The spring rain shrouded the earth that had just sprouted in a thin layer of smoke. The sound of the rain is like a rhythmic music, and the raindrops are like cow hair, like flower needles, like filaments.

Whenever the spring rain is drenched, my heart can't help but set off rolling waves with the sound of rustling rain.

Say that the raindrops are like cow's hair, it gives me warmth and sweetness, that the raindrops are like flower needles, and it my heart with needles and needles, and makes my heart burst, and that the raindrops are like filaments, it arouses my wisps of affection and makes me return to that distant place.

Whenever the memory comes, the affectionate song rings in my ears:

On the third night of the Spring Festival/We began to meet/An invisible line/Connecting us/The night of the evening breeze/We walked slowly/The warm shrouded hut/We talked and laughed/The sumptuous feast/It means our vows......

As the singing continued, the smiling face of Chen Minghui, my beloved lover, appeared in front of my eyes, and as the singing voice drifted, the scene of me living with him flashed in my mind, and with the whirlwind of the song, I "wandered to my homeland" and entered a dreamlike realm, as if I was intoxicated.

Eighteen years ago, on a rainy spring night, I met Chen Minghui for the first time.

He was a soldier in Unit 3289 of Xinxian County, Liaoning Province at the age of 25, and I was also in my youth at that time.

After the matchmaker's introduction, I was full of shame and didn't dare to face it, but I just looked at him secretly: I saw that he was of medium stature and had a strong physique.

Under the thick black sword eyebrows, there are a pair of big eyes that are inlaid, and the hair is jet black, slightly curly, and with the grass green military uniform, it looks even more heroic.

He spoke elegantly and behaved generously. His handsome countenance, dashing demeanor, and refined language deeply touched my girl's heartstrings, thus playing the sweet melody of admiration......

In the second spring of our acquaintance, Chen Minghui returned.

In just 20 days of family leave, we either strolled along the grassy river, or sat side by side in the moonlit gazebo, we talked about life, talked about ideals, looked forward to the future, and tasted the sweetness of love......

And the scene when I sent him back to the team is still vivid in my mind and memory. The "woo" chirping train is getting closer and closer, I and Chen Minghui are standing next to the lilac tree, the bunches of blooming lilacs, elegant and fragrant, refreshing, making people feel like drunk, in fact, I have already drunk before I drink.

When I gave Chen Minghui a handkerchief embroidered with the words "I wish people a long time, a thousand miles together", a feeling of infinite regret for farewell slammed into my heart, making me sob.

Chen Minghui's eyes also rolled with tears, he put his hands on my shoulders, and said to me gently: "Don't cry, only one year, we will never be separated......"

At this time, I also hated myself, why was I so fragile and not shy. The train started slowly, Chen Minghui stood at the door of the carriage, smiling and waving to me, his smile was so reluctant......

I also waved my hand subconsciously, but my heart flew away with his fading figure, and I didn't come to my senses until there was only a wisp of green smoke left in the sky.

The affectionate song fluttered in my heart again:

A short time / condensed the deep affection of a fish / for the prosperity of the motherland / you set foot on the "level" The distance / beside the lilac tree at the station / Leave your farewell figure / The train that runs into the distance / Leave your smiling face / Now / Looking at the flying birds / Sing the song of my heart / May you / Like a vigorous eagle / Soar in the vast sky / May you / Like a vigorous green pine / Standing in the mountains / Ah / Our friendship / Stable as Mount Tai / Pure as snowflakes / Shining like gold / Eternal like the sun and the moon

Among those clouds, the year 1970 was the most memorable one for me.

This year, it has made me feel both infinite happiness and immense sadness.

On April 15 of that year, Chen Minghui and I were happily married.

How can I forget that warm night, it was "the moon shadow outside the window, vaguely hidden, I and you hand in hand, low and low, what is not to say?"

We looked at the full golden moon hanging in the deep blue sky, and whispered together, "In the sky, we wish to be a winged bird, and on the earth we wish to be a branch."

At that time, we were completely immersed in the incomparable happiness and joy of our honeymoon.

However, who knew that life was so colorful and unpredictable, and love was so sweet and sweet, with infinite meanings.

At the time of our great happiness and sweetness, there was suddenly such a day, April 25, 1970, which was a heart-rending day, but it was also a magnificent day.

I remember that day, it was the first spring rain.

The raindrops, thin, dense, like cow's hair, like flower needles, like filaments.

Spit green into a new earth, moistened by the spring rain, more vibrant. Chen Minghui and I went to my cousin's house in the sugar factory. On the way, we talked and laughed.

As we passed by the gate of the sheep farm, we saw many people rushing towards the factory, and it seemed that something important had happened.

Just when we were confused, I found my neighbor Wang Yueying in the crowd, I grabbed her and asked, "Yueying, what's wrong?"

Yueying hurriedly replied: "The pump in the well of the sheep factory is broken, and the workers go down to repair it, but there is no air in the well, and the person faints as soon as he goes down, and the public security bureau also comes." ”

As soon as we heard this, we immediately rushed to the scene of the accident.

We crowded to the shaft and saw people carrying the workers rescued from the well onto stretchers.

At this time, a worker shouted: "Hurry! There is still Liu Wancai from the Public Security Bureau in the well, he has fainted at the bottom of the well!"

The situation is very critical, and if he does not go down the well in time to save people, Liu Wancai is in danger of suffocating to death.

At this time, I saw Chen Minghui rushing up, grabbed the well rope and said, "I'll go down!"

If you go down, your life will be in danger, in case of misfortune......

I didn't dare to think about it, my spirit was extremely nervous, and I hurriedly grabbed Chen Minghui: "You don't want to die?"

Chen Minghui broke away from my hand and said eagerly: "Qin, it's important to save people!"

I was so anxious that I cried.

When I saw Chen Minghui glancing at me affectionately, I suddenly felt that the gaze was as tender as water, full of love for my newlywed wife, and I felt that the gaze was as blazing as fire, full of deep affection for the revolutionary comrades.

The fire boiled up the water, not the water that extinguished the fire......

In an instant, Chen Minghui climbed the rope without hesitation and rescued Liu Wancai, when Chen Minghui climbed the rope, the rope broke with a "click"!

My heart shook and my breath seemed to be broken!

When people rescued Chen Minghui, they saw that his lips were purple and his eyes were closed......

Chen Minghui never opened his eyes again, and he left the world he loved forever, and he left me forever.

I looked at his sleeping face, and broke my liver and intestines! "How is the intestine broken?

How can I believe that he, who was alive and well, died in an instant? However, this is an indisputable fact.

How much it all feels like a nightmare, how I wish it was a nightmare, how I hate that it wasn't a nightmare!

However, for me, this hatred is really "forever and sometimes, and this hatred is endless"!

The hearse carrying Chen Minghui's body traveled slowly in the spring rain.

The rhythmic sound of the rain seemed to weep for him. I cried silently, tears streaming down my face. The rain also flowed down my pale cheeks, and I couldn't tell which was the rain and which was the tears, the tears were the rain, and the rain was the tears!

I suddenly remembered that Chen Minghui had told me: "Qin, when I go to see Marx, you don't need to send me anything else, just sing me a song." ”

But who would have thought that similar jokes would now become a reality. Now that he is gone from me forever, I should fulfill his last wish and see him off with my singing:

You are like Lei Feng / is a nail that never rusts / put your limited life / into unlimited service to the people / to save your comrades / you are willing to sacrifice / Cangshan mourns for you / Songtao screams for you / Although death has taken your life / You are still alive although you are dead / You are a pine on the top of a high mountain / Brave the wind and snow / Forever green

Chen Minghui, my dear! I have been singing for you for many years.

This song is the crystallization of our deep affection, this song is condensed by your youth and blood, and this song tells people a correct life.

Whenever I am immersed in the dreams of the past, I deeply understand why you left me without hesitation, you are like Lin Juemin, one of the 72 martyrs of Yuhuatai, said in "The Book with My Wife", "I love you so much, that is, I love you a thought, so that I dare to die."

You are not burned by the fire of your children's love, but you go to the soup with the strength and courage inspired by love.

You have dedicated your fiery youth, sincere love, and precious life to the creator of history, the people.

You have achieved "Life is precious, love is more valuable." If it is free, both can be thrown"!

In your short 27-year history, although there is no sky-high fire in Shangganling, nor the amazing wind and snow in Yunzhou West Village, you have used your youth and life to compose a magnificent communist triumphant song, and you are also "great in life and glorious in death".

Although there is no touching epitaph in front of your tomb, you have erected an invisible but eternal monument with your spirit and quality.

Now, I'm even more aware that you deserved to die.

I should "weep for the people of the world, and be happy to sacrifice the welfare of my body and your body to seek eternal happiness for the people of the world", which is also your voice and hope.

Every time I think of this, I love you even more and miss you!

Rain, Xiaoxiao spring rain, you are the embodiment of Chen Minghui, you are sprinkled on my face bit by bit, it is Chen Minghui gently touching my cheek, comforting me with that gentle tone: "Qin, forgive me." I love you and I love others. In order to save my comrades, I can't take care of it. ”

Rain, Xiaoxiao spring rain, you are sprinkled on my body bit by bit, it is Chen Minghui gently patting my shoulder, enlightening me with that sonorous and powerful tone: "Qin, don't be sad, there are so many people with you, you work hard." ”

Rain, the slightest spring rain, please bring my heartfelt heart and comfort the heroic soul in heaven: "Don't worry, I will be one heart with you, heaven and earth!' I will never sink, and I will never be depressed." I am running with many others to the triumphant front!"

Rain, thin, dense spring rain, you bathe the earth, you moisten my heart, you cause me distant memories, you echo the sincere words: "Even if it is life and death, there are still thousands of feelings in my heart!"

(November 1985)