"Really, I didn't know what it meant to be sad since I was a child. ”

Xiang Li leaned on the sofa, his eyes were open, and there were tears in his eyes, so he looked at Jiang Cheng like he was drunk and looking at flowers: "The saddest time is that I don't study well with my husband, and I was spanked by my aunt, my aunt is the most fierce, and she dares to spank me, my mother is hard and soft-hearted, and the most powerful punishment is to lock me up, and it won't last long, either she can't bear it, or my father secretly let me out." ”

Xiang Li recalled: "I was so young, but I remember it all, I can't forget it...... The big dog in the yard is called the northwest wind, because it always likes to bark in the wind, my aunt pulls my uncle's ears all day long, and my uncle makes a grimace for me, Mama Qiu is like this grandmother, she is very good to me, I drill rockeries for a while, and climb trees and walls for a while, she follows me in fear, always chasing me with a bowl to feed me......"

"Later...... It's gone, it's gone. ”

Jiang Cheng was infected by her emotions and couldn't help but ask, "What happened later?"

He vaguely knew that it must have been a terrible, terrible thing.

"At that time, there was a general, guarding Liangzhou in the northwest, I used to hear my father and mother mention this name, when they mentioned it, they couldn't help but quarrel, I didn't understand it at the time, and later I learned that this general was called Jiang Yao. ”

Xiang Li's expression seemed to be frozen, and he came down coldly: "Liangzhou is the north, the north rejects foreign enemies, and the Beimang people have always been the biggest threat, so it is very important there, Jiang Yao is the general of the Northern Emperor, commanding the entire Northern Liang Army, with nearly 500,000 troops in his hands, and all of them are elite...... My father, as a doctor of imperial history, should be outspoken, but Jiang Yao's power in the court is also extremely huge, after many hesitations, because once Jiang Yao entered Beijing, above the court, openly and secretly threatened the old emperor, my father couldn't stand it, and said that Jiang Yao had a heart of disobedience, and he should be removed from his post at the least, and he should be imprisoned at the worst. ”

Xiang Ya smiled sadly: "I didn't understand these things at the time, I only knew about them when I grew up...... At that time, I only remembered that after coming back, my father's face was not good, and he argued with his mother behind closed doors, and then he released the letter kite, and later I knew that he had notified the head of the Kunlun Sword Sect at that time, and he and my father had a relationship, but it was only a one-sided relationship, and it was not a deep friendship, and even thought of this kind of way that was not a solution, which shows how tense the situation was at that time. ”

Jiang Cheng just listened, and he could imagine what kind of pressure it was: "Your father is a senior official in the imperial court, and Jiang Yao is a general who guards one side, even if he has some power in the court, can he still be lawless?"

"Yes, it stands to reason that we shouldn't be afraid of him. Xiang Ya sighed deeply, his eyes seemed to be looking into the distance, extremely sad: "But I only remember that night, countless masked black-clothed people came to my house, lit fires, killed people, and escorted me and my mother into the tunnel, fled outside the city, and they chased them outside the city...... Outside the city was a group of brightly armored black soldiers, Jiang Yao's black-robed army, who came to the capital with an elite and waited there. ”

Jiang Cheng didn't dare to imagine that there would be people around him who had experienced such terrifying memories.

For a moment, he seemed to see the dark night of iron and blood, surrounded and intercepted, women and children, and murderous black-armored soldiers.

Xiang Li's expression was a little trance-like, the tears just now had condensed on his face, and only his eyes were still red: "I'm not dead, the people from the Kunlun Sword Sect have arrived, Helian Qiming...... That is, my later senior brother, the later head, he only had ...... at that time Sixteen or seventeen years old, still a teenager, but already a martial arts powerhouse, he brought a group of senior brothers, came to save us, they advanced the city, my father asked them to save me, the senior brother has not told me how the city was that night, but I want to know, my father is estimated to be dead at that time. ”

"Jiang Cheng, I'm actually in the Kunlun Sword Sect...... For many years, everyone didn't like me, everyone avoided me, my senior brother rescued me and took me to Kunlun, I was grateful to him from the bottom of my heart, but I was not close to him, because since he saved me that night, for seven years, he didn't say a word to me......" Xiang Ya looked at him and said sadly: "Do you know why?"

Jiang Cheng couldn't imagine it, so he could only shake his head.

Xiang Ya smiled sadly: " Because too many people died that night, in order to save me, more than 20 senior brothers died, and there is a senior sister named Zhu Feifei, this senior sister, I heard that she was the most favored little junior sister of the Kunlun Sword Sect, and she is also the person my senior brother likes, she has a special ability, to a certain extent, to control birds and beasts, at that time we were cornered, there were flying horses in the sky to chase on foreign birds, and there were black horses below to intercept, at that time she exhausted her true yuan and divine sense, so that all the birds and beasts in the sky and the earth turned, and those strange beasts ran away with helpless soldiers, and we were able to escape, but Zhu Feifei died, I knew that she died to save her brother, not to save me......"

Xiang Ya smiled, extremely bitter: "But in the final analysis, they all died for me, my mother also died in order to save me from being pierced through the heart by a sharp arrow, and fell in front of me, Mama Qiu covered my face with her hand and didn't let me see it, but soon she also fell, her palm slowly slid down, no one blocked the blood and sword anymore, I saw everything, the people around me fell one by one, I was exposed to such a cold world for the first time, and I saw the cold and darkness to the bone." ”

"So I went from the eldest lady who holds the moon in the stars to the broom star that everyone respects and avoids. ”

Xiang Ya hugged her knees with her hands, rested her chin on her knees weakly, and cried again as she spoke, burying her face in her lap and sobbing silently.

Jiang Cheng suddenly felt that his eyes were also wet, he sniffed his nose and adjusted his emotions, this kind of huge sorrow is too contagious, it is difficult not to be affected, he sat down a little, stretched out his hand to hug Xiang Li, and gave her some comfort, but looking at her shoulders that seemed particularly thin at the moment, he suddenly felt that his current actions would not be a bit of a danger to others?

At this time, Xiang Ya suddenly changed her posture, she put her legs diagonally to the right side, and then hugged Jiang Cheng's right arm, leaned over, buried her face in his right arm and cried.

Jiang Cheng's heart was pounding wildly, and after a long time, he hugged Xiang Li's trembling shoulder, stopped her in his arms, and then patted her shoulder and said, "Okay, okay, it's all my fault, I made you cry...... It's all gone, it's all gone. ”

Xiang Ya is still crying, as if he wants to express his loneliness, fear and grievances for more than 20 years.

A little girl of six or seven years old, who suffered the scourge of annihilation, saw her loved ones killed, and before she could recover from her fear, she was sent to a strange environment, and because she killed many people, including a girl who was once the most favored, she was so cold-eyed that even the most prestigious disciple, Helian Qiming, who rescued her there, did not want to pay attention to her, and the others would not pay attention to her.

What does that feel like?

"I can't empathize with what you've been through, because there's only trivial pain in my life. Jiang Cheng patted her on the shoulder and said softly: "But I promise, you won't endure that kind of loneliness in the future, if you face danger again, no matter what kind of sword and fire, I will definitely come to save you, I will save you for the sake of saving you......"

To save you for the sake of saving you, just for you, not like them, for friendship, for promises, for orders, after saving you, blame you for everything.

But no one is wrong.