1. Zheng Xiyan sat on the bed.

You can still hear the wind and rain outside the window.

She turned on all the lights in the bedroom, and it was like daylight in the room.

She looked blankly at the opposite wall, where the wedding photos of the two hung there.

White wedding dress, black dress.

Obviously, she had already taken it off before, not only this one, but all the photos in the house were taken off the bed by her, and those small ornaments were no exception.

Unexpectedly, now they found it again and hung it on the wall. But that's your own request, isn't it?

It's just that now it looks like it's really a bit glaring.

She sighed softly, she might as well take it off again tomorrow, now she didn't want to move.

In fact, her mood is now much lighter than just now, a lot. The things that have been suppressed in my heart for a long time finally have a chance to confide.

What can't you say about your parents?

They were naturally shocked and a little difficult to accept about their divorce.

Although they also can't do much other than comfort themselves.

But that's enough. At least I know that I still have them by my side, and I will support myself unreservedly without any conditions.

I'm not alone.

She sat back on the bed, then pulled a notebook out of the bedside table and flipped it open.

The notebook has been used halfway, densely recording her previous moods and thoughts.

I don't know when I got into a habit.

For her, it wasn't for the record, and the words she wrote down were never read again, they were just a way for her to decompress.

She pulled out her pen, the tip of which rustled across the page.

"It's really over. Between me and him, there is no room for recovery. But it's all a matter of course. Looking back now, his mood at that time was even more uncomfortable than his own mood now. ”

"So, you can be regarded as self-inflicted, Zheng Xiyan. ”

The tip of the pen sliced through the paper, and she picked up another line to continue writing.

"Actually, I had expected this for a long time, just yesterday when I received the song from Crystal. But what I didn't expect at all was that it turned out that he was already with Lin Mingyue. ”

"My best sister. and the people I love. ”

As she wrote this, she paused, her knuckles a little white.

It's still hard to completely let go.

"Mingyue, how can you do this? How can you do this to me? Do you know, when I heard this, I was very emotional? You know, the heartache of not being able to breathe?"

"Do you know? Mingyue, my first reaction after I knew about this incident was really wanting to quarrel with you like a shrew, scold you, and then be a stranger from now on, never to see you again!"

"Dreams, but dreams are not so important to me anymore. It's a pity that I already understood it too late. ”

"But the moment I saw you, I couldn't say anything. Even I don't know why. ”

"Maybe it's because of our relationship for a decade. ”

"Maybe it's because you've done nothing wrong. From beginning to end, it was me who was wrong, and this is what I should have suffered. ”

"Or maybe it's the smile on your face when you see me, and your concern. ”

"But none of that matters anymore. It's all over after all, isn't it?"

Writing this, Zheng Xiyan smiled bitterly, put down the notebook, and turned his head to look out the window.

Except for the lights in the distance, it was pitch black and nothing could be seen.

It's just that those gifts may never have a chance to be given out again. ”

As she spoke, she leaned over and opened the drawer of the bedside table.

Inside, lying quietly are several delicate gift boxes.

She took them out and opened them one by one.

First, a belt, which she had prepared in advance for their second anniversary. But I didn't expect that time, but it became the beginning of the end of the two.

Then, there was a tie, which she had prepared for his birthday, and he had become an entertainer again, and she would be happy if she could see him on TV. October 23rd, obviously I didn't deliberately remember the date, but I can always remember it.

Finally, she opened the third and final box. In that box, a watch. She bought the watch on Valentine's Day, but she didn't plan to give it to him on Valentine's Day in the first place.

She had given him a watch before, but this one had a different meaning.

Perhaps, on which day will the two reconcile, it will be more appropriate?

Once the table, is an end. Then the current watch represents a new beginning.

But it's still that beautiful vision.

Every minute and every second is with you, never separated.

However, in your world, there is finally someone else's existence.

So these are just a sigh.

She put it away. Then he picked up the pen again and rustled it in his notebook.

Her mood.

with her life.

"And that song. The song he deliberately wrote for himself. ”

"Actually, when I saw this song, I already knew the ending, but after all, I still had the last hope. As K. However, he still failed to live up to Crystal's expectations. Now, K doesn't exist anymore, I'm sorry, Crystal. ”

After writing, she took out a few pieces of paper from her bag.

At that time, a sheet music, and a divorce settlement in triplicate.

She looked at the lyrics on the score.

He hummed softly.

Since, this is what you want.

Then I'll show you.

Let you see a completely different me.

Let you see the more beautiful me.

Let you see me who is happier than you.

Then on the two divorce agreements, he solemnly signed his name.

After doing all this, she let out a sigh of relief.

"So, Zheng Xiyan, let yourself be happy again. ”

"And, in addition to love, you also have affection, you have parents, and crystals by your side. ”

"You still have these sisters. ”

"You still have your dreams. ”

"You're not alone, and you're not alone. Luckily, there are them. ”

"So, smile, Zheng Xiyan. ”

After saying this to herself, she got out of bed, turned off the light, and before walking past the dresser, she smiled in the mirror, and the person in the mirror gave her a smile in return.

It's reluctant, and it's ugly.

It's always going to be okay, though.

Just like before, just like him.

The lights are turned off.

The bedroom was plunged back into darkness.

And today's night will be extraordinarily long.