The room was very quiet, after Chai Kejing finished saying those words, he just ate vegetables, drank drinks, and drank wine, and then after a long while, wiped his mouth with a disposable towel and said: "Xu Huanzhang went to Meishan, discovered you, a pacesetter at the grassroots level of water conservancy, and preached your things everywhere, as if you were cultivated by him, but he got his wish, and the goal was achieved, and he will go to the province to organize bu, It is considered a high ascension, but after your stepping stone was effectively used, it was forgotten by him, it should be said that you were used up by everyone and forgotten and abandoned. ”

"You were also mentioned in that meeting......"

Feng Zhe has always wanted to know what mentioned himself on the internal reference, Chai Kejing seemed to know Feng Zhe's thoughts, and said indifferently: "The internal reference is just a rough mention of your name, and the main content is about how Xu Huanzhang is bright, great, and correct." ”

Bright and great, this metaphor came out of Chai Kejing's mouth, which made Feng Zhe feel very interesting.

I see! I don't want to listen to the content of the internal reference.

Regarding Chai Kejing's "stopping" of the Meishan Reservoir, Feng Zhe thought about it for a while, and felt that it seemed to have something to do with Xu Huanzhang and Deputy Director Xu leaving the Water Conservancy Department.

Xu Huanzhang left the Water Conservancy Department and went to the provincial organization BU, but Chang Yiku, who was from the Provincial Newspaper Group, was transferred to the Water Conservancy Department, and Yan Fei and Chai Kejing were familiar with each other, and both of them were familiar to the point where they could participate in the birthday banquet.

Moreover, Qiu Zhangqing and Chang Yiku are brothers and sisters, Qiu Zhangqing left Meishan, Chang Yiku's breath for the little junior sister at this time does not seem to be a difficult thing, and it is logical to sell a favor to Chai Kejing, at the same time, Chang Yiku can also show his sense of existence after arriving at the Water Conservancy Hall, which is a few birds with one stone?

Chai Kejing's words. It made Feng Zhe think a lot, because there were too many possibilities for the situation here.

Sometimes life is so strange, a very simple thing is intertwined with many secrets that you are difficult to detect.

But why did Chai Kejing help herself?

In the previous paragraph, Feng Zhe was in a bad mood and was in a bad mood. is also to deal with Chai Kejing, so she mentioned in a text message that she was moved to the nest of five non-cadres, and it seems that Chai Kejing had the idea of venting her anger to her old classmates at that time.

But just for the sake of classmates?

This argument is far-fetched.

"Actually...... I've always been — very cowardly, or rather afraid of rejection...... Really, I've always been a little – timid. Maybe it's just timidity, some things, some things I obviously like, but I'm afraid to pursue it, but I will lose it forever, so I always hesitate again and again, this is actually a poor self-esteem, or rather, there is a little bit of pride. And pride is also transformed from deep unconfidence, because I am afraid that I won't get it, so I pretend not to care at all...... Am I a little ridiculous, you say?"

Faced with Chai Kejing's inquiry, Feng Zhe was speechless, he didn't know how to answer Chai Kejing, he could only listen.

"If everybody knows you're like that and thinks you should be like that, if you've always been like that, maybe you don't want to be like that. But aren't you tired of holding on to your watch like that?"

"That"?

"What"?

Chai Kejing's words were a little rappy, but Feng Zhe understood.

Chai Kejing didn't wait for Feng Zhe to answer and said, "Sometimes, you and everyone see me. Actually, it's not the real me, or it's not the me I want to really express, but everyone else thinks I'm what I should be, and if I change, what can I change?"

The "you" and "everyone" in Chai Kejing's sentence "You and everyone see me" are very heavy, and I don't know how to focus on "you". Or "everyone". Feng Zhexin said why do you need to change, what you said, in fact, everyone has similar ideas, everyone has a side that shows people with a mask and a side that is hidden in the shadows and is not known to the public.

"Just over there, everyone said that something happened before that is still fresh in their memory, and I said that the story of the bank card is only unforgettable, but it is not deeply rooted in my mind, do you want to know what is the most memorable thing for me?"

Can I choose not to listen?

Faced with Chai Kejing's re-inquiry, Feng Zhe had no reason to refuse, he felt that he may, probably, and perhaps was facing a test and choice that he had never imagined, and this beautiful creature that gave him a test was close to him and within reach.

This qiē is somewhat untrue.

A qiē is like being in a dream and in a false one.

After so many years, Feng Zhe is now, at this moment, he really looks at Chai Kejing, the school flower of the university, and is now a more mature and beautiful lady, and listens to her whispering some words that belong to women's privacy.

But why is this person who listens to the whispers himself, especially at this special time tonight?

Why?

Feng Zhe didn't dare to think about it anymore, and he refused to think deeply.

Chai Kejing propped her arms on the table, one hand supported her cheek, and the two fingers of one hand gently plucked the thin body of the wine glass, Feng Zhe couldn't help but pay attention to her fingers, these fingers were like green onions that had been peeled straight away, the nails were not smeared with color, with their own healthy and shining light, the palms were thin and even, the skin was delicate, one point was fat, one point was thin, and one qiē was so perfect, Feng Zhe felt that the cups that had been touched by Chai Kejing should be happy.

Yes, she even has so beautiful fingers!

Feng Zhe's mind was wandering, and Chai Kejing had already begun to narrate: "When I first went to college, one day I was out of the board newspaper, and it was almost class, and I wrote in a hurry, when someone said behind me: 'Tokyo in the Eastern Han Dynasty seems to refer to Luoyang, and Xijing refers to Chang'an, not the current title Xi'an. I looked at the manuscript carefully, and sure enough, I made a mistake between Tokyo and Xijing, and the writing was reversed, and Chang'an was also written as Xi'an. ”

"When I looked back at the person who was talking, he had already run away, so it can be seen that he did not deliberately want to talk to me like other male classmates...... And he always seems to be busy. Very taciturn. ”

"The first thing is nothing, it's ordinary, and the second thing is that I want to know him - do you know what it is?"

Feng Zhe looked at Chai Kejing's eyes. He felt that Chai Kejing's eyes were really beautiful, and the eyeballs were very dark, like an unfathomable deep pool, more like a black hole that could swallow a qiē, if he was not careful. You may be sucked into the black hole and never get out again.

Feng Zhe could only shake his head, because he knew that the person Chai Kejing was talking about was himself, and he would be questioned by her, and he couldn't admit that he knew everything, but in fact, he didn't know anything about Chai Kejing's inner world.

Chai Kejing stretched out her hand and brushed the tips of her hair, so that Feng Zhe's eyes shifted to her slender neck, which was delicate and full, wonderful and very visually impactful, reminding Feng Zhe of a noble and elegant swan. It is even reminiscent of the "Swan" song from Saint-Saëns's "Carnival of the Animals......

"In the summer of my sophomore year, there was a lot of rain, and one day it rained lightly, and when I passed through the dormitory, there was a drain that drained the water and I don't know if it was broken, or it was blocked, and there was a large pool of water in front of the dormitory building. But no one tried to clear it, and as a result, he didn't know what he was doing in the dormitory at noon that day—I knew he didn't usually live in the dormitory—and he saw it when he passed by. He took off his shoes, rolled up his pants, took off his shirt, exposed his arms, reached out to unblock the floor drain, and grabbed handfuls of dirty things in his hands and put them aside. The water in the pool was dirty, and I was standing not far from him. Looking at him, I don't know if it's sweat or rain, and I wonder why he is the only one who has this kind of awareness, and the others really have to wait until the school administrator comes to solve this problem?"

Chai Kejing's eyes looked at Feng Zhe, and his expression changed from hesitation and shyness at the beginning to firm and calm now: "I know that he is not a showman, he has no need for that at all, because he never wants to attract the attention of others, and attracting the attention of others will not help to change his life? So why do you do it, it can only be explained that he is kind and simple in nature! Sometimes actions are always more convincing than words." The more time passed, the more I wanted to understand him, what kind of person was he? He was like a fan, but he never gave people a chance, he was always so maverick, so hurried, so brilliant but not outstanding. I've been following him ever since, but I don't really know what to say to him about mine, my ...... Concern...... On the night of graduation, I, I plucked up the courage to say something to him, after all, it was probably the last time I talked to him, and after that night, everyone could really be close to the end of the world forever, but when I followed him to the top floor, I was interrupted by someone else...... That night, I thought, I really, probably never know a word about him......"

Chai Kejing's voice was very soft, as if he was reciting a beautiful prose affectionately: "However, some time ago, I walked aimlessly on Wuling Street, but I found his figure - he really does things that always make me feel strange, he is always silent at school, but that night on the street, he bargained with an old man who sold knives, and he talked like a disciple of a knife seller." ”

"The contrast is too great. ”

Chai Kejing finally looked at Feng Zhe squarely, and asked very seriously: "Feng Zhe, can you sue me, what kind of person is this?"

The room was quiet, and Feng Zhe seemed to be able to hear Chai Kejing's gradually heavy breathing.

The waiter at the service desk outside the private room was playing with his mobile phone, and faintly came the singing voice of "Can anyone tell me, have you ever loved me, the feeling of distress, and the loneliness of my ......", Feng Zhe's thoughts were ethereal, and the past came to mind so clearly......

The first thing Chai Kejing said, that day she went to school as late as usual, and happened to arrive at the place where Chai Kejing came out of the board newspaper, and the content Chai Kejing wrote at that time was: "Why do people often say 'buy things' instead of 'buy north and south'?"

This topic attracted Feng Zhe, he stood behind Chai Kejing and looked at it a few times, and found that Chai Kejing's handwriting was good, and saw Chai Kejing writing: Why buy "things" instead of "north and south": among the five elements, "east" represents "wood", "west" represents "gold", "south" belongs to "fire", and "north" is "water", so people say that buying "things" can only refer to buying utensils such as gold and wood, and "north and south" Water and fire are not suitable for buying and selling, and they cannot be brought home in vessels that contain things.

The second does not buy the north and south but buys the origin of things, is from the Eastern Han Dynasty, when Luoyang and Chang'an were very prosperous, one east and one west, Luoyang is called "Tokyo", Chang'an is called "Xijing", and the south is a wild and uncivilized land, the west is next door to the grassland, so everyone goes to Tokyo, Xijing to buy goods, is the so-called buy east and buy west, for a long time, "buy things" has become synonymous with shopping.

However, Chai Kejing reversed Luoyang and Chang'an, Chang'an was also written as Xi An, and the name of Xi'an was only called after the Ming Dynasty, Feng Zhe was talkative at the time, so he reminded Chai Kejing, and hurried to go to class after speaking.

But I didn't expect Chai Kejing to keep this in mind.

No, it's these two things - digging the ditch and sewer, Feng Zhe didn't think it was worth remembering, just did it, it was not worth mentioning, she had long forgotten it, but she just remembered it.

"What kind of person am I that matters to you?"

After thinking about it for a long time, Feng Zhe asked such a sentence.

But Chai Kejing's answer made Feng Zhe even more indifferent.

"Yes. (To be continued.) )