――Written for the death of his younger brother Zhenhua

Hua, little brother, Zhenhua! How did you get there? And I walked so suddenly, so quickly, so fast, it really made my sister feel terrified!

On the morning of your departure, January 31, 2011, you called me and said, "Bring your and your brother-in-law's change of clothes and medicine and stay for a few more days."

At 5:05 p.m. on January 31, my nephew Cheng Xin suddenly called and said: "Second aunt, my brother-in-law is not very well, you two come over", I heard it, my heart suddenly became nervous, I have a bad premonition, it must be your sudden illness and it must not be light. When the two of us walked halfway by car, Cheng Xin called again and said, "Take a taxi, take a taxi!" "I feel the cold air all over my body, and I have a premonition that you are seriously ill, and it is a question of whether you can see the last one.

When I arrived at your house, when I entered the door and saw that there was no you in the house, only my brother, I thought you were in the hospital, and my brother murmured, "It's gone, it's gone." I burst into tears. I haven't seen you for three days, so why don't you have it? How much more are you so alive? Oh my God, my God, what's going on?

At about eight o'clock in the evening, we will go to see you in the city's "Jingxiangyuan" (a place to park the remains and pay tribute). You lie quietly in a glass coffin with your eyes closed, and your face is not ugly at all, as if you are sleeping. I didn't believe in your death, and cried and said, "Is there any gas?" Your brother-in-law Cheng Xiwen said: "If I want to be angry, can I not save him?" "It's cold when I touch your cheeks, but I still don't think you're dead, I cry in the glass coffin, but no matter how much I cry, I can't cry you, little brother! Why did you leave like this?

Ten days ago, you said that you were a little confused, and you were preparing New Year's items in an uncomfortable situation. You say: "My sister Xia is gone, don't go to her house for the New Year, go to my house for the New Year." "You especially let our sister and brother-in-law, who lost their son, come to your house for the New Year. You don't hesitate to spend money, you have bought all the items you need for the New Year, you are ready for everything, you are like your sister Xia, you have done everything for everyone to go to your house for the New Year, and you are ready to have a good New Year with everyone. However, you left alone like your sister Xia, and it was precisely in the joyful atmosphere of preparing for the New Year that you died tragically!

There is no problem with your CT scan, we are both happy for you, thinking that you have a good brain and no infarction, who would have thought that you would get sick and die! Later, I heard that from 2 to 4 o'clock in the afternoon of January 31, my younger sister Jinghui went to the neighbor's house, and when she came back after 4 o'clock, she found that your situation was not right, and immediately panicked and called relatives and "120". After more than an hour of rescue to no avail, you're still gone! It is speculated that when you were alone at home, you were wiping the small table in the veranda and you got sick, and you felt unwell and went to the bed in the south room and lay down, and then you couldn't move. What is wrong with you? Is it a cerebral hemorrhage or myocardial infarction? There is no definite answer yet, no matter what kind of disease has taken your life, you have not even left a word, what a pity!

You are not very old, from February 22, 1956 (the 11th day of the first lunar month) to 5:30 p.m. on January 31, 2011 (the 28th day of the lunar month), you are just 54 years old, and you will have your birthday on the 11th day of the first lunar month in 10 days, but unfortunately you did not wait for your birthday to come and left!

Looking back on your life is full of ups and downs. When you were young, your family was very poor, and your parents were not harmonious. When you were twenty-one years old, you left your hometown to join your sister and came to K City, thousands of miles away. It was you who accompanied and served my mother through her life. When your mother died and lay on the bed in the morgue, you stroked her cold and stiff face with your hands, and your tears rolled down.

After your mother died, you went to work in a television factory. You study hard in your spare time, every day until midnight. Soon after you went to junior high school, you caught up with that special era, the school is no longer in class, you have not learned a lot of knowledge, but you want to be admitted to the university, it is really a bit whimsical, but after your hard work, the hard work pays off, you are really admitted to the university, studying at the K City Staff University. When you first entered college, you were in the bottom few grades, but after your hard work, you rose to the top few. After graduating, you continue to work in the factory. Because of your enthusiasm, you were sent to Japan for further training and you also became the head of the science and technology delegation. After returning to China, you worked hard, were motivated, and became a leader in the factory. Later, you became the workshop director and branch director. As a leader, you have the method, the courage, and the achievements are remarkable. Later, the factory closed down, and you were laid off and had no job. In order to survive, you go to Dalian to work, or be a leader, and your work ability is still at ease.

You are quick to think and eloquent, and after my son and your nephew had an accident, you went to Beijing to help my daughter-in-law take care of her son's funeral. Your confession has made the relevant departments full of praise. You can still write and draw, fast and well.

You are talented, but unfortunately there is no fixed place to use after being laid off, it is really a bit of a nostalgic talent, but you will always be a shining star.

You are the youngest of the five siblings, but you are very sensible and do everything well.

You are humble, discreet and thoughtful. Whether it's for your colleagues, friends, or loved ones, you're the same. At work, you get along with your colleagues like a family, and you have a very good relationship. You care for your relatives and friends, especially for your family, including your parents, siblings, wife and children, you have broken your heart for everyone. No matter how big or small, you can get it, you can do it, whoever has a problem, you reach out to help, and you can solve problems. Your heart is heavy, you have any worries, you never tell anyone, you bear everything silently. You have the spirit of spring silkworms and candles, and you will always give out heat to warm everyone.

Your life is very frugal, you never buy clothes, and you don't let others buy them for you. For the past few years, you have been worried about your son's work and starting a family. You save every copper plate, you smoke cheap cigarettes, and you don't even want to buy toilet paper and use newspapers......

Hua, you only have others in your heart, but not yourself. You are gone, but your light and heat are eternal!

Hua, little brother! Your departure is like a dream, we don't feel that you have left, and we are not willing to let you go, but we can't help but face the cruel reality! Our hearts are broken, our bowels are broken!

Brother Hua, farewell!

Rest in peace, Brother Hua!

(February 2011)