

Jin Xianyun, Huang Yuying, and Xu Chuqing entered the trio. Zheng Xiyan had such a thing, how could they not come? What itinerary, what previous plan, how can they compare to their sisters?

After seeing Han Shenyan, he couldn't help but pause, but then, the attention of the three of them was attracted by Zheng Xiyan.

Seeing Zheng Xiyan's appearance, they all shed tears.

Han Shenyan didn't stay here any longer, and quietly walked out. Take a seat on the bench in front of the door.

Today's events are really a great touch for him.

Even though I knew that she had depression and even suicidal tendencies, I always thought in my heart that it would always get better, and she couldn't have taken this step.

But now...... Luckily, nothing happened, if it really ...... He didn't dare to think about that possibility. But even just thinking about it makes my heart feel torn.

And......

And the sentence I love you just now.

At that moment, his heart really loosened. It's just that he hasn't forgotten his agreement with another person.

At this moment, the sound of hurried high heels came.

Han Shenyan raised his head, and his eyes were like a familiar figure, Lin Mingyue.

The two didn't exchange too much pleasantries after making eye contact.

What is more important than Zheng Xiyan now?

Lin Mingyue pushed open the door.

"Mingyue, are you here?" I thought you would arrive first, hurry up and persuade Xiyan together......"

The door was shut.