(124) The Confusion of Living

You love me

Love is dead and alive

I love you

Love has no room for itself

You're always concerned about my news

I look forward to being with you every day

You said I wouldn't marry you

I said you don't want to marry

I await the moment when you marry me wholeheartedly

You said to me suddenly

Let's break up

I was overwhelmed with astonishment

Your eyes are so cold

I don't have a hint of hatred

It's just full of reluctance

The grief was so painful that my heart ached

Life has no color

All I have is given to you

Together with my chastity

I'm a ruined flower

Later days

I don't know how to spend it

Without you

Insomnia all night long

Food tastes like chewing wax

Curse all that is in the world

have lost their raison d'être

I want to forget about you

But the concern is even stronger

I do not know

The next journey of life

Where to stop

(Thursday, October 18, 2012)