Wiping the cold sweat off his forehead, Liao Fanmin couldn't sleep anymore, he tried to forget everything in the past, forget everything before rebirth, but more than two years have passed, he can't do it, the past is unbearable, otherwise after rebirth, Liao Fanmin will not work so hard, and use the results obtained from hard work to cover up the loss before rebirth.

His parents and sister were asleep, and Liao Fanmin put on his pajamas and walked barefoot to the living room.

A crescent moon hung in the air, Liao Fanmin lit a cigarette, stood on the balcony, silently looked at the quiet city, three o'clock in the middle of the night, it was the quietest time, all the sounds were silent, Xuanming City belonged to small and medium-sized cities, there was no prosperity of the metropolis, and the night was particularly quiet.

The memories in his mind came out one after another, making Liao Fanmin quite hesitant, maybe only when he was asleep, he went back to the past, tasted the ups and downs of the past, in his twenty-year-old body, there was a nearly forty-year-old soul, the success after rebirth, the loss before rebirth, intertwined, so that Liao Fanmin in the dead of night silently endured.

In the two years of Nanhua University, Liao Fanmin has almost never been to Handong District, which is under the jurisdiction of Nanhua City, because his lover before his rebirth is in Handong District, his wife in his previous life, she is still a little girl at this time, and she doesn't know what happened, and the two of them will probably not have any intersection in this life.

Liao Fanmin feels that the more he suffers from personal hardship, the more superstitious thoughts he will have, and he always thinks that tomorrow will be better, before he was reborn, because he fell in love in high school, his grades plummeted, and he was not able to be admitted to the ideal university, so that the life behind him became more and more difficult, his family was affected, and his family life was also miserable.

Before he was reborn, Liao Fanmin was already on the verge of divorce, and if it weren't for the children, his family would have been scattered long ago.

Is it because he suffered too much and suffered too much pain before being reborn, so after being reborn, he was able to seize all the opportunities, start over, continue to succeed, and live every day after rebirth.

Two cigarettes were smoked in quick succession, and there was a slight sound of footsteps in the living room.

Liao Fanmin didn't have to look back, he knew that it was his father Liao Zexi.

"Xiaomin, what's wrong, it's so late and I love the balcony alone. ”

Liao Zexi also walked to the balcony and looked at Liao Fanmin.

"Dad, I don't know what's wrong, I have some insomnia tonight, I can't sleep, so I went to the balcony to be quiet. ”

Liao Zexi sighed slightly.

"Actually, your mother and I didn't fall asleep, and your mother also remembered it just now, and I stopped it. ”

took out a cigarette and handed it to Liao Fanmin.

Liao Fanmin was not polite either, and lit the cigarette again.

"If it weren't for your mother's reminder, I wouldn't have thought so much, you are only twenty years old, and you have done so many shocking things, if you are not under great pressure, it is impossible, when I used to work in the Civil Affairs Bureau, I didn't have to think so much every day, that is, to complete the work tasks arranged by the leader, even if the sky fell and I didn't have much to do with it, now I am the deputy mayor, I understand that the leader has the difficulty of leadership, many things you have to make decisions, if you don't think seriously and make a wrong decision, the city suffers losses, not to mention, your conscience is not at ease。 ”

Liao Fanmin paused for a moment, looked at Liao Zexi, he suddenly thought that before he was reborn, his father had always been an ordinary cadre, without an official position, and most of his life was unknown, although he lived a poor life, but he didn't have to worry about it, but now the situation is different, as the executive deputy mayor of the municipal government, there are many things that need to be responsible, and he has to think about work every day, and he has to think about whether the decision he made is correct.

Perhaps in the eyes of ordinary people, leaders are high and live a life that ordinary people envy, but who knows that they need to worry too much.

"Dad, sometimes I do feel very tired, I remember when I asked Uncle Jia to no longer participate in any management matters of the company, my heart is also conflicted, to be honest, I study while working, and I have time to be energetic, many classmates in the university put their energy outside of study into the game, I don't play games at all, I can spare enough time to deal with work, but I just don't want to participate in the company's management matters, I think it's too hard. ”

"Earning more than 10 million dollars in stock speculation, I am even more afraid, even when the price of stocks begins to rise sharply, I can't be completely happy, I think stock speculation is speculation, is gambling, this is not something I can do, once in a while, has exhausted me, I dare not think about the torment at that time. ”

"Dad, in fact, I feel like I'm an ordinary person, I want to live an ordinary life, I don't want to be noticed by anyone, I don't want to show my face, I think about making money desperately, the purpose is to prove myself completely, and now it's a small success, but I can't be happy, I always feel that my life shouldn't be like this. ”

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After Liao Fanmin finished speaking, Liao Zexi was silent for a while, looked at Liao Fanmin carefully, and then spoke.

"Xiaomin, you said these words, I was very surprised, maybe your mother and I didn't care enough about you before, just paid attention to your academic performance, didn't know your inner thoughts and suffering, ignored a lot of things, your words made me feel uncomfortable, you should not think so much at your age, you are only twenty years old, you are going to college, it should be a carefree time. ”

"Since you have these thoughts, then I have to talk about them, even if it is an adult conversation between you and me. ”

"Any person, a lifetime can not be smooth sailing, in those great people, it is even more revealed, most of us are ordinary people, they have their own joys, sorrows, and sorrows, just say that our secretary and mayor, usually manage a lot of things, and behave very serious and mysterious, but their family life is also ordinary, they also need to face firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea, they also have joys, sorrows, sorrows, and sorrows. ”

"At the age of 20, you saved a company, and obtained a huge amount of money by speculating in stocks, I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, from the good side, you proved your ability at such a young age, and used money to prove your success, which is almost impossible for other young people to do, you are fully qualified to be proud, from the bad side, such a huge success, not what you should get at this age, you have not suffered too much, and you have not even entered the society, and suddenly got such a huge wealth, it is inevitable that you will be overwhelmed, and even hesitant and lost。 ”

"There are no such examples in society, and I have a very deep memory of the strike hard in the early 80s, and the sons and daughters of many leading cadres' families have fallen into the abyss of crime because of the lack of strict control, and their crimes have brought great pain to their families and ruined their own lives. ”

"To be honest, I don't want you to bear too much pressure, at your age, falling into the worldly strife too early is the biggest impact and test for the mind that is not particularly mature. ”

"After I came back from Nanhua City, I have been a little worried, I think about you every night, I don't know what you really think in your heart, I don't know how you really feel, I just think it's incredible. ”

"You and Cheng Yahui are in love, your mother is also worried, Cheng Yahui's family is not ordinary, far better than our family, with an unusual social status, maybe for a long time in the future, we all need to accept the help of her family, this kind of inequality in social status, throughout life, you need to have enough wisdom to deal with it, otherwise your family is likely to fall into disputes in the future. ”

"I just heard you say these words, I am a lot relieved, it turns out that you are also under pressure and hesitation, and you don't even know how to choose the future road, what I want to tell you is that it is normal for such a situation to occur, there is no need to avoid it, just face it bravely. ”

"In two years, you will graduate, facing the choice of work, your mother and I both hope that you can enter the government to work, we don't want you to run a business, in fact, we also consider not wanting you to be too stressed. ”

"You are mature enough, you must know what kind of choice you should make in the future, you also have a plan, your mother and I will respect your choice, we just put forward hope, the final decision, or you choose yourself. ”

"I also have some contradictions, according to your maturity and rationality, it is best to work in a government unit, so that you can get the greatest sharpening, be able to calmly deal with too many complex relationships, and understand a lot of things, you will definitely be able to succeed, but this is not an ordinary road, there are too many ups and downs. ”

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Liao Zexi let out a long sigh.

"Okay, Xiaomin, I've said everything I need to say, it's already late at night, go back and sleep for a while. ”

"Dad, you go to sleep first, you have to go to work tomorrow, I'll go to sleep in a while." ”

Liao Zexi went back to the bedroom.

Liao Fanmin looked at his watch, it was not yet half past three.

The conversation with his father Liao Zexi just now made Liao Fanmin feel a lot more comfortable, he fully understood the truths that Liao Zexi said, and he even had personal experience of many truths.

The outside is still quiet, looking at this quiet scene, Liao Fanmin's heart has a warm feeling, he knows that the memories before rebirth will accompany him for a lifetime, whether it is a painful memory, or a vigilance for life after rebirth, it must be faced.

There are painful memories, this is actually nothing, everyone needs to face, everyone has a scene that they don't want to look back, everyone is also struggling and running for life, as long as you can overcome the fear in your heart, overcome yourself, then the future life, you can be in good control.