――Written for the second anniversary of Xiamei's death

Sister Xia, it's the Chinese New Year's Eve again, you have been dead for two whole years, and in these two years, my sister and I have missed you all the time!

Originally, the thirtieth day of the Chinese New Year's Eve was the happiest day of the year, people were pasting couplets, setting off firecrackers, and celebrating the New Year with joy, but you died tragically in this joyful atmosphere, which really hurts people's liver and intestines!

Sister Xia, whenever I miss you, I look back on your life, your life is still a life of joy and sorrow, hard work.

When you were young, not only was your family very poor, but your parents were torn apart. The family is so poor that they can't afford milk powder (due to the poverty of my mother and my father's arrogance, she has no milk at all), so I have to use sorghum rice and flour to feed you, and sometimes I am so poor that I can't even afford sorghum rice and noodles, so I go to my grandmother's house to ask for potatoes to feed you, but the cold grandma doesn't give it, it is my grandfather who secretly put a few potatoes in his pocket and brought them back to feed you, and you grow thin and withered due to malnutrition.

When you grow up, the conflict between your parents reaches a fever pitch, and they can't live together anymore and separate. At that time, you couldn't find a job, and your father didn't give you living expenses, and every time you asked your father for living expenses, your father scolded him more than once, so you went to the mountains and went to the countryside in a city thousands of miles away to become an educated youth. Whether the sun is scorching or the north wind is howling, you ride your bicycle to the countryside more than ten miles away to work. You sit in a house without a door and with ice on the beams of the house, weaving baskets and baskets, and you shiver with cold.

When the educated youth returned to the city after going to the countryside, you did not return to the city to arrange work because you did not have the certificate of the educated youth in the city going to the countryside. At that time, you are already married, and your family is poor with only one child. In order to survive, you try to earn money to make ends meet, but you get tuberculosis from overwork, and your life is even more difficult. When you substitute teach, your life will take a turn. Later, you and your brother-in-law worked together, and a handful of mud and a piece of billet built a few rooms like a swallow's nest to change the appearance of the poor and white. Then you worked in the neighborhood neighborhood committee until you died.

There are two main characteristics of your life: one is to work meticulously and serve the people wholeheartedly; and the other is to be enthusiastic about helping others and solving problems for others.

You are extremely conscientious and responsible in your work, and in the work of the neighborhood committee for more than 20 years, you have made a lot of contributions to the people, engaged in street construction, and solved problems for the residents...... Therefore, your deeds have been written and reported, you have become a representative of the Municipal People's Congress, and your deeds have been included in a special collection of celebrities.

On January 24, 2009 (the 29th day of the lunar month), the Chinese New Year was approaching, and the superiors assigned a snow clearing task. It is said that there is no person in charge of the residents' committee who organizes the residents to clear the snow, but only you lead the residents to clear the snow in the cold wind, and you are so serious about your work. It's a pity that you met a Diao Min who deliberately found fault and quarreled with you, and you suddenly fell ill and fell to the ground in anger. The people who were there at the time didn't know what you were sick with, so they took you to the hospital, where the doctor diagnosed you with a cerebral hemorrhage. You have a lot of bleeding (70-100 ml), your brain stem is full of blood, and the doctor says that even surgery will not help. Your last words were "sweep the snow away", and you were thinking about your work until you died. You died in the line of duty, but unfortunately, after you died of illness, your superiors did not recognize that you were injured at work, and there was not even a memorial service, how unfair this is.

Sister Xia, your care and love for your relatives make me never forget it. It can be said that you have broken your heart for your family and exhausted your strength, you are the pillar of your relatives, how can your death not make your relatives grief-stricken?

In the seventies, my mother came to a certain city from her hometown thousands of miles away, and you built a small house for her and served her until the end, so that her elderly and sick mother could be comforted.

In the 80s, when my younger brother went to Japan for further study, you took your nephew to your home and took good care of it, so that my younger brother could work in Japan with peace of mind.

In the nineties, my brother's family also came to a certain city from their hometown thousands of miles away, and when they first arrived, it was inevitable that there would be many difficulties, so you stepped forward and went around to solve their worries and difficulties, and with your help, my brother's family gradually got better.

My sister's family, the children have gone to school in other places to find jobs, and the family lacks manpower, so you and your brother-in-law and nephew will go to help.

As for me, thousands of miles away in my hometown, you buy clothes for me and my family every year. When my only child died in May 2008, you immediately took a bus to Beijing to visit and comfort us.

Sister Xia, usually, every New Year's festival or weekly week, you buy some delicious food and drink to gather everyone together to toast, especially during the Spring Festival, you and your brother-in-law prepare sumptuous items, and then let everyone come to your house to celebrate the Spring Festival. That is, a few days before you died, you went to work during the day, steamed bean buns and braised meat at night, and the supplies were very well prepared, and more than in any previous year. You want to have a good Spring Festival with everyone, but who knows that you died unexpectedly, what a pity!

Sister Xia, you originally planned to stop working until the end of 2009 and go home to celebrate your old age, now your family life is much better, and your son is also married and has a daughter, your old age should be happy, but who would have thought that you would die of illness, it is really heartbreaking!

Sister Xia, I originally planned that my son was gone, and we both went to you, and there are brothers and younger brothers, and you have always let us come, how good it would be for us to be in a city in our old age, but you left first before we moved in, it really breaks my heart when I think about it!

Sister Xia, our two sisters are the most confidant, they have nothing to talk about, they don't complain ruthlessly, you go, we can't talk to each other anymore!

Sister Xia, you have been lying silently in the cold cemetery, we will never see each other again in this life and this life, what a pity! How distressing! But we can't change the cruel reality, so we have to hope to meet again in the next life!

Sister Xia, rest in peace!

(January 2011)