(124) The Confusion of Living
You love me
Love is dead and alive
I love you
Love has no room for itself
You're always concerned about my news
I look forward to being with you every day
You said I wouldn't marry you
I said you don't want to marry
I await the moment when you marry me wholeheartedly
You said to me suddenly
Let's break up
I was overwhelmed with astonishment
Your eyes are so cold
I don't have a hint of hatred
It's just full of reluctance
The grief was so painful that my heart ached
Life has no color
All I have is given to you
Together with my chastity
I'm a ruined flower
Later days
I don't know how to spend it
Without you
Insomnia all night long
Food tastes like chewing wax
Curse all that is in the world
have lost their raison d'être
I want to forget about you
But the concern is even stronger
I do not know
The next journey of life
Where to stop
(Thursday, October 18, 2012)